Yasui - High times and everyday insanity
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!!!WARNING, mention of illegal substances(maybe) and topics that may cause you discomfort like casual sexual encounters, too much talking, sexual orientation is anything goes, whatever. Please do not proceed if you are bothered by these things, yeah right -_-. But this is not hentai ok, its just nothing really... dont expect mind numbing sexual content, there'd barely be any.
This is not hentai ok, its like drama! -_-
I love maid yakui, she's just so adorable. I'm not a writer alright, this is just to pass time maybe. Again, THIS IS ALL FICTION all right!!! I used to go by yasui a long long long time ago so what the hell. Everything that I will post on this thread is fiction and not even remotely based on real life. So though I am talking in the first person please dont assume or judge me ok... well ok maybe a certain a % of it is real life >_>
I have never writen a thing in my life ok. Im just doing this for therapy.
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Yasui High Times
(FICTION!)
KING
I got out of my car and saw someone pull over the drive way, it was a guy. I dont recognize him but I was beside the point, I was not really sure what the man I was supposed to meet tonight looked like, aside from the hair that I remembered from the photo, dread locks - it's not him.
"Hello how are you!", he said.
"Hi my name is Yasui, I'm supposed to meet someone here", I replied.
"Oh he's my friend, come in come in", he invited and just in time someone else opened the door
"You must be Yasui, nice to meet you", its him.
"I'm doing fine, wow you have a nice neighborhood here everything seems nice", I said.
"Hahaha, alright follow me to where I want you to be", and I followed to the back of the house.
It was private simple, there was a new bed and some anime on tables and manga, tv and the player.
"Let's watch this you might like it", as he got Desert Punk and worked on playing it.
"Do you really like anime? You have a lot here", I laughed. I was not really into anime much.
"There's a lot of action in it, if its a real movie its just an hour but if its anime it goes on and on and on", he laughed.
"Yeah youre right I guess", I smiled.
I looked around and saw a piece of a grinder on a corner table.
"So you really do smoke", I inquired.
"Yeah, did you miss the bong right in front of you?", he laughed
"Oh, OHHH", I got surprised as it really was just in front of me, "I've never really tried it before you know. I use a vaporizer, coz its healthier and smoking it like with a bong is bad for my health as my doctor said"
"Yeah yeah ok", then he showed me what he had, "it's an indica".
Indica makes you feel more relaxed and physically heavy/sleepy. I guess it was time for that already. So I went to my bad and got my stuff. I showed him 3 kinds. 2 Indicas and 1 Sativa. All top shelf. Indica makes you feel more energetic, like you want to just move.
"I want to relax today but not relax too much so I think I'll go by mine. I get mine from Venice, for some reason stuff from Venice gives me a really smooth high." I said as I took some out and started breaking em into my grinder.
"The best stuff in this area are in Venice", he said as he prepped his bong to which I observed keenly. Ive never seen anyone use such before, Ive always been so curious and now its time to find out. He places it on a funnel shaped thing then used a lighter to light it then he started inhaling it from the other end of the tube. I was so amazed at how FAST it burned. I mean that much weed, gone soooo fast.
"God that was fast!!!", and I started grinding then fitting it into my tube. Then I plugged my vaporizer and just waited for it to heat up with my stuff.
"So how's it been for you", he asked.
"I'm really kinda down. I just want to relax tonight. I talked to my ex-bf's lover, I saw her coz to pick up my vaporizer before coming over. She said Van is still in the mental hospital. He's really out of his mind and she's talking about wishing he would never be allowed out of there, that its better for him. I sorta agree really. And the rest of my week has been stressful", I said looking down on the floor.
We were just sitting there on the bed. Then I went around to smoke my thing. I just puffed and puffed.
"I'm still new to these things you know. I just started a couple of months ago. Another ex-bf got me into it.", I said.
"Cool".
Then we watched some anime. And he was explaining the setting. I remember seeing boobs going up and down. Men, I think this is why they really watch these.
"Hey, I think that is why you like this anime", I said.
"Well y ah allkfklla ksklkalkskakl", all of a sudden I couldnt make sense of what he was saying.
"I think Im really right now", I said snickering, "Hey I need to go to the rest room"
"Ok", he said, then he walked me back to the house, "You're so pretty", he said along the way.
Then it just felt like time was jumping. That is how I usually get high with weed. It feels like think of a sequence like A B C D E and Im at A and its happening upto E. But when I get to E, it feels as if BCD never happened and I was still at point A a second ago. Its like I phase in and out. Its a really funny feeling.
I do remember being in the toilet sitting trying to pee. I was thinking," ..... ", I wanted to think of something but nothing would come to mind.
We then walked back to the back. And I puffed some more. And he did some more.
Then i just felt so out of it and I just collapsed in bed on my side. I was so high. I almost felt like I was gonna vomit, and everything was so, I was like seeing 3 of everything.
He lied down next to me looking at my face, "You are so high, Ive never seen anyone so out of it like you before, its cute".
