I have kind of wanted to write a story based on my everyday encounters and feelings, so here it is. Bear in mind that it
will get boring, just as my everyday life is, but I'll try to add in stuff here and there while keeping true to the storyline. I'll also try to update it regularly.Feedback is gladly accepted, only if you want to.
I'm a beginner so please excuse me.
*It will be longer the next few chapters, I promise; I just don't have the time to write it in full.*
Week o: Immersion
Day 3
[size=10]TN: Tsuikyuu Kage,追求影, literally Pursuing Shadows, can also be read in Chinese as Chasing the Horizon.[/h]
"Unyahhh~" moaned I.
Trying to stretch every inch of my body resulted in a gruesome outcome of me cringing in pain after suffering a cramp in my femur. Life hurts in many ways. Arrows on daylight pierced my body, and the left half of my body surrendered to the day bright. Tattered windows are the only thing that keep me awake in my house. A not so well-off house. With half-closed eyes, I set the tartan sheets right.
It is cold. Probably 45 or something. Time to wake up. Strings of water rolled down the contours of my body, chilling and abruptly shaking up everything it passes. Don't worry, folks- rinsing it wouldn't be too hard. Once I've greeted reality with a firm handshake, I brush my hair and put on plain underwear (I only have 3 sets) and a simple hair accessory. My efforts into standing out aren't too commendable.
After a few simple household chores, which is close to nothing (since I always leave the house neat before I sleep), I set off for Kanayama.
"Ittekimasu,", I whispered to a small memorial shrine kept in my house to remind me of my mother. Expressionless days have expressionless beginnings. I guess Maki isn't here to pick me up today. Not like I'd need any help with the 3 mile walk or anything. A few neighbours greeted me from their dilapidated housings and offered me dinner if I was free. Having being rejected they gave me the 'that's better' kind of face. Some people offer amenities but they don' t mean it. I wonder why.
The sky is partly gray with patches of white. The dawn hue of orange spread across everything I can see, from the asphalt road to the lush farms behind the houses. This is where peace is only held in the world, I guess. The sky looks so happy it doesn't need to bother with anything else.
As judgemental as I was every single person I passed by I hated. It wasn't a habit, It isn't something that I like to do. Sometimes I just wait for them to prove me wrong -- to make themselves 'worth' of a better impression. I may or may not have a superiority complex. Doesn't matter. No one even knows much about me. I try to make myself unknown so that people won't- huh?
"uuuuuuuko" a faint voice echoed from the hills. Louder and louder like an impending doom, I finally recognised Maki's voice from the distance. "Waaaaaait," it droned.
"Geez, Muko. You should've at least stopped for me or something!" Maki whined as she got off her father's bicycle and started pushing it. "Don't we have time?"
"Do we," I said, trying to imply the fact that after the incident we were 10 minutes short of walking to school. I had the idea of taking Maki's bike, she wouldn't mind, but Maki's been keeping a clean record for the past two years. Me, not so much: although not as often as the delinquents, I still do skip school if I felt like it. Being at school was more of a burden than it was helpful. Sure I got to waste my time on at least acquiring knowledge, but education as it is - does it stand for anything? I doubt so.
Have I mentioned I didn't like practising? As in, going with the flow? I always try to take the road no one has gone. More often than not that road instead becomes the road that people people don't want to go. That could be the reason why people avoid being acquiantances with me. It could also be the reason why Kyouya dumped me. Well, I'm sure it was for the better of him.
The road to the school was a road that I have seen so many times but cannot remember, Maki often tells me I end up going the wrong way and result in another hour away from my attendance at school. The road starts with a downhil from my house - which makes it especially hard in the afternoon - then follows up with a gentle left curve then a steep right. it then seperates into three roads, the school, the mart, and the third which has been used the most leads to town. I've rarely taken that. The road then stretches into a series of twists and turns. The black asphalt has long been smeared of the dirt by the contruction trucks , the result of a construction project to build a hostel a distance away from my house.
Evergreen trees dot the sides of the road, occasionally being replaced by a streetlight. I wonder if streetlights are manually on at the night or are timed by intervals.
Strange - usually Maki knows when to walk fast , but she's taking it easy today. Is her bag heavy, maybe? I should ask how she has been doing--
And then I remembered. I had to meet Kyouya!
"Sorry, Maki - I'll repay you for this," I blurted to her while mounting myself on her bike. The seat was warm.
Maki, confused, went into a flurry of huhs and whats before regaining her composure - too slow, I had already sped off. Maki smirked.
"Do you even have the moneyyyy~?"
Previous Entries
Prologue
“There is no we.”
“There is only you, and me.”
