just passing through
off to work now
home now, night night
morning, off work today, guess I'll play Azur Lane and watch anime all day xD
off again today, will chat with a new person I meet, then later watch a movie or two with Tsa
Don't even know why I bother....
Cuz I am too gutless to do it myself? I just keep hoping something/someone else will end it for me?
Wish I were dead.
Still wish it, but wish I could do something about this....
Gee I wonder why....
sad when the only motivation you have to go to work, game, eat, read, sleep etc... is so you aren't left with your own depressing suicidal thoughts
Yup....
Anyone enjoying all this?
Wow... really?
I know its the cowards way out, the easy way out, what quitters do, etc... But it feel like my only resort at this point, I am just so tired of life now....
Can I please die now?
Nvm, yes, can I please die now.....
Sure if fun to play Azur Lane, even if its just a distraction from my depression and suicidal thoughts....
Days off, spending my time looking for another/better job....
Not even sure how much longer I'll last, parents are out of town.... and I know dad keeps a gun somewhere in the house.....
Sorry I wussed out and couldn't do it.... I know lots of ppl want me gone....
and here we go again....
why do I even bother.....
started another new job... sure am used to this shit by now...
I wanna keep this one, seems like something I could do, but I got a lot to learn it seems, or the people there make it seem like you need to know everything.
what am I doing.....