“Let’s break up, Aize. This isn’t working,” Ana said suddenly. We were chatting happily seconds ago, hands together, just like a happy loving couple.
I don’t know how I managed to go home. Ana dear, you sure rocked my Eve hard. Thanks loads.
Everything after that was torture. The family gathering, present giving etc. I don’t hate particularly Christmas but after that happened, my mood was terrible.
***
26th. It’s so bright out there. I get up and take a bath. Out of things to do, I turn on the computer. Maybe I’ll go there. At least it takes my mind off this pain.
Fakku. I love this site. The community, while is a bit too wild sometimes, feels alive. I just lurk around mostly, I don’t post much. But I love reading the threads. I enjoy reading opinions that are not my own, and try to understand the thoughts that gave birth to them. Well, of course I also love how I can get my bodily needs here. Now that I broke up, they’re all the more important, lol.
I read through the front page. The usual hentai updates and… oh? Seasonal writing contest… this, I have to learn about more. So I go to the thread and read the rules. Thinking I know all I need to, I give myself a nod. Writing isn’t my forte, but it’s refreshing to do something I usually don’t. This is just the push I need.
Thirty minutes pass by silently. Damn… The brainstorming was a huge failure. Whenever I thought about what to write, romance came to mind and with it, the whole thing about Ana and her randomness. I’m supposed to distract myself with this…
Trying to brush off the feeling, I go there, the liveliest place on the site; Chat Topics and Forum Games section. It’s fun to read the posts and see the interactions between people. Virtual it may be, but I get the feeling that to many users here, this place is like their second home already.
I chuckle as I read the posts. “They’re at it again…” I say to myself, smiling. I refreshed the page, wanting to read the next post. Oh? Someone sent me a PM…
It’s from Luc, my only close friend here. Well, we just talk mostly about otaku stuff, but she’s the one I talk to most often.
Luc: Mib, you there? I wanna talk to you.
I feel a chill. Sure they’re just words, but I somehow feel the difference.
Mib: Yeah. Sup, Luc?
The reply comes almost immediately.
Luc: Do you have Skype?
And we get there.
Luc: I broke up.
Yeah, this is so different from our usual talk. But since Luc trusts me to talk about this, I should at least support her.
Mib: Why?
Luc: He’s too nice to me. I’m scared.
Mib: Huh?
Luc: He should be more selfish…
Mib: Explain.
Luc: I want to spoil him too. But he never asks anything from me… he doesn’t even talk about his troubles to me. It feels like my love isn’t reaching him…
Mib: That’s why?
Luc: Yeah.
Mib: ……………………
Luc: I know it’s weird, but…
Mib: Have you asked how he really feels?
Luc: I couldn’t bring it up…
Mib: Ask him. -__-
Yeah, my expression is exactly like that. Poor bro, I wish I’m there to give you a back pat.
Luc: <.<
>.>
But.
Mib: No buts. It’s not fair to him.
Luc: G-gao…
***
27th. I’m strolling through the park. It’s cold but the view here is too nice to pass up. Then I see Ana. It’s awkward. We pretend to ignore each other.
I go online as soon as I’m home.
Mib: What was his answer?
Luc: I didn’t ask.
Mib: Why?
Luc: It’s okay. I couldn’t understand him, so I’ll just hurt him again. He deserves better.
Mib: ……………………
Luc: Don’t worry.
Mib: If you say so.
Luc: What about you?
Mib: Just broke up too.
Luc: Why?
Mib: She wasn’t happy with me.
Luc: But you’re nice! You always listen to me…
Mib: It’s her decision.
Luc: You okay?
Mib: Love can’t be forced.
Luc: T_T
***
We spent almost all our time online for the next three days. We discussed many things together. I never knew I’d enjoy talking to Luc this much. We’re a lot closer now.
30th, 22:11. I’m browsing the forum at the moment. I go to the Random section. Something catches my interest. After I read it, I feel a strange urge in me. I remember this feeling. It’s just like when I first confessed to Ana.
Mib: Luc, can I meet you?
Luc: You’re so far away. o.O
Mib: The †˜Who?’ thread, last post. You live in the same town as me.
Luc: Really? Sure, I’d love to!
Mib: Thanks… I’m so glad…
Luc: How do I know it’s you?
Mib: I’ll be wearing a TTGL shirt, blue jeans.
I’m always scared to have people know I’m an otaku, but who cares. I’ll wear that tomorrow.
Luc: Me too then. ^_^
***
31st, 14:54. I have 21 minutes left. I’ll do some reading.
“A-Aize?” Ana’s in front of me. She appears horribly shocked. When I see her I’m also just as shocked.
Tell me this is a coincidence. No, a dream. Why is she wearing that shirt?
I manage to ask it somehow. “Y-you’re… Luc?”
Ana nods, her face is deep red. I don’t know what to say too, so it’s silence for a few minutes.
“S-sorry about Eve…” she says softly. So the bro I wanted to pat is… me.
“M-me too… I just didn’t want to trouble you but I hurt you instead…”
Oh well, guess I get my new year present some hours early. That night, in the †˜Marry your beloved user’ thread, these two posts pop up.
Mib: Luc, you’re mine.
Luc: Yes, Mib! <3
Oh no, I forgot about that contest…