The words, nailed into my brain, has become the cause of my existence.
I stood in the corner of the cafeteria, staring blankly into nothingness. Everyone else was busy either having their little chatters or eating their foodstuff. Today’s special is Fish and Chips. †˜Fish’ when it’s really just fish fingers and †˜Chips’ when it’s really just fries. Those who did neither whizzed past me, forming a breeze that brushed my hair, sending licks of it flying in all directions. It takes too much effort to proper my hair so I didn’t bother.
These people, every single one, had nothing to do with me. No one knew me well, I only had acquaintances. No one had something to do with me. They didn’t like me, and life carried on that way. I’m the core of my own world. Every else are just NPCs. They are lifeless. And so I hate them. It’s a funny thing because hate arises from jealousy. Being lifeless is one of my life goals. Why did I have to be born? Why can’t I ebb on the flow of time? These questions that loop continuously are always on my head. I can’t find the answer to them; they have no answer. On the other hand, I’d rather not find the answer. The questions keep me sane, even though I yearn for insanity.
Here I am standing again in the middle of 6 hexagonal tables around me. They are always empty. I guess no one wants to admire a statue while they are eating. I think I should eat something before recess is-
Beep~ Beep~ Beep!
… I hate that guy. And this time it’s not because of jealousy. He always rings the bell 5 minutes before the allocated time is over. In a rush I bought some Mountain Dew from the Drinks Counter and proceeded to the foyer to continue class sessions.
I sit next to an eccentric guy. He swoons at buffed men and shrieks at famous pop idols. I could say he is bi-curious, but that’s only the start of my many descriptions of him. He’s decently smart, though. Seated two seats beside me is Kyouya. He is… everything I could wish for, but it was too much. He was my ex. I wish I could remember the reason he broke up with me, but that’s another story for another time. Seated three seats in front of me is Tatsumi. I hate her the most. Jealousy level is max. She is everything I’m not: Smart, sociable, dependable…it goes on forever. She has I ton of friends I could actually have if not for her. Or maybe my friends are total asshats and decide to form a new clique. But even so, life is going on. At school, outside of school, or at home.
I return to my chaotic house in the midst of night and lie on my bed, unbuttoning 3 out of 5 tacks on my school uniform. Loosening my skirt with one hand, I used the other to slip out my phone and I check the news and messages. I haven’t had any for weeks. As usual shouting can be heard downstairs, and I ignore it like always. Dragging myself near the computer I jammed the button on it and it lights up pathetically. Reluctant to do any work I opened up a document and yawned. The dim lighting of the room, complimented by the barley white walls, didn't help in livening up my spirit, rather, it did the exact opposite. After two or three lines of writing, I fell into deep slumber.
Day 1
”Put on those shades and wave to yesterday, the sunlight hurts my eyes…”
No kidding.
Squinting my eyes at the scorching brightness of anything that faced the sun, I dragged myself out of the house. A note on the door, as usual, reminded me that there was neither lunch nor dinner that was going to be prepared. Rarely anyone in the house even bothered to clean it, much less prepare a meal. I do, though. Ever since the ants wanted to become friends.
It was a long walk to school. Accompanied by the ball of fire we call the sun, it calls upon waves of heat no man could withstand. The ground was already hot enough to heat up my black shoes, so I did all I could to avoid it. I even tried running with my bag over my head, but countless stares from young and old alike reminded me of my stupidity.
I didn’t have to exert this much effort everyday anyway. It was futile. I tried to be a normal happy kid for once. Realising it couldn’t work, I finally slouched forward in a final attempt to release some of the heat. That’s right, I only want to be normal. Alas, I dragged my sorry ass over to school, sighing.
The street was bustling as it always ever was at 7.30 in the morning. The wet market was going to be set up a couple of minutes later. The same cars caused the same traffic bottleneck along the same junction. It was the same every day.
The school, however, as classes are beginning to start, the school grounds are only filled with busy people doing busy things. This is why I hate school. I’m the only one that’s not busy.
The building, painted sky blue, slate blue and white, symbolizes the very meaning of †˜blue’. I couldn’t ever recall the first time I smiled in this hellhole. It has 2 blocks and 4 floors each, representing a year per level. I’m a year 3 so I currently reside in the third floor. I’m in class 3-phi, supposedly the smartest class around, but that’s just because we take the college entrance exams at the end of this year instead of going into year 4.
Oh, and I forgot to mention, the school’s one of the mid-class schools in the vicinity, Kanayama Academy.
A gruesome climb up several flights of stairs depletes my body of any remaining spirit. With my chest feeling heavy, I entered class with a loss of breath. Several people looked at my general direction, after seeing my current state, and then continued about their doings. I took my seat, still panting. Then, Makiyu (who’s seated right behind me) surprised me with a jab to the right. She’s always the first one to talk to me. Also the reason I have several acquaintances.
