Alastiar...I think it's pretty interesting name for both of girl and boy.
And you shouldn't blame yourself cuz your dad hate you for being a girl,it's not your fault.Tell your father that you come from his ball(s) and science proved only male's sperm cell decides what genre their children are,not mother's ovum or anything else so if he hate you cuz you're his daughter,he should feel bad for him first cuz of being your dad.This is the 21st century and children shouldn't be discriminate no matter what they're girl or boy.I used to see many of peoples in my life even can't have a baby cuz some fuctions in their reprodutive organs didn't works and have to adopt strange children to make their married life less lonely
Hope you forgive me for my very bad Engrish