accelheim wrote...
Yes, dramatically. Before hentai, I thought anime girls to be cute and innocent. Especially sexually innocent. That is because anytime sexual or dirty topics would come up, the anime girls would get embarrassed and dismissive and act like they were something better, like they were superior to natural things. Also I grew up with mainstream TV and movies and females were often portrayed as just that. After many years of hentai, I realized the truth, that anime girls are nothing but nasty biological seedbeds made for primal and vulgar fucking aka fertilization and that the blissful and perverted faces they were making while getting used as cum dumpsters and getting their twitching fuckholes/assholes penetrated were clear signs of them enjoying being as pussy toilets for men's sexual relief, anime girls ultimately enjoying getting reduced to primitive apes with primal instincts. In other words, they went from my romantic idealization to pissing, shitting and humping sperm sniffing sows. It was hard to realize and it was a huge emotional pain, but all the doujins and r34 were solid proof of this being harsh reality.
Truth almost always hurts. And I don't know if this realization was good or bad.
I really enjoyed reading this response. Even though I didn't actually take that stance to that level, I did appreciate the alternative hentai presented in contrast to the norm of anime I also grew up with. This is in relation to anime and other 'wholesome' shows that vaguely touched upon sexual norms and practices with humor and satire as the focal point. Especially Love Hina, one of the first harem animes I was exposed too. As much ecchi scenes they had in this show, I honestly didn't like the female lead's attitude towards the MC. And even though I laughed through the classical satire based on accidental setups leading to sexual fanservice moments, I didn't really appreciate the setups enough to accept them for what they were put there for. After chuckling after the first few setups, whenever it was met with violence from the females who go there without even giving the mc time to apologize, I end up hating those types more and more.
Not because I related to that in any type of way, but because these types of situations do end up happening in social environments among males and females to where unjustifyable acts of slander towards the opposite sex is met on grounds that are unfounded. I never looked for things related to drama when I took up a personal hobby of people observation at a very young age, but when drama on the level of sexual harrassment did occur, and I payed enough to attention to what led up to that moment, if it clearly seen as an accident from my outsiders perspective, but the misunderstanding was not seen as such. More often than not, the person who caused that accident would get slapped first, then slandered afterwards. No explanation necessary or accepted. No matter how I saw it as an unfortunate accident where no one was really to blame, it was only met with curiousity from real life situation being turned into a fictional account of a story's timeline. In addition to the curiosity of even unfortunate accounts of fictional stories on the level of violence being immitated in reality as a means of inspiration to make a bold yet deadly statements of personal injustice. In relation to both on a level of basic curiosity, I would always stop to think what type of situation did an author subject himself to or was exposed to unintentionally irl that was used as material for a story? I think about other people's accounts in terms of content creation now more than ever since I've stepped into that world of content creation for the sake of it becomming a profession. Life has always be a marvel to me despite the good and bad times I've experienced. So even though I am able to separate between reality and fiction, I do acknowledge that each of them can collaborate in the form of drawing inspiration to be either a story element, or a grounds to start a cause or movement, whether personal or social in real life situations.
I accidently derailed from the original topic, which is actually the second time after deleting a lot of material. Writing has been such a big influence for me, that it's become not only tool I use to create a world that I make up, but also a natural and hopefully healthy coping mechanism to stressful situations relating to society woes.