“Hey, hey~ Muko~” she beamed. “How was your weekend~?”
I tried to arrange myself accordingly, but she continued: “You know I went to Dasugo and I bought this really cute underwear and it has all these frills and it-“A hand cupped her mouth.
“S~top!” I commanded Maki. “We’ll talk on the roof during lunch; look at all the attention you’ve got…”
We were pieced by the looks of several boys and Makiyu could not help but stare back.
During lunch, Makiyu went off to buy some snacks from the cafeteria. I went to the roof to find some peace from all the noise and stress in the classroom, but little did I know that I would find Kyouya there.
Day 2
The sky, devoid of any clouds, looked as distant as the space to me as it was with Kyouya.
I don’t know whether he heard the door opening, my footsteps, noticed my presence or just decided to turn around. But the way he did it made it seem like I’ve never met him before.
“… Oh.”
I tried to come up with a reasonable greeting, but my habit of speaking way before I think prevents me from doing so. “W-What are you here…?!”
I can almost feel him laughing. With a physical stature about 20cm taller than me, it’s no surprise he makes no effort whatsoever teasing me.
“Th-this… I mean!!”
“Why are you here and what are you doing…”
A single breath from him and I was immediately on unequal terms.
“What makes you think you have the right to control whether I can access the roof or not?”
“W-Well… I’m here every day and I only see you today… so I’m just asking since you don’t come here often…”
“I just happened to pass by and wanted to look at the sky,” Kyouya turned back again , peering at the distant nothingness. “Also, I haven’t seen you for a while. Don’t you want me to visit you?”
“It’s not that… I-I just…” I sigh. Giving up, I just sat on a bench on the opposite side of the roof. Any conversation with Kyouya was deemed useless. Kyouya stared at the blueness for a little bit more, until he decided to walk up to me. With me sitting down and him standing at 1.8, I couldn’t help but look down. Don’t come near me, I thought. I don’t want to care about you anymore…
“What’s wrong, Sakimori? You seem out of it lately.”
“…”
“Had the jibbles?”
“…”
Kyouka shook his head and sat down next to me.
Finally I brought up my head, and my face close to his.
“Say, Kyouya… do you like me?”
“I can’t like you for a long period of time if you don’t do the same,” said Kyouya, beaming radiantly. “It’s a two-way kind of thing.” He pushed me aside.
“So that’s how it is…”
Just then loud footsteps were heard and then…bang! The door crashed open. Out emerged Maki with a bright look, which changed after seeing the man who dumped me before.
“…Why are you here—
No, get out.”
Seems Kyouya was taken aback by her sudden coldness.
“Hey, I was just going to reconcile with-“
“Before I do something about it.”
“Ah…” Kyouya scratched his head. “And here I am thinking that we could be friends…”
“I’m not really obliged to become one with you. Not that I want to.” Even after I’ve seen Maki change her tone so many times, she still suprises me sometimes. Kyouya proceeded down the stairway to the classrooms and finally peace is held within the epic battleground of doom.
The sky, now in a brighter hue of blue, is adorn with a myriad of clouds. In my previous years I learnt how to read clouds. Well, not exactly. But I can tell it’s going to rain in about 16 hours. Tired after what has happened, I finally opened my bento to find only plain rice and shoyu. My favourite!
…who am I kidding? I’ve been having plain rice with only condiments for the past few days. I should really wake up earlier to cook. That’s the only problem I face.
Maki, with the usual †˜I’d feel bad if I ate something nicer than yours’ look, took half of her Soba bread and mashed it in with the rice, then added the shoyu.
“Try it,” Maki beamed. “ It’s awesome like this.”
Her maroon hair seemed to flail about in the wind, in contrast to my brownish-black hair which only flocks if there are strong winds. Although she’s my best friend, I’d rather very much consider her as my sister. She’s been with me in this school ever since day 1. And that’s not going to change.
Having finished lunch we made our way back through the sea of students back to the classroom to start the afternoon session. Also known as †˜I did something productive in the morning so I don’t have to now’ classes. Basically I slept through the lessons.
Before we went home, I checked my locker to see if anyone had stolen my shoes. To my surprise, not only were my shoes there, but there was also a letter, encased in a bold-bordered yellow envelope. It wasn’t much of a surprise as I and Maki both had some admirers in Kanayama before. But they soon dissolved their admiration to nothingness after Maki and I talked to each of them for a short while.
“Meet me at the podium before school starts.” Is he crazy? I could never wake up at 6 in the morning!