I Feel A Pain

I feel a pain; a pain that I think no one should have to ever feel
The pain of losing someone so close to you that you can’t function at times
The pain of missing out on the happiness of Christmas eve you once had, because someone that should be there is missing
The pain that makes you feel like all those horrible things they said about you were true
The pain that makes you feel like shit all day on Christmas eve
The pain that makes you want to cry yourself to sleep on Christmas eve
The pain that makes you feel like you’re all alone on Christmas eve
The pain that makes you feel like shit while you know all the rest of your friends and family are having a good time and making good memories on this day
The pain that makes you hate Christmas
The pain in which is regretting things you did to someone on their last Christmas in this cruel world