Loner wrote...
I know the feeling.
I didn't go to college so I can't relate to reaching or exceeding those benchmarks, or the debt that comes with that level of education.
I work construction but I did go through a 5-6 year period where I hated most everything about my life.
For awhile it seemed everyday during my fifteen minute break I would sit by myself covered in cuts, bruises, sore muscles and sweat thinking about how much I hated my life, job,co-workers and boss because I was never up to their standards. As you said, your skill are limited at that age. I went through several lay-off's including two separate occasions of about 9 months each. Living off my savings, isolating myself away from my friends and having a failed relationship of my own had me in a bad place.
Eventually I just got tired of life shitting on me (plus I ran out of money in the savings...) and I realized self-pitty wasn't gonna make my life better. So I went back to work and busted my ass off. At some point I started liking my job as I "got good" and was bringing in more money finally. Having some finances gave me some confidence and comfort which enabled me to start spending more time with my friends again which made life better still.
Point is, with someone around your age (I'm assuming early 20's) you have a right to be a little selfish. Do what you want and work hard for it because it's
your life that you're trying to establish with little to nothing in the beginning. But don't forget to cut loose and make memories and experiences with friends and loved ones too.
TL;DR It's not about how many times you fall but rather how many times you get back up.
This is truly inspiring, even though it's a pretty normal story, but still.
Thank you.