The Will To Change

Without further ado, I present what I believe my greatest work yet. It's also Assignment #2 of the Fakku School. :D

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I. Memory

They woke me up in my room
Apparantly I’d been out for days
It seems there was an accident
Down at the corner of Circuit and Genesis
And my family used me as a cushion
To shield themselves from injury

They turned to leave my room
Laughing at the excuse they made up
I wondered why the doctors wouldn’t tell me
Why I’m still here, my body was mostly fine
They just said “It’s pointless to ask”
And carried on with more important matters

The day dragged on until I fell asleep
And they woke me up in my room
It seems I was out for days...


II. Stuck

I got out of bed
Ate my food
Stayed in my room
And slept

I got out of bed
Ate my food
Stayed in my room
And slept

I got out of bed
Ate my food
Stayed in my room
And slept

I got out of bed
Ate my food
Stayed in my room
And slept

I got out of bed
Ate my food
Stayed in my room
And...


III. Realization

I went for a walk around the hospital
Just to kill off some time before bed
I heard a doctor talking
Unaware of me, he said
"We can't let him know this,
His world could fall apart.
Even if it was only for a day,
since he'd just forget it tommorrow anyway."

I was stunned, taken aback
What did he mean "forget it tommorrow"?
They were talking about me though
I knew at least that much
The realization dawned on me
All the things that I do each day
Will be forgotten by the beginning of the next
So I wrote it down, and slept


IV. Breakdown

Woke up in the morning
What did I see?
A paper reminder
Of what happened to me

I stared at it blankly
A feeling of dread
Of sorrow and madness
Swept over my head

A wicked smile crept over my face
The man I once was was nothing but a base
Emotions welled up, took over my mind
And once I came to, what did I find?

A body, at least, that's what it used to be
The parts were scattered, I couldn't even see
The person whose life I'd stolen
Future and present were taken

What did I do?
Why did I?
Why?
Why...

V. Renewal

I can review...
I can repent...
I can renew my life
and make up for the pain I caused to so many

I can repay...
I can recover
I can renew my life
and save the world from myself

I can recover.
I can save myself, while saving others.

VI. Restraint

Help me be a channel of Thy peace
That where there is hatred, I may bring love
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony
That where there is error, I may bring truth
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith
That where there is despair, I may bring hope
That where there is shadow, I may bring light
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy
That I may seek rather to comfort, than to be comforted
That I may seek to understand, rather than to be understood
That I may seek to love, rather than to be loved
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds, it is by forgiving that one is forgiven

VII. Recovery

Woke up in the morning
What did I see?
A paper reminder
of what happened to me

But humanity kept held
What once was let loose
But it wasn't just luck
I really did choose

A gleeful smile crept over my face
The man I once was was all but a phase
For now I am better, human at last
Free to help others, I remember my past

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Took about 2 hours, spread out over 4 days.

Criticism greatly appreciated.

One of the better things I've read in the past year--possibly ever (for poems, at least)

Extremely well-done assignment in terms of content. I don't look for grammar, personally.