There was a similar question asked in a scholarship I've recently applied for. I'll post a link in case anyone is interested.
In response to the proposed topic, I need to establish where my view on God is. I believe that God is human, and therefore, imperfect as we are. Does he not show anger? Does he not feel pain, sadness, and wanting? It's because of my beliefs that I cannot bring myself to say I 'fear' God, but somewhat 'understand' him/her (If anything, I feel that God could be both.) My reason's for this is a mundane one: when i was younger, my brother died fighting against his
Protein S Deficiency, and that shook me and my beliefs to the core. I went through the seven stages, but all the same, I could never find a way to restore my full belief in him and his word.
Fast Forward a few years to where I am now. After observing the state of the world, and the Christians that seem to attract attention from the media, I've realized something. There's no real point in 'fearing' God. He loves us and just wants to be loved in return. (I could go on about this, eventually breaking into a discussion about the Seven Deadly Sins, but that's not for this forum.) And through this, I've discovered something else:
I do not wish to have any
meaning in life; I just want to
live my life according to my own standards. I do apply some of the biblical teachings that I grew up with to it as well, but that doesn't stop me from 'sinning.' If anything, I believe sin is encouraged because God needed something to show how one can get into heaven and what to avoid.
TL;RD: I have no meaning in life, nor do I want one.