"Ye... hahahahahahhahaa, hey Im just enjoying it alright", I laughed and just looked at him. I think he started looking at my legs. I moved them a bit to push the dress a bit and show more and closed my eyes and gave a smile.
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This is not hentai ok, its like drama! -_-
I love maid yakui, she's just so adorable. I'm not a writer alright, this is just to pass time maybe. Again, THIS IS ALL FICTION all right!!! I used to go by yasui a long long long time ago so what the hell. Everything that I will post on this thread is fiction and not even remotely based on real life. So though I am talking in the first person please dont assume or judge me ok... well ok maybe a certain a % of it is real life >_>
I have never writen a thing in my life ok. Im just doing this for therapy.
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Yasui High Times
(FICTION!)
KING
I got out of my car and saw someone pull over the drive way, it was a guy. I dont recognize him but I was beside the point, I was not really sure what the man I was supposed to meet tonight looked like, aside from the hair that I remembered from the photo, dread locks - it's not him.
"Hello how are you!", he said.
"Hi my name is Yasui, I'm supposed to meet someone here", I replied.
"Oh he's my friend, come in come in", he invited and just in time someone else opened the door
"You must be Yasui, nice to meet you", its him.
"I'm doing fine, wow you have a nice neighborhood here everything seems nice", I said.
"Hahaha, alright follow me to where I want you to be", and I followed to the back of the house.
It was private simple, there was a new bed and some anime on tables and manga, tv and the player.
"Let's watch this you might like it", as he got Desert Punk and worked on playing it.
"Do you really like anime? You have a lot here", I laughed. I was not really into anime much.
"There's a lot of action in it, if its a real movie its just an hour but if its anime it goes on and on and on", he laughed.
"Yeah youre right I guess", I smiled.
I looked around and saw a piece of a grinder on a corner table.
"So you really do smoke", I inquired.
"Yeah, did you miss the bong right in front of you?", he laughed
"Oh, OHHH", I got surprised as it really was just in front of me, "I've never really tried it before you know. I use a vaporizer, coz its healthier and smoking it like with a bong is bad for my health as my doctor said"
"Yeah yeah ok", then he showed me what he had, "it's an indica".
Indica makes you feel more relaxed and physically heavy/sleepy. I guess it was time for that already. So I went to my bad and got my stuff. I showed him 3 kinds. 2 Indicas and 1 Sativa. All top shelf. Indica makes you feel more energetic, like you want to just move.
"I want to relax today but not relax too much so I think I'll go by mine. I get mine from Venice, for some reason stuff from Venice gives me a really smooth high." I said as I took some out and started breaking em into my grinder.
"The best stuff in this area are in Venice", he said as he prepped his bong to which I observed keenly. Ive never seen anyone use such before, Ive always been so curious and now its time to find out. He places it on a funnel shaped thing then used a lighter to light it then he started inhaling it from the other end of the tube. I was so amazed at how FAST it burned. I mean that much weed, gone soooo fast.
"God that was fast!!!", and I started grinding then fitting it into my tube. Then I plugged my vaporizer and just waited for it to heat up with my stuff.
"So how's it been for you", he asked.
"I'm really kinda down. I just want to relax tonight. I talked to my ex-bf's lover, I saw her coz to pick up my vaporizer before coming over. She said Van is still in the mental hospital. He's really out of his mind and she's talking about wishing he would never be allowed out of there, that its better for him. I sorta agree really. And the rest of my week has been stressful", I said looking down on the floor.
We were just sitting there on the bed. Then I went around to smoke my thing. I just puffed and puffed.
"I'm still new to these things you know. I just started a couple of months ago. Another ex-bf got me into it.", I said.
"Cool".
Then we watched some anime. And he was explaining the setting. I remember seeing boobs going up and down. Men, I think this is why they really watch these.
"Hey, I think that is why you like this anime", I said.
"Well y ah allkfklla ksklkalkskakl", all of a sudden I couldnt make sense of what he was saying.
"I think Im really right now", I said snickering, "Hey I need to go to the rest room"
"Ok", he said, then he walked me back to the house, "You're so pretty", he said along the way.
Then it just felt like time was jumping. That is how I usually get high with weed. It feels like think of a sequence like A B C D E and Im at A and its happening upto E. But when I get to E, it feels as if BCD never happened and I was still at point A a second ago. Its like I phase in and out. Its a really funny feeling.
I do remember being in the toilet sitting trying to pee. I was thinking," ..... ", I wanted to think of something but nothing would come to mind.
We then walked back to the back. And I puffed some more. And he did some more.
Then i just felt so out of it and I just collapsed in bed on my side. I was so high. I almost felt like I was gonna vomit, and everything was so, I was like seeing 3 of everything.
He lied down next to me looking at my face, "You are so high, Ive never seen anyone so out of it like you before, its cute".
"Ye... hahahahahahhahaa, hey Im just enjoying it alright", I laughed and just looked at him. I think he started looking at my legs. I moved them a bit to push the dress a bit and show more and closed my eyes and gave a smile.
