DatYuriThough wrote...
I have a genetic immunodeficiency, basically my body doesn't produce enough antibodies and white blood cells to effectively fight off most common illnesses without a trip to the hospital. My Father works in a disease research institute, and manages to get me medication ahead of the curve that more or less allows my body to be able to produce what I need in order to survive. Anyway, due to depresses episodes (as a result of low self esteem, whole other story about that) I've once of twice completely forgone and refused to use my medication in an attempt at suicide. This all stupidly done whilst engaged and have a loving family around me, so I've always felt extremely stupid and guilty over it as well as, you know, kinda dumb for thinking I have to take my own life.
Ah, we all have ups and downs though, and I think you're better off than some for recognizing when you made mistakes ^_^.
I'm sorry about your immunodeficiency, though. That sucks, I'm not sure I'd last too long in the same situation. You're strong.