twitchforanime wrote...
bakapink wrote...
To clarify: my opinion of alcohol itself is neither good nor bad, its the reason for that i view negatively.
Alcohol in all scenarios is an escape, rather its to a better or worse, from my perspective (but everyone seeks an escape in some manner). Your sad and alone and want to forget your pain (like me right now) or your happy and loving everything but you seek more than what you have. Seeking something you can't gain on your own. It's something people go to when there not complacent with where they are (sometimes a status symbol).
Don't take this personal. If you are unable to talk with those of lesser intelligence equally does that not give rise to your own limitations. Both in your ability to adjust (your ability to identify, comprehend, and assimilate the current norm in the given group) and your (took me forever to remember this) empathy (the ability to gauge the reactions of others and from there, form an idea of the necessary communication requirements). I would think that expanding your empathy than to destroy yourself and your brain cells would be a better use of both your mind and time. That trial and error would be better than alcohol for this task. In this manner you can end up creating a dependency on alcohol for social difficulties, rather than acquiring new social skills.
I'm not sure if I'm saying it right (head killing me), but I think using alcohol for that reason is not a good one. It feels like your taking an easy and detrimental option. Though right now, I am in an extremely unstable emotional and desperate state (can't get my emotions under control), and would love anything that would block my inhibitions and knock me out so I can get a good night sleep for once. Sadly, I'm afraid of alcohol effects on myself (too much of a coward), not having many experiences with but from the times i have... I have low tolerance and become to lose with my mind (all positively so far though).
I don't see alcohol as bad, I see it simply as an escape, everyone needs an escape for different reasons (mine is games). Its specifically the reason why, and what is done during that I dislike. To me, your trying to fix your problems of changing yourself without actually changing but by enabling a crutch.
I would agree, alcohol is certainly an escape, but I would also lean towards it being a social medium as well. Drinking to excess would be the escape in your view, and drinking sociably would be an appropriate tie in, is this correct?
I would also wonder, if by your explanation on the escape mechanism of alcohol, if you would say it's possible for any human to truly be complacent? Would you be of the opinion that people have the ability to be peaceful and happy at some point, without the use of physical stimulus, or only mild physical stimulus? Or would you be of the opinion that spiritual understanding would overcome physical limitations?
On the note of empathetic revision, I would say that you are correct. I have an apt disability to empathize with others, although I'm fairly certain this is of a repressed nature, rather than an oppressed one. Personal experience and constant lack of what people call 'true friends' may explain my current mental state.
On the note of your own emotional standpoint, feel free to spam my inbox and I can talk with you about it. On the note of alcohol, I would say it's likely a good choice to avoid the substance without having fully understood where the problem lies. I'm an asshole, and a depressed bastard, so I know how alcohol might affect me, as well as the possible outcomes for my actions whilst inebriated. I would say it's the metacognitive ability which gives rise to the understanding of my own personal drinking limitations. Yes, I'll admit I have a problem, just no idea how to deal with it. Lol. By the way, would you happen to have insomnia? (I also hope your feeling better, the way your post went seemed to indicate you were having a headache or so).
For socially, my views are somewhat biased at this time, I'm wallowing in self loathing and pity. I could easily fix this with alcohol, it'd make everything smoother but I know it'd be just a crutch, it wont get me any bit further away from my problems, (meeting and talking with people being one of them). Everything I need to do will take time and effort. It is because of this that I view your problems the way that I do, something that can be altered by effort, but your giving yourself a crutch to me.
If you would argue that its a social medium the same can be said about any type of action, person, event, ect. That they can be made into social mediums simply because it gives a means to communicate with another.
I believe in a absolute complacency as much as I do in a absolute peace, something that can never exist as long as we are what we are (maybe evolving/altering into a species that can share thoughts might change us towards (but not to) that goal). As long as we have something to lose, and as long as we have something to gain, we will never be fully complacent (IMO). I am not of the type of who believes in physical stimulants as a solution, but a replacement (not that replacements are good or bad in itself). That the ideological view of true happiness will never be gained by any human, but we can and should still aim for it. Spiritual... I dunno about that, the idea is romantic in some ways, and to some degree I would very much like to try that. But my biased is towards Buddhist/Shinto design. The problem with that is, I want to try living selfishly, reaching for everything in my reach and taking it all with me.
I suppose I had a true friend at one point, he was an ass to most people but when we were together we were the best of friends could talk about anything without restraint (we'd say stupid things with each other without condemnation or judgement). I would often listen to his girl problems and give him advice. He would often times do bad things such as contemplating on or just plain cheating and I would do my best to have him see things from the girls point of view (if needed to be said I'm male). I suppose that, it is from interacting with him that I became any bit empathetic. That socializing with him indirectly helped me grow.
I'm fully aware of what my problem is and where my problems originates. The biggest problem is my emotions, no matter how much I think, logic isn't enough to accelerate the shift of an emotional state. My emotions are my biggest limitations (being my main driving force of my problems), and it only makes things more frustrating the more I think about it, at many points I've come to the place of "if I had, I would drink a bottle of alcohol". But I lived under the roof of a landlord who drunk, for the last 6 months, and it didn't make anything any better for him >_>.
I did have a headache, lol. I have a slight one now, frustration from not being able to concentrate on studying is giving me one. I don't seem to fall asleep till around 3-5 at night. I would enjoy chatting more, my immediate goal is to find some people I can socialize with, socializing (or the lack of) being one of my problems.