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KING II
He got up and ssaid, "Are you ok?", I didnt get a look at his face if he was joking.
I tried to sit up, "Yeah I am, very much, Im just high I guess"
"I just didnt want you to feel weirded out by anything you know", he said
"Dont worry about it, Im really comfortable, are you?'
"Yeah, so what did you have in mind, coming over? Did you just want to smoke?", he asked
"He's playing it safe isnt he", I thought to myself, "Well yeah I wanted to get high and relax thats what I thought of. But I am open to suggestion", and I leaned back arcing my shoulders.
"You want to take it slow and see where it goes?", he asked.
"Yeah, I'd like that", and I just let myself fall back into the bed.
"Dont you have a girlfriend?", I asked looking at him smiling.
"She knows your gonna be here, she won't mind. She'd just throw a fit coz she missed on it", he said as he took off his shirt.
"Hahahaha", and I just gave in to the high and lied on my back.
"How long do you want to stay?"
"I dont know hahahahha"
Then he said he has to be out coz he had to pick up his girlfriend by 10. I said, "I think that is plenty of time, thats 3 hours from now!!! plenty of time.."
He reached down into my dress and started touching me above my panty. Just caressing me gently. I looked away. Then I felt his hand on my sides. He then got on top of me and kissed me in the neck. The what little of my chest that was exposed. Then he backed up and started kissing me in the belly.
He then pulled off my stockings and panty off then lifted my dress and bra up to get a good look at me. I felt so exposed.
Then he caressed my thighs and kissed them. And he went lower and lower, it felt so good. And he kissed and licked my pussy and all around it. I just let go and enjoyed it. I couldnt move at all. I just know it was so good and I made more sounds, the more he touched me there.
He then got up and took his pants off.
"Hey you are clean right", I asked nicely.
"Yeah, I have to be for my girl. Plus I have condom, let me get it
"Oh I have some... in my purse just right there".
He put it on then he spread me and sat there in front of me. And I got that feeling again, 'Oh damn, I am gonna get fucked huh'. I raised my legs a little and he pushed it in. The high makes me feel so sensitive, and I can feel it so strongly. He pushed it in really slow, as I asked him to. I could feel every inch of it as it came in. Then we rocked really slow, then he leaned forward and started going at it steadier. Then he kissed me in the lips and I felt his arm on my back holding me and he really pressed his body against mine as he grinded me slowly. Oh yeah. I couldnt move at all still, I could only make sounds.
He then backed up and started fucking me from a sitting position. It was so intense, coz of the high. I grabbed my knees, it was too much then he grabbed my legs that were sticking up and fucked me a bit harder. We ended up reaching the edge of the bed as I inched with every move. Then I curled up towards the wall on my side to breath and he started doing me again. It felt much stronger from the side, it was too much crawled forward and he then went and lie down behind me. And started pushing it in again from the back. He wrapped his arm around me and reached for my breast which he started to squeeze, and so did his other hand. It was so good, I spread my legs a little and let him keep on fucking me some more.
I then curled forward, again trying to reach and crawl away a little and he told me to get up. And I did, I think he wants to fuck me like a doggy. So I got on all fours and he immediately started pounding me. I couldnt stay up and my face just fell to the bed but it felt much stronger coz of the angle so I tried to get up again. Then he told me to get on the edge of the bed so he can fuck me standing up. And I obliged and he continued fucking me with my head on my arms.
Then I broke off and went back to bed. I...
And went back in and got on top of me.
"Am I gonna get fucked again?", I asked my mind still out of it.
"Yeah you are"
And he penetrated me again. It was so good. I lifted a leg and rested it on his shoulder, that felt so good. Then he took both my legs and held it up together and started pounding me fast. Then he opened me up and held me by the hips and fucked me some more. then I grabbed my legs and just really opened myself up. And he moved higher and he just kept on fucking and it was so deep from that position, it was like sooooo deep and I was just moaning so loudly. He really loved it too, he just got faster and faster. til I think I came and I started really arcing my back and raelly got loud it was soooo good inside oh my god. then he stopped.
I just laid there in bed. so exhausted, head spinning, trying ot make sense if what happened really happened. but I felt it, sore... it was sore down there, from the fucking so sore.
"Did you cum?", I tried to mumble
"No, when I have sex I usually do it for a long time. I know its bad", he said.
"Bad, I dont think so... I think its actually good", I said looking away, "Hey I need to go to rest room too"
I tried to get up, and on the way he was asking me if I was alright coz my right leg was wobbly and I was a little limping, to which I replied, 'I just got fucked like crazy ok!".
There I was sitting on the toilet again, thinking of things, trying to. I could only piece half of the sentence like, "What the fuck a....", I couldnt make out the rest. Then I though of my friend that I was texting, he was urging me not to have with people anymore. Then I went back.
I just lied down in bed. Still high. I think he wasnt anymore, he then started smoking a lot more.
