This year's Christmas presents included some shirts, cinnamon cookies, gingerbread cookies, $400 in cash, and my grandmother still being alive for now.
sound like you want her gone,
she loaded and has she willed you her money/house/car
That's not at all how I feel about the situation.
A painful reminder she may go soon. My paternal grandmother died this year. The one that treated me like a human. Every little health scare the past few years had us worried if this is when she'd go.
Sorry for your loss. I know how it is to lose a grandmother, especially one you are close to so I know you must be going through a lot. I hope that you can find strength in this time of sorrow, and remember the time you had with her. While it may be painful initially, you will some day be able to look back on it fondly I hope.
Best of luck and I hope that you have enough support around you at this dark hour.