[V-DAY] Do you remember?

Do you remember, still?

I remember the first time I saw you...
a side of you no other is priveleged to see.
I was frozen, astounded I had been blind for so long
But glad, gasping with joy I'd seen you at last

Or was I struck blind by your radiance?

I remember how it all came over me in waves...
the sensations so new and so pure.
I was bombarded by my vindication
And glad, glad I'd been right all along

Can I ever convey how you saved my life that day?

I remember how it took me days away from you...
just to realize what this jumble meant.
I was near-shining with joy
And full of doubt, uncertain you'd Recognize me back

Would I have been more afraid had I been hurt before?

I remember how I agonized over telling you...
and in a moment of strength, told you.
I was daring to hope you'd feel the same
And when you did, I thought I might cry with happiness

Would anything have changed if I'd considered our relationship's end?

I remember how you turned my life bright...
all the greys I'd grown bored with took on new shade.
I wasn't quite assured of the world's righteousness
But I felt I could finally taste LIFE for once

Can I still remember what it was like?

I remember how we ran through all the clichés...
the ones I used to laugh at others for repeating
I was suddenly certain the promises would prove true
And I knew we'd never need to part again

Was that naïve of me?

I remember the new depth I felt with you...
how I could be myself
just
myself
in ways I couldn't before.
I was, at once, aware I was more of a person while you watched
And a faded image when you were gone

Can I return to that place again?

I remember how you were conflicted and uncertain...
torn between old road and new.
I was certain you would choose me
And adamant to the point of arrogant blindness

Was I blind by unconscious choice?

I remember how my arrogance was vindicated...
how you chose the right path for your future.
I was sure you'd never question that decision
And wrong.

I'll never forget how you made this life liveable.
I'll never forget how you gave my values meaning.
I'll never forget how we knew each other so closely.
More than anything, you gave me a reason to continue.

Once, you loved me above all others.
Once, you wanted to spend your life with me.

And the truth...?
The end of this poem is uncertain.
The iron is still hot-
we've still Recognized each other, and all that's left is to
quietly, and
forcefully, and
full of hope
grab that future.
I want to make those clichés come true, my soul
If it kills me.