Then he got behind me and started touching me. He was caressing me all over. From my belly again, to my breasts to my sides and my thigh. Then he opened my legs a little to reach to squeeze my butt. I just closed my eyes. He wouldnt stop touching me, kissing me all over. It went on and on. sucking my tits, between my legs. I was glad that he did that, I was so sore already. It was a little odd that the foreplay was after the sex but I actually loved it so much. I just kept giving myself to him for him to touch me some more.
"How do you feel?", he asked me.
"I feel great", I answered, "Did you enjoy yourself?"
"Yeah I did"
"I just wanted to make sure you enjoyed using me", I said with a really whorish face.
Then all of a sudden I snapped out of it, the high was gone just like that. "Hey, Im not high anymore hahahahha"
He then smoked some more and said, "Hey I really have to go by 9:30 alright".
"Thats still 30 minutes away", I said as I looked at the watch,"... you better make good use of it and bang me", I said softly
"What did you say?", he didnt hear me
"Well, you better make good use of what time you have then eh!", I said loudly posing in bed for him
And he went back and went on top of me.
"Am I gonna get fucked again?", I asked
"Do you want to", he asked
"yeah.... fuck me", and I wrapped my arms around him as he pushed in it and started humping again, "yeah, please fuck me!!!!", I said with the new woken up me.
And I got really responsive now, not like before when I was so high. I met his every thrush and grinded with him, I made him feel my hands in his arms and back. And he loved it, he fucked me harder and harder and harder. Then he lied down behind me again and started playing with my breasts while he fucked me, and i took his hands and made him squeeze me harder. I guess he got it and started getting rough. And I just raised my hands up over my head to give him freedom to touch wherever. It felt so good, how he mashed my breasts. He then got up and pulled me around the bed by my legs then positioned my legs behind him as he fucked me sitting up as he held me by the waist. then I raised both legs on his shoulders and he started fucking me hard as he leaned forward. he fucked sooo hard so deep and soooo hard, I felt like I was gonna break. it hurt... it hurt so bad but it felt soooooo gooooood. "yeah fuck me fuck meeeeeeee". and went on and on faster harder harder. he put a hand on my head so I cant escape and i was just set there and I cant move, just to take his cock in me. i just screamed in pleasure.
then he snapped out of it, "Oh shit, i really have to go"
"I think that was almost an hour, youre probably late huh", I thought to myself, "Ok....", I said as I tried to catch my breath and just wiggled and jerked a bit from the physical abuse I just got.
After I rested for a minute I tried to dress up and get my things.
Then we just went for the door.
"Let's meet up again", he said, "I'll let you know when we can"
"Ok, yeah I'd like to, I felt really good", I said as I tried to get to my car in pain.
And now, Im just typing here. Still feel a bit of it. That felt sooo good OH MY GOD. I think that was the 2nd best sex I have ever had, ever. Im just bad with words really.
And hey, someone messaged me, its Amy. She seems to want to meet with me next week. I just asked her if she's into weed. And she replied, "yeah we sometimes do that casually". Next saturday...
He got up and ssaid, "Are you ok?", I didnt get a look at his face if he was joking.
I tried to sit up, "Yeah I am, very much, Im just high I guess"
"I just didnt want you to feel weirded out by anything you know", he said
"Dont worry about it, Im really comfortable, are you?'
"Yeah, so what did you have in mind, coming over? Did you just want to smoke?", he asked
"He's playing it safe isnt he", I thought to myself, "Well yeah I wanted to get high and relax thats what I thought of. But I am open to suggestion", and I leaned back arcing my shoulders.
"You want to take it slow and see where it goes?", he asked.
"Yeah, I'd like that", and I just let myself fall back into the bed.
"Dont you have a girlfriend?", I asked looking at him smiling.
"She knows your gonna be here, she won't mind. She'd just throw a fit coz she missed on it", he said as he took off his shirt.
"Hahahaha", and I just gave in to the high and lied on my back.
"How long do you want to stay?"
"I dont know hahahahha"
Then he said he has to be out coz he had to pick up his girlfriend by 10. I said, "I think that is plenty of time, thats 3 hours from now!!! plenty of time.."
He reached down into my dress and started touching me above my panty. Just caressing me gently. I looked away. Then I felt his hand on my sides. He then got on top of me and kissed me in the neck. The what little of my chest that was exposed. Then he backed up and started kissing me in the belly.
He then pulled off my stockings and panty off then lifted my dress and bra up to get a good look at me. I felt so exposed.
Then he caressed my thighs and kissed them. And he went lower and lower, it felt so good. And he kissed and licked my pussy and all around it. I just let go and enjoyed it. I couldnt move at all. I just know it was so good and I made more sounds, the more he touched me there.
He then got up and took his pants off.
"Hey you are clean right", I asked nicely.
"Yeah, I have to be for my girl. Plus I have condom, let me get it
"Oh I have some... in my purse just right there".
He put it on then he spread me and sat there in front of me. And I got that feeling again, 'Oh damn, I am gonna get fucked huh'. I raised my legs a little and he pushed it in. The high makes me feel so sensitive, and I can feel it so strongly. He pushed it in really slow, as I asked him to. I could feel every inch of it as it came in. Then we rocked really slow, then he leaned forward and started going at it steadier. Then he kissed me in the lips and I felt his arm on my back holding me and he really pressed his body against mine as he grinded me slowly. Oh yeah. I couldnt move at all still, I could only make sounds.
