Harmonian wrote...
I have been so bored lately... Everyday is the same and I can't break free of my daily routine. I'm tired of living this boring repetive life I just want to be somebody different... I'm so tired of the days events being the same day in and day out nothing unique. I've done all that I can in this day and age and only in a couple years or so will my life ever change... Anyone else feel like this? Feel that what your doing right now is just a waste and you just want to move on further into your life.
Also I'm being serious here... I can't just change my life to be more eventful. My future would be ruined. I can't go to Africa to help natives to make my life more eventful I'd be destroying my future. I just wish I could move onto my future where I COULD GO TO AFRICA! and it really wouldn't ruin my life.
Living for the sake of living I suppose is a good way to sum this all up.
All I look forward to is tomorrow... I can't do anything today...
Gah like... Today me being on Fakku is a complete waste. I want to be at a point in my life where I can't 'waste time' I can just do whatever the fuck and I won't be wasting time... Cause' nothing else needs doin!
Your attitude on life seems somewhat strange to me. On one hand you recognize that life if pointless, and life sucks. On the other you are somehow optimistic about your future, and so you look forward to it in the hopes that things will someday be better than they are.
The first view is hard realism. The second is like blind optimism - so the two are sort of at conflict. I said your attitude seems strange to me though, because you make it sound like you are extremely enthusiastic about your future. You make it sound like you have something you truly enjoy to look forward to. But my intuition tells me that if that were actually true, then you would be less depressed about the present - because you would have real concrete goals that you are working towards and have faith in.
So then it makes me think that either you don't really have absolute faith in this future of yours, or you are just playing up how shitty life is. Since you are posting about how shitty life is, and not about the future, I'm going to assume that you don't really have faith in your future (even if you didn't say so in your post). As a rule, finding meaning in your life doesn't require you to be honest with yourself, but if you are going to incorporate realism as part of your belief structure I think you need to be. It would be bad to place all your hopes on a future that you know in inside you were never sure about.
I don't mean to advise you to change that future though, if you think you could enjoy it then it is something to work towards still. But unless you have absolute faith in something, you should never put all of your hopes on it either. Perhaps the best advice I have for you would be to develop some short term goals as well - they don't even have to be things that work towards your future, they could be as simple as going out with your friends more. If all else fails, get a girlfriend.