What are your deepest Fears?

My Fears

• 1.Anthrophobia(Fear of people)
  2.Agoraphobia(Fear of large and open spaces)
  3.Fear of abandonment
  4.Fear of Family,blood relatives
  

My 2nd,3rd and 4th fears are related to this event:When I was seven,I was swimming at the local beach with my family and my dad's close friend's family.The high tides were coming in but I never feared those high tides seeing as I usually swim with the flow of them.But this time,it went hellishly wrong.

The high tides started normally,big and strong but I ignored it.Then,it started sucking me and my 4-year old friend into the ocean.I tried saving that friend but alas,I was too weak against the malicious ocean current.It dragged me and my friend even further.

I screamed.I shouted.I wailed.I cried from the abyss which is the ocean.And while in my agony,I saw my family at the shore,all of them,screaming and shouting in panic for us,except for my dad who relaxedly read his newspaper.The only one to save us was my drowning companion's father.

After being saved,the only thing my dad said to me was, "Damn,you're so stupid to be swimming like that." Therefore started my life,silently crying in pain.

My family,they all hated each other.I don't hate them but I fear them.

I was once afraid of (a) abandonment and (b) heights, but I got over those by:
a) Developing an independent personality and self-reliant
b) Superman ride at 6Flags over Texas (500 ft up and down type of ride)

Oh and I have a roommate who's phobic of escalators and non-sanguine relationships(rooted in his trust issues)

I have a fear that I will die alone and I will not have left any kind of mark in the world. Someone eventually finds my corpse because the smell has gotten so bad, but they had no idea that someone lived there.

The only thing to fear is your own mind.

I don't fear clown, I don't fear spiders, I don't fear mass murderers, However my biggest fear, is that I will allow myself to be dragged down. to be sad, to fear the unknown. no matter what it may be or how far away it is. it isn't that you fear the object itself, it's the fact that you fear what it could do. if you see a bee, you aren't afraid of the bee itself, you are afraid of the bee stinging you.

The future is the biggest unknown variable in the world. and we all fear it. because while we try to work towards a brighter future, we always fear something may go wrong.

Being rejected by people. I hate the feeling of being alone because I was simply wasn't good enough. I had a lonely and hateful childhood. Ultimately, I don't want to feel powerless

I fear everything that's outside my own experiences; I'm a really bad fucking worrywart and overthink everything that can go wrong. I'm off to London tomorrow and I'm scared that I'll get the wrong ticket; then I'll get lost and stranded with no way to get home. I've done my own research on what ticket to get but I still had to ask someone more experienced with the trains for confirmation and even then I had to write down what I need to say at the ticket office. I get it from my parents especially from my mum, and she gets it from her mum. Think it's hereditary. But once I've experienced it or done it once, things don't seem that big of a deal.

I also have a fear of rejection, but I think a lot of people do.

Oh and heights, can't stand heights - I tense up and panic. And I can't swim because of a fear of my feet leaving the ground without support.

To be buried alive.

The feeling of enclausuration and sudden asfixiation must feel

To be buried alive.

The feeling of enclausuration and sudden asfixiation is the worst thing in the world for me.

Amnesia the dark decent.

Fuck that game...

I hate spiders and I hate needles. But the thing I really fear is that I'll wake up one morning, and my family wont know who I am.

Being alone in life. I'm very thankful to have good family, friends and a wonderful bf at the moment, but I know life can change at any moment, so I make every day as fulfilling as possible so I don't think about it as much.

Needles
Slow occurring pain
I never liked the thought of people having to inject shit inside of you with a syringe and I always hate the thought of pain being inflicted onto me very slowly so that I would be forced to feel every second of it. Nothing in terms of physical beings or animals really scare me though.

I don't have many fears. I don't fear pain, I'm numb from constantly abusing my body. I don't fear death, I've had family members die in front of me. I don't fear social rejection, the opinion of those that won't affect me don't matter.

The only fear I've got, the one that runs deepest, is that I won't be able to make a difference. If I can't help people's lives, even if I do it without thanks, then what use have all my work been for?

Also I don't like needles.

Spiders, ultimate social rejection, and being powerless to stop it

"Oblivion."
-John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

Being disconnected from humans...

I don't have faith in religion, it's far too frivolously for me to take seriously. My belief towards such deity concerned about my well being stops with my agnostic disposition.

But there is something I rely on, the continued existence of humanity. I love and crave everything that humans are and can create. The more I immerse myself in, as grand or as vile as it may be, the stronger my feelings of security and comfort I have. I rely on people and there creations to push me forward. Each day, is a new opportunity to experience a little bit more of what humanity has to offer.

To loose this... I feel lost.

When I can't find something to do at home, on the net, can't find a game to play, and can't find the energy/place/money to go out anywhere... Is when I feel the most uncomfortable.

(On a related note, when I lose internet... I go crazy. I find comfort just having the option of, even if I have nothing to do on it, being without is like... Not having my blanket on my bed, where I would leave it as a child. Being able to rely on it always being there, gives me a great sense of comfort.)

My faith in life is the continued belief that I can continue to interact with others, directly or indirectly. My, probably biggest fear, is the loss of this.

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Another is of hurting others, it's small in scale, but makes up in number. I don't fear it greatly, but I do quite often. I accept hurting others is part of the human experience, but through conscious effort, we can mitigate how much we do in our interactions, and I fear my carelessness and sometimes poorly thought out responses. When typing, I have more time to think over what I say, but in actually interactions, I hesitate and trip over myself (metaphorically), often saying things I find poorly worded/phrased and end up regretting.

Getting close to someone. I don't know why but when ever someone tries to get close to me, something in my head flips and I get terrified. This also happens when I hang out with people more than once. Also heights are scary too.

Letting someone lead me where I do not want to go.

Heart attack at the end of a fap session.

Being found weeks later with no pantsu on.

I have several top fears. Loss of independent will and the ability to think for myself, for one. Not being able to have a nice bedroom to retreat in when the outside world becomes too much for me. Fear of my distant future, like 5-15 years ahead. Fear of "growing up" and sacrificing most of my free time to work and commitments. Then there's the fear that I'll slip up with my emotion suppression, and I'll lose more control than I ever have, then I'll suddenly wake up, witness my crime, and go BSOD. My biggest fear, however, is simply not knowing about something important, which of course, links to growing up, my distant future, and making a mistake because I didn't know.