He then backed up and started fucking me from a sitting position. It was so intense, coz of the high. I grabbed my knees, it was too much then he grabbed my legs that were sticking up and fucked me a bit harder. We ended up reaching the edge of the bed as I inched with every move. Then I curled up towards the wall on my side to breath and he started doing me again. It felt much stronger from the side, it was too much crawled forward and he then went and lie down behind me. And started pushing it in again from the back. He wrapped his arm around me and reached for my breast which he started to squeeze, and so did his other hand. It was so good, I spread my legs a little and let him keep on fucking me some more.
I then curled forward, again trying to reach and crawl away a little and he told me to get up. And I did, I think he wants to fuck me like a doggy. So I got on all fours and he immediately started pounding me. I couldnt stay up and my face just fell to the bed but it felt much stronger coz of the angle so I tried to get up again. Then he told me to get on the edge of the bed so he can fuck me standing up. And I obliged and he continued fucking me with my head on my arms.
Then I broke off and went back to bed. I...
And went back in and got on top of me.
"Am I gonna get fucked again?", I asked my mind still out of it.
"Yeah you are"
And he penetrated me again. It was so good. I lifted a leg and rested it on his shoulder, that felt so good. Then he took both my legs and held it up together and started pounding me fast. Then he opened me up and held me by the hips and fucked me some more. then I grabbed my legs and just really opened myself up. And he moved higher and he just kept on fucking and it was so deep from that position, it was like sooooo deep and I was just moaning so loudly. He really loved it too, he just got faster and faster. til I think I came and I started really arcing my back and raelly got loud it was soooo good inside oh my god. then he stopped.
I just laid there in bed. so exhausted, head spinning, trying ot make sense if what happened really happened. but I felt it, sore... it was sore down there, from the fucking so sore.
"Did you cum?", I tried to mumble
"No, when I have sex I usually do it for a long time. I know its bad", he said.
"Bad, I dont think so... I think its actually good", I said looking away, "Hey I need to go to rest room too"
I tried to get up, and on the way he was asking me if I was alright coz my right leg was wobbly and I was a little limping, to which I replied, 'I just got fucked like crazy ok!".
There I was sitting on the toilet again, thinking of things, trying to. I could only piece half of the sentence like, "What the fuck a....", I couldnt make out the rest. Then I though of my friend that I was texting, he was urging me not to have with people anymore. Then I went back.
I just lied down in bed. Still high. I think he wasnt anymore, he then started smoking a lot more.
Then he got behind me and started touching me. He was caressing me all over. From my belly again, to my breasts to my sides and my thigh. Then he opened my legs a little to reach to squeeze my butt. I just closed my eyes. He wouldnt stop touching me, kissing me all over. It went on and on. sucking my tits, between my legs. I was glad that he did that, I was so sore already. It was a little odd that the foreplay was after the sex but I actually loved it so much. I just kept giving myself to him for him to touch me some more.
"How do you feel?", he asked me.
"I feel great", I answered, "Did you enjoy yourself?"
"Yeah I did"
"I just wanted to make sure you enjoyed using me", I said with a really whorish face.
Then all of a sudden I snapped out of it, the high was gone just like that. "Hey, Im not high anymore hahahahha"
He then smoked some more and said, "Hey I really have to go by 9:30 alright".
"Thats still 30 minutes away", I said as I looked at the watch,"... you better make good use of it and bang me", I said softly
"What did you say?", he didnt hear me
"Well, you better make good use of what time you have then eh!", I said loudly posing in bed for him
And he went back and went on top of me.
"Am I gonna get fucked again?", I asked
"Do you want to", he asked
"yeah.... fuck me", and I wrapped my arms around him as he pushed in it and started humping again, "yeah, please fuck me!!!!", I said with the new woken up me.
And I got really responsive now, not like before when I was so high. I met his every thrush and grinded with him, I made him feel my hands in his arms and back. And he loved it, he fucked me harder and harder and harder. Then he lied down behind me again and started playing with my breasts while he fucked me, and i took his hands and made him squeeze me harder. I guess he got it and started getting rough. And I just raised my hands up over my head to give him freedom to touch wherever. It felt so good, how he mashed my breasts. He then got up and pulled me around the bed by my legs then positioned my legs behind him as he fucked me sitting up as he held me by the waist. then I raised both legs on his shoulders and he started fucking me hard as he leaned forward. he fucked sooo hard so deep and soooo hard, I felt like I was gonna break. it hurt... it hurt so bad but it felt soooooo gooooood. "yeah fuck me fuck meeeeeeee". and went on and on faster harder harder. he put a hand on my head so I cant escape and i was just set there and I cant move, just to take his cock in me. i just screamed in pleasure.
then he snapped out of it, "Oh shit, i really have to go"
"I think that was almost an hour, youre probably late huh", I thought to myself, "Ok....", I said as I tried to catch my breath and just wiggled and jerked a bit from the physical abuse I just got.
