Alone that’s what I am, as I wander these streets full of couples. It makes me sick, why are they so happy? Why can’t I feel this way? Why can’t I find someone? Its questions like these that I ponder. I know the answer; the answer is always the same. I’m too shy to actually ask someone out. Every time I get close to it I shy away, from saying those simple words. Welcome to my world.
Social interaction between me and girls is fine; I’m a goofball around them, as I am around everyone. I’m perfectly comfortable around them, but then I have this nagging longing to ask someone out, yet I cannot do it. It seems so simple to say something like; “Hey want to go see a movie with me on Saturday?” Yes it all seems so simple, but when I’m daunted with it I just freeze up.
I don’t know how many times I’ve lost my chance of ever having a relationship because I could not ask them out. Well actually I do, it has been 4 times. One of them has a child, another is engaged, the third married, and the forth is happily in a relationship. Am I cursed to remain single for the rest of my life?
There are plenty of ways I could go about this, but I’m not that pathetic to go cruising MySpace looking for local singles. No that would be just pathetic. I just need to bite the bullet and ask someone out. How hard can it be? Don’t answer that, I don’t want to know what your answer is.
There is really no point to this I’m just rambling on trying to put my feelings into words.