I've somehow managed to take the bait and began playing Katawa Shoujo a couple days ago. After reading a lot of people's
posts (spoilers) celebrating it for either making them
succumb to fetal position in tears, cause one to
sink into melancholic and philosophical thought, and also realize
it's not just about the sex but also genuine emotions, I finally opened it up to play it and found myself feeling much the same way, overcome and drained by the feelings it brings forth in me. It's written very well and the writing does a good job of wrapping you up in the story and causing you to feel emotionally connected to the characters.
I played through Act 1 thoroughly going into the second act with each girl first, though I knew I was the most interested in Hanako from the start. She reminds me of myself, although I put on a good mask and try hard to be sociable, I'm simply less than adequate in the art of small talk and my literary voice is much more confident than my vocal one. There's simply something about her shy and gentle nature that is very alluring to me. I felt a lot like Hisao, wanting to be closer with her to help be there for her to help her through the pain she is experiencing. Fortunately, I made all the right decisions, but I went back to see the wrong ones anyway.
I was also interested in Lilly's polite demeanor. They were a gentle contrast to all the forcefulness of Shizune and Misha with the student council. I don't like being used or forced into situations, so I naturally felt more attached to the first two. However, I plan to play through them all eventually, since I am a completionist by nature.
It's made me feel a little lonely. I mostly am a self-sufficient person and I don't usually get in melodramatic lonely phases often, but sometimes I have that romantic craving that I should be with someone who means the world to me and share the good and bad times with. I'm a romantic at heart, and a tad idealistic, though I continue to push off girls I've met for many reasons I believe them superficially to possess, or simply because it isn't as clear that real girls can feel so obviously genuine as these girls were written to. Plus the realization that my college days are shortly behind me has me a little sullen that my chances of finding someone just went down drastically. Essentially it's now no longer about who I happen to run into by happenstance, but completely dependent and fueled by my own desire to
get out there and make what I wish a reality. Now it's just a matter of getting into a disability schoo-I mean going to singles events, finding girls wanting what I want: a deep, meaningful, lasting relationship.
Pardon the personal rant, the more philosophical sides of the VN have gotten to me, in addition to the
intellectually complex blog posts by Aura, one of the developers who has a talent for writing such wonderful and analytical things.
This is my second VN and I don't usually play these at all since I'm typically more of an interactive gamer and less big on VNs or straight reading in general. That being said, I pretty much don't go out of my way to play these and I don't anticipate playing another any time soon.
So, it goes without saying that I am not reviewing this in a fair or just position and I don't intend or care to, since I'm not knowledgeable in those matters. All I know is that I'm playing this VN right now and it is having a profound affect on me. The point of me posting is to
spill my feels for how this VN has been, so far, a touching experience and although I feel pretty sad and empty from the feels seeping out of me, I will go forth to get the most out of this as possible. I finished Hanako's route completely and will now submerge back underneath the sea of
manly tears from which I came. On to Lilly's route, wish me luck.
I'd love to hear on here or over PM of anyone's personal reception of the VN, or how it has, or hasn't, affected your life, or just to be here with open arms to embrace the
feels. Thanks.