After I rested for a minute I tried to dress up and get my things.
Then we just went for the door.
"Let's meet up again", he said, "I'll let you know when we can"
"Ok, yeah I'd like to, I felt really good", I said as I tried to get to my car in pain.
And now, Im just typing here. Still feel a bit of it. That felt sooo good OH MY GOD. I think that was the 2nd best sex I have ever had, ever. Im just bad with words really.
And hey, someone messaged me, its Amy. She seems to want to meet with me next week. I just asked her if she's into weed. And she replied, "yeah we sometimes do that casually". Next saturday...
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INTER
I cant sleep. Im thinking of Van. He's supposed to be released from the Hospital today. I feel worried that I have to confront him one of these days about what happened. I feel partly guilty. I know its really not my fault, but it still eats me up sometimes that he's went totally out of control ever since we broke up.
I will not lie, at first we just got together for casual fun. Idea was just for sex really. But the first time we met, we had a good time, a very normal time full of talking and going around which I very much needed at the time.
Its very late now so I will cut it short.
God my head hurts from the wine.
We broke up, but I will admit, I still love him and I do care about him. I just want him to be alright you know. And the people around him right now, they just cant control him and he doesnt listen to any of them. He only listens to me, and that sorta makes me feel like am I the only one who can really fix this?
Should I just walk away? I feel pity and outrage over the bullshit that he does. I am just so angry at him, at why the fuck does he have to be like this. Its the very same reason that pushed me away from him. Which was sad, coz he can really be so loving sometimes. I am so hurt that it didnt go well. I can tell he really loves me, but he really just needs something... and I dont know what it is.
The weekend.
Franco is supposed to come and sleep over. Then amy for saturday and her husband. I wonder if any of those two would flake. Ive been talking to Jack again lately on facebook, we sorta got to an agreement that it might be good to meet again sometime. Maybe I'll give my sunday to Van. Now this would be crazy if Ann tells me she can meet with me this weekend.
Im so stressed out at work. I dont have any respect for the person that I now report to. Just the absence of confidence really lowered my morale to a crazy low to the point that I actually am thinking of leaving the company.
But you know I learned something from my visit to Van's lover. That it helps when youre really stressed out and the anxiety is so high, to just let go and say to yourself "So what, its ok". Atleast to just get over that sudden debilitating moment, til you cna get your foot back in. I tried it earlier in bed and it did lower the pain on my head.
I want to go to Old Town Monrovia. Just sit there on the side of the street. Cool air, cloudy, just watch people walk by cars slowly pass by. The feel there I just love it. Its so peaceful. Rustic, if thats the word, maybe im wrong im too tired to check google.
Why the hell did he lose it? I told him itll be fine. I told him I'll still see him. And I did try to find some time once a week to see him. I just missed it coz I was really sick. He kept telling me it was ok, he was ok and everything was ok.
God my head hurts and I am so tired.
I talked to somoene and it made me remember old times. I miss my old life. I was in a very exclusive relationship. I cooked, we went to the grocery together, we watched everything together. We go to the mall, we deal with bullshit, we did everything together. Sometimes I wonder if I try to compare too much, my life from the past to the people that I now meet. With Van, with E, with everyone else. I was just so happy back then, like happiest Ive ever been. I miss L so much.
But that is over and that is the past. If I want to live now and live my life in the future, I have to let it go. Then again, maybe I have. Its only during the bad times that I remember anyway. Some good things dont last forever. I just wish I was a little bit stronger back then.
Hey atleast I am not as sick as I was eh. No more cold and Im not contageous anymore so hooray for that!!!! And I got interested again in cooking.
Why, all this, just like everyone else, just to try to move forward and just live. As someone once said, we never lived the same life, you really cannot judge anyone by how they live, because you never lived his or her life just yours. I used to be very judgemental when i was young. I was so full of myself and I was so self righteous. Til life humbled me down a little, and now Im just more accepting I guess. We all just want to live our lives, however we can.
I feel a lot better now. I feel I can smile, not like a few minutes ago. I hate alcohol haha
I cant sleep. Im thinking of Van. He's supposed to be released from the Hospital today. I feel worried that I have to confront him one of these days about what happened. I feel partly guilty. I know its really not my fault, but it still eats me up sometimes that he's went totally out of control ever since we broke up.
I will not lie, at first we just got together for casual fun. Idea was just for sex really. But the first time we met, we had a good time, a very normal time full of talking and going around which I very much needed at the time.
Its very late now so I will cut it short.
God my head hurts from the wine.
We broke up, but I will admit, I still love him and I do care about him. I just want him to be alright you know. And the people around him right now, they just cant control him and he doesnt listen to any of them. He only listens to me, and that sorta makes me feel like am I the only one who can really fix this?
