To women who read hentai

Oh wow. I started back in the late 90s (when I probably should not have been) when I found a few gifs that were cut from a hentai on a google search. I was already masturbating at the time (though I didn't know it was called that), and I loved anime. This was a combo of the two and I just went crazy. Then I hit up New Grounds and played a whole bunch of the flash games (the Naruto date sim for one), and became sold on it.

I didn't really start reading doujinshi until middle school when my friends started sharing yaoi with me. It was okay, but either kinda rapey or practically child porn (loveless). Eventually, I found manga for girls that had the very sweet, half cut implied sex scenes between straight couples. I wanted more of that vanilla goodness, so I started browsing cons asking for maleXfemale stuff.

Since I'm a girl people looking for something other than yaoi, people ate that up and it was super easy for me to find whatever I wanted. I started with shonen-ai and the limey straight equivalent and when I hit 18 I fully descended into straight up hentai. No regrets.

I basically buy doujinshi for my favorite couples as a continuation of the plot. Usually, those are pretty sweetie vanilla. I also love new original stories (velvet kiss comes to mind), and I like one short originals because I can share them with my husband.

I like traditional straight porn, but damn it if all the men are butt ugly! So many hot women, why can't they find attractive men? Yuck! I don't want to see her screw he grandpa with an ugly penis. The female written stuff usually has a better plot, prettier actors (men and women), and is more up my husband's alley.

On the subject of my husband, he's really been what's keeping me in hentai. He's really chill with hentai but he's pretty conservative so yaoi/yuri, tentacles, anatomically incorrect boobs (a lovely pair of coconuts bigger than your head with anti-grav properties) are a no go. Since I'm often uncomfortable with how butt ugly male porn actors often are (seriously, stop picking them by penis porn industry!) we selectively screen his porn and my hentai to suit both our tastes. Works wonders for our relationship.

I actually feel it's often better then the way male marketed western porn portrays women. I'm much more chill with the childhood friend cliche then the "I helped her fix her bike, delivered a pizza, and/or hired a baby sitter and then the sex fell out". Hentai has those plots too, but they're often MUCH sillier and clearly meant to not be taken seriously ("hentai-logic").

I love maids. That really is a plus for hentai because the western maids are all wear too much make-up and it makes them look pre-maturely old. The cutesy, adorable maids are what I love.

Now, things that piss me off:

• The chubby girl is often not even close to chubby in my opinion. She's rather average, but I suppose average is fat when many girls lack a rib cage huh...
  If you hit my cervix I will scream bloody murder and the sex will stop because I am crumpled into a ball crying.
  Unless I'm supper worked up sex is still painful for me even after marriage. It's just how I'm build I guess. The idea that a women is screaming in pleasure from losing her virginity makes me jealous.
  I really wish there were more mature (20s) girls with A-B-C cup boobs. As a B cup myself I feel very depressed having to pick between loli-con or oppai. I cannot tell you how happy I am when a wild mature pettanko appears. I just wish they wouldn't obsess over their boobs as much as I do. I don't want to be reminded that a B cup is not standard.

I still read some tentacles, lots of bondage, some chikan, some forced and fetish stories. However, once the woman is being tortured I often NOPE the heck out. If she's crying in despair, I nope out. I cannot read guro, period.

Actually, Lustful On All Fours is a pretty accurate representation of what a girl who likes ravishment fantasies is like. What turns me on about the rapey stuff is the idea of being irresistible and rough sex. I like rough sex. I like feeling beautiful. The idea of being so desirable that men throw themselves at you is kinda fun in fantasy. I think you guys can imagine the male equivalent of having women all over you as pretty cool. In fact, I know you do because the large volume of harem works tells me so. Why would that be different for girls? Now, in reality, it's probably terrible and would be a pain to deal with the logistics, but it's neat to imagine of a boring day.

What makes me run away is the idea of being killed or tortured or maimed.

I like the FANTASY of forceful sex because I can pick my partner in my fantasy and just imagine us doing whatever I want. That's hardly rape right?

For more information about rape/ravishment fantasies in women, I recommend: http://aureliatevans.wordpress.com/2012/02/27/ravishment-fantasy/

I also want to second this comment:

Let me make it very clear: I don't want to be raped by someone I don't like or find attractive. However, I have some wicked fantasies.

And for a real life example:
I was in Chicago this summer when some guy attempted to molest me on a train. I had seen him at the station and made a one sentence comment on a map to him. I assume he decided "these maps are so confusing" translated to "I want to sex you up. Take me now". Despite the fact that there were many seats open, he sat next to me and blocked me in next to a window. For men that don't know this, THAT IS SCARY AS HELL! I'm claustrophobic and weaker then all of you. If I feel trapped, I PANIC and assume the worst. In this case, it was totally justified.

I tried to be friendly and talk to him. He was terrible at holding a conversation and just kept sneaking glances at me. Every anwser I got out of him was no more than 5 words. The longest one was "I'm a cook at a restaurant". The only questions he asked me the entire time were "What's your name? What do you do? What train will you be taking home this evening". RED FLAG MUCH?![/b] For the record, I lied and lied hard about my travel arrangements.

I was wearing a school length skort, sneakers, a t-shirt and a sweat shirt. He kept letting his hand bump against my thigh. I also had my engagement ring on. I had TOLD him I was getting married in one month and staying with friends in Chicago AS THE FIRST SENTENCE OF THE CONVERSATION.

By this time the conversation had stopped and I was trying to read a magazine. The first time his hand bumped my thigh, I thought it was a mistake and moved over to give him more space. The second time I was suspicious, scared and pissed. The third time was full palm and fingers on thigh, not just a bump. I JUMPED away from him and smashed myself into the train's window to get away. I was panicking and about to punch him. As I worked up the courage to tell this guy "I'm going to need you to stop touching me", I was saved.

Just then, the man guy in front of me struck up a conversation with me about my job. He kept asking me for professional advice. I don't know if he felt his seat shake from my not so subtle recoiling jump, but he saved me for sure. I was elated and spewed out information at a whirlwind pace. As soon as someone else was watching, the "accidental" bumping stopped. Eventually the creeper got off the train and I thanked heaven.

I am still am scared to ride by myself again. I know the whole scenario could have been MUCH worse and I am terrified I might run into creeper McCreeper. If he can't even take "getting married" as a hint that I don't want his nasty hands palming my thigh, then how is he supposed to understand "no means no".

I've always thought it was bullshit how girls in hentai are thinking 'oh no, I'm being molested, someone help!' but not saying anything. When it really happens to you, you're scared to say anything. You don't want to accuse an innocent man of molesting you. You don't want to make a scene and disturb others. You can barely think anything except "HOW DO I MAKE IT STOP!"

All that said, as pissed and upset as I was, my plan was to say "Hey, you're bumping against my thigh a lot" just in case he really was that stupid and didn't notice that his ENTIRE HAND was on my thigh. What I wanted to to which involved a right hook to his face. Obviously, had he continued there would have been much screaming and calling for a conductor. I was able to deal with the situation, but I'm relieved I didn't have too.

There is a big part of me that is still pissed at myself for not reporting him. What if he does it to someone else? I'd never forgive myself. Worse yet, I have been told numerous (7 that I've counted) that I look like I'm 16-18 not 24 years old. What if he does this to a real 16 year old. I feel so stupid!

That kind of stuff is fine in hentai, not cool in real life

Also I'm a guy, because fuck you.