Unrequited Love

i sit there watching him
my heart thumps loudly
i walk around his desk's rim
while the rest of the class is rowdy

i don't know why
i surely don't know when
i always try
on his ratings, to score a ten

i want to be near you
yet i want to stay afar
everything i want to do
i keep hidden in my jar

the jar that contains
my life long feelings
as my life is what you reign
my heart is what is healing

it's undescribibly warm
i feel as if i'm going to burst
yet that feeling is what i yearn
that is why i'm cursed

cursed with this awful wanting
of having you within my grasps
with each and every taunt
the time has passed

i could have told you long ago
the true thoughts that i had
now it's too late
our relationship has gone bad

we've never talked
but i enjoyed seeing you
you had taken a walk
the sky was a clear blue

you sat down on a bench
as you watched the people go by
my heart was in a wrench
i was itching to tell you why

all i did was gaze
and as the time flew by
my heart was in a maze
i wanted to tell you hi

so i jogged through the playground
hoping to see your face
but then i found
you were having a race

the race was had
with two girls and two boys
i never realized something bad

i had a choice
but i never chose
if only i did
i would have been to you, so close

after the run
laughing and smiling
looked so fun
one girl had her cell phone and started dialing

she looked like
she was about to call for ride
you pointed to your bike
that was near me, so i had to hide

i heard a polite,"thank you"
then a muffled,"no problem"
you leaned in and kissed her too
for me, that problem was definitely not solved

my mind went blank
after i saw that kiss
you lowered my rate and rank
and then i noticed

we never spoke
so you never saw me
you would probably take me as a joke
we were never meant to be

i remember you to me, never said a word or called
you probably never heard of me at all

i wanted you for so long
i wasted my time
i was wrong
for you were never meant to be mine

my healed heart
was starting to fall apart

though i knew i was sad
i couldn't feel bad

for i know that you gave me
a feeling i longed for
a new sight to see
and opened a new door

it's thanks to you
that i had that experience
i'll probably do, though not with you
this again

(i made this one a couple years ago.. i was a poet back then too XD)

This is a hell of a long poem, and there's plenty of awkward moments within the rhyming scheme. Despite its length and semi-shoehorning, I really enjoyed this.
-I don't know what else you've written, but judging from this, you have beautiful potential.

I'm a short story writer who hasn't been published and generally dislikes most poetry, despite the years I spent in college studying it. I tell you this so you don't think I'm trying to kiss your ass. I could give a shit whether or not you're a nice person. My opinions are solely based on the creator's child, and I think your child is very handsome.


I don't mean to come off as harsh or mean, so I'm sorry if I do.

thanks ^_^ yeah, my rhyming is a bit off but like you, i still liked it :3 it didn't come off as rude, your post just shows that you're very serious about poetry and short stories and what not XD

description:
anyway i just wrote this after being rejected by someone i liked for too long and i didn't make any moves on him, so i guess i could say that the "unrequited love" part was my fault. XD i didn't want to come off all sad and pitying myself so i ended it with the last part:
"it's thanks to you
that i had that experience
i'll probably do, though not with you
this again"
basically meaning that i thanked him for giving me that feeling and i'll probably have those "lovey dovey" feelings again, but not with him the next time ^_^

I loved it :) maybe I should +rep you :)

I really love this poem.^-^ Rep+ to yea!