Should I just walk away? I feel pity and outrage over the bullshit that he does. I am just so angry at him, at why the fuck does he have to be like this. Its the very same reason that pushed me away from him. Which was sad, coz he can really be so loving sometimes. I am so hurt that it didnt go well. I can tell he really loves me, but he really just needs something... and I dont know what it is.
The weekend.
Franco is supposed to come and sleep over. Then amy for saturday and her husband. I wonder if any of those two would flake. Ive been talking to Jack again lately on facebook, we sorta got to an agreement that it might be good to meet again sometime. Maybe I'll give my sunday to Van. Now this would be crazy if Ann tells me she can meet with me this weekend.
Im so stressed out at work. I dont have any respect for the person that I now report to. Just the absence of confidence really lowered my morale to a crazy low to the point that I actually am thinking of leaving the company.
But you know I learned something from my visit to Van's lover. That it helps when youre really stressed out and the anxiety is so high, to just let go and say to yourself "So what, its ok". Atleast to just get over that sudden debilitating moment, til you cna get your foot back in. I tried it earlier in bed and it did lower the pain on my head.
I want to go to Old Town Monrovia. Just sit there on the side of the street. Cool air, cloudy, just watch people walk by cars slowly pass by. The feel there I just love it. Its so peaceful. Rustic, if thats the word, maybe im wrong im too tired to check google.
Why the hell did he lose it? I told him itll be fine. I told him I'll still see him. And I did try to find some time once a week to see him. I just missed it coz I was really sick. He kept telling me it was ok, he was ok and everything was ok.
God my head hurts and I am so tired.
I talked to somoene and it made me remember old times. I miss my old life. I was in a very exclusive relationship. I cooked, we went to the grocery together, we watched everything together. We go to the mall, we deal with bullshit, we did everything together. Sometimes I wonder if I try to compare too much, my life from the past to the people that I now meet. With Van, with E, with everyone else. I was just so happy back then, like happiest Ive ever been. I miss L so much.
But that is over and that is the past. If I want to live now and live my life in the future, I have to let it go. Then again, maybe I have. Its only during the bad times that I remember anyway. Some good things dont last forever. I just wish I was a little bit stronger back then.
Hey atleast I am not as sick as I was eh. No more cold and Im not contageous anymore so hooray for that!!!! And I got interested again in cooking.
Why, all this, just like everyone else, just to try to move forward and just live. As someone once said, we never lived the same life, you really cannot judge anyone by how they live, because you never lived his or her life just yours. I used to be very judgemental when i was young. I was so full of myself and I was so self righteous. Til life humbled me down a little, and now Im just more accepting I guess. We all just want to live our lives, however we can.
I feel a lot better now. I feel I can smile, not like a few minutes ago. I hate alcohol haha
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ALEX
All that debate with Alex has made me think of the Alex in my life.
Alex, I just keep hearing about him from Van's lover. That he was somewhat older than me, slightly bit over my limit. First thing I thought about him ewww he sounds so boring like crap. Can we not go with him?
This was the time when Van and me were lovers still while he still had someone else, actually I was a newcomer into the whole thing. And Alex was there for a quicky vacation from San Diego. Then when I came over he was kinda hard not to notice, he was 6 feet tall and he was really really much younger looking than what I thought. He seemed really athletic. Typical white guy, handsome face oh my god. I was attracted to him the first time I looked at him now that I think of it.
We all went out for a drink, we went to The Abbey in Hollywood. We got there early so we got a decent table right next to the heater.
"Oh my god!!! Is that cake??!!!!!", I noticed as soon as I sat down, right in front of me,"I have never seen cake served at a night club before! Is this for real?!" I said trying to get his attention.
"I guess it is", he said.
Van ordered some nachos and as usual a drink. Gi, his lover wasnt really happy about it, predicting he would be drinking a ton.
I ordered a slice of Oreo cheesecake and this expensive drink.
Van at the time seemed really mellow, he was so quiet. He had a hit before we went there, its how he usually trips out. I got a little worried that Alex might think he was being rude.
"Well this is really nice! Would you like some?", I asked Alex, he was right in front of me anyway.
"Mmmm yeah its good", he said as he tried some of it, "Gi try some he said to them
"Oh Im ok, we still have to finish the nachos", Gi said.
Then my drink came and of course the initial sip, "hrr", it wasnt what I expected, it was fruity but the alcohol was really strong," damn this is strong, I guess thats where all that money went eh", I laughed.
We then just chit chatted about random stuff.
"You should dance with these two, especially Yasui", Gi said.
"I really wanted to learn how to dance, but I cant", Alex said.
"You really should try it, its gonna be fun and these people here dont really dance like crazy, you'll be just fine believe me", I tried to persuade him as placed a hand on his arm
"I want to practice first before really getting into it, so atleast I know a move or two", he refused.
Van was just there sitting silently like a statue.
"I'll teach you a little. Come on!!!", I tried again
"Ok, there's this girl that's been telling me that she will teach me how to dance, back in San Diego, in exchange for some help with things. Next time ok, I promise", he said.
"Ok you dont have to dance, just come with me, you just watch youre gonna love it there", I pulled on his arm with both hands now.
