GSDAkatsuki wrote...
ZiggyOtaku wrote...
Were you by chance molested as a child?
You see that creates masochists and gays, I'm just a sadist. I just grew up on liking violence because I alwasy thought it was funny. When people die I laugh very loud. I can never conceal my sick and twisted sense of humor. As I grew up and was exposed to sexual matters it was an alright pleasure at first, but it did not seem enough. My mind desired more and violence combined with sex just became like a good mix. Viewing girls getting tortured just really seemed to turn me on.
Then again though...I can utterly feel like shit some days and my humanity takes over and I start going "Why did that happen to her!?" and blah blah blah having an actual heart speech kind of crap. So in general I'd say my more evil side overpowers my mind but at the same time my good side is actually formed into another entity in my body. I'm not for sure if I have 2 personalities but I think I maybe do since I seem to talk to myself a lot sometimes.
:? I don't really know what to say to that, since I'm a very squeamish person with it comes to someone else's pain.
I just hope your past bed partners are still alive. <.<;
and, just for the record, most sociopaths were molested as children. Or abused in some way. Not calling you a sociopath, my statement above was more or less dry humor. But now that you went out to explain yourself a bit more, it still leaves me wondering.