Mahou's Haven

Haha, if so, this is the first bug in the history of the site that people would want.

*hugs* I missed you so much! Thank you for your diligence. You should know that your wish came true because of it. I was already missing everyone like crazy, but when I saw how loyal you all were being, even after so long, it was very touching. I knew then I couldn't stay away anymore.

It had already gotten to the point where I was thinking about you guys on a regular basis, even when I was doing stuff around town. So when I saw how much I was missed, I thought "well heck, it's been so long. Stuff this plan of coming back only when I know I can stay for sure!" It wasn't making me very happy being away from everyone. I realized it was time to come back.

Even if it means I have less time to work on other things, it's for the better. Sometimes life's lessons surprise you. It's not like I meant to leave everyone hanging. When I vanished last time, it wasn't by choice. So I got disappointed. It seems sometimes like I can't anchor myself anywhere I want to be. So even when I had the means to come back, I didn't do it right off.

I really wanted to, but I was too worried I'd vanish again, letting people down in the process. So I determined that before I returned, this time I'd have all these things that keep taking me away from you all nipped in the bud. My intentions were noble enough, but what I didn't realize was that I was choosing the wrong thing. All this time, I should have been listening to my heart instead of my head.

Everyone's loyalty helped me see this. So thank you for holding out hope for me, because it made a difference.

This and the fact that we tend to be interested in the same things so often is what I think makes it so easy to talk to you about stuff Neo. In the end, our lives aren't so different. Frankly, I don't know how you find the time to post on F! at all.

I'm happy to hear your health has been improving lately though. I've actually been really worried about that while I was away. Although I told you to slow down, I knew you wouldn't. >.>; I'm not sure you know how. I was just hoping that by telling you that you'd take a few more breaks at least. lol

It's okay Melly. It's not really a painful memory for me and my family is accustomed to struggle. Enough so that fighting fate is something of a family joke. His blindness was more of an adventure if anything. Sure it had it's down moments, but back then he smiled alot. Perhaps that's why the video reminds me of him. That and the fact I haven't seen him lately; even though he came back to me for awhile a few years ago.

I was able to help him sort out his life for the better however, he has since gone on his way again. He's something of a drifter now that he's older. If it were up to me, he'd still be around, but his choice to wander is his own. He's chosen his path in life. I can't deny him that, but I also can't stay in contact with him, so these memories are all I have of him.

It's nice to look back and remember. The fact that the video does that for me is a testament to how good it really is.

As for my own life, it's just busy. @_@ Lots of people relying on me for things they should have to do themselves.. but hey that's life I suppose. It buys me time to continue working on what I need to in order to be better off, so I just need to grin and bear it for now. lol