"Alex, just go with the two of them", Gi said.
"What the fuck, am I inviting Van? You entertain him and leave me be with Alex!!!", I thought to myself and just ignored it.
Van got up though. And finally Alex went for it.
The place was packed, the path to the dance floor was so crowded. It was time for these row of male gogo dancers to perform and everyone was right there watching so we had to squeeze our way through.
Then when we got there I just had a relief, finally the dance floor.
I just tried to dance super simple to make him comfortable. I was facing him and Van I think was just there next to us doing his own thing. And I was doing basic 2 step industrial, anyone ANYONE can do it.
"Just do this Alex, come on see its easy, you can just do this for a while. I mean look at these people, they're just doing a variation of it but its the same thing", I got closer to him and said it.
"Hahahahahah I", he just laughed.
I gave up on making him dance, so I decided to go full on and really started to dance for real. After a while I got hot as usual, so I took my top off and I danced with just my bra on and went a little more sexy on the style. I never do that there at that place, but what the hell.
He just watched then Van kept on trying to get really close to me to grind, but I kept trying to move away from him. Coz I couldnt dance with him in my face.
Then eventually I got a little too tired. So we decided to go for our seats.
When they all sat down I decided to get up, my favorite gogo dancer was on. God this guy is soooooo hot. And not just his body, he moves really slick and he can really dance. He just makes me want to lick him all over just watching him. So I went there in front of him and gave him a tip, and as usual I got to feel him up a bit. If I wouldnt look like too much of a perv I wouldve tried that again and again but that would be shameful. I always wondered if actually licking him was ok. Oh god
Then I went back.
"Hey let's move elsewhere", Gi said.
"What? Where to?", I asked.
"Alex wanted to try something else"
"Alright, well where do you want to go to?" I asked him
"We can just look around", he said.
So we left the place and walked on the street.
"So what kind of place do you feel like going to?", I asked him
"I really liked clubs with hip hop music", he said, "I know of one somewhere further but we have to drive there and I dont think its cheap"
"Alright, we can go for it I dont mind. Ive always wanted to try something new anyway", me completely ignoring the other two.
"Thats kinda expensive. We can look around some more there's a place right there", Gi said.
"Well ok, I'll go with his idea", I said.
And we so we ended up going for it. We drove and drove and when we got there we couldnt find the place. So we decided to walk on the streets some more again until we stopped next to a restaurant to replan things.
"Why dont we just grab a bite to eat", Gi said.
"I wanna dance some more!", I protested.
"I'm sorry I thought it was still open. Well I'm alright with eating but where to though?", Alex said.
And they were thinking about it. And it was a bit cold and I was dressed for dancing. I backed myself into the wall and grabbed Alex to stand right in front of me.
"Its kinda cold alright, you keep me warm", I said
"Hahahhahaha", he laughed. He also took off his Hoodie Jacket and made me wear it, "Thats actually my favorite jacket. It really works for me".
"Hey I like it. It covers my head just the way I like it", I smiled at him.
At the time, I was really oblivious about Van and Gi.
Then for some reason we ended up going to Denny's.
"What would you like to order?", the waiter said.
"Oh Im not ordering anything", Gi said.
"Im still full actually", Alex said.
"Uhmmmm", fuckin Van.
"Why did we come here if none of you are ordering anything??????", I said, "we cant stay here without ordering anything!"
I ended up getting soda. And after a few more chit chat we decided to just drive around.
At the car it crossed my mind. Maybe this is an opportunity.
"Hey Alex, do you take weed?", I asked
"A long long time ago. But its been almost 10 years since I have. I dont anymore", he replied
"Why dont we just go home and we can have some. I have some!", I said with a big smile
"Yeah why dont we just go home", Gi said looking really exhausted
"Hmmm that is tempting but I dont know. But alright what do you say Gi?", he asked.
"Yeah ok lets go. Theres probably nothing open at this time anymore anyway", Gi said.
"Not really, the club I go to is just there a few blocks away!", I thought to myself, "but Id rather be doing something with alex so screw that"
Then we just drove home.
As soon we got home, Gi and Van's place, I went to unpack and prepare the weed. Van and Gi just went to the bedroom to my surprise, coz Van would never let that pass - to get high.
"Come on alex, try some", I invited him as cute as I can
"I really dont know. Its been so long and it's very tempting but I dont know"
I got up and started pulling on him, "come onnnn its just today. it'll be fun ok. come onnnnnnnn", I just wouldnt let him go
"Ok ok fine", he gave up and sat next to me on the floor and had a puff
"Seeeee", and I just puffed and puffed
"This is smooth", he said
"Yeah it really makes a difference if you use it like this", I replied as my head started to spin, "hey are you feeling it???"
"No not yet, I dont feel anything", he said.
"Really wow", I laughed, "are you really doing it right???!!!! ughhhh!!!!!", I thought.
"Well just puff some more ehhhhhhhh hahahahahah", I offered and he obliged.
I got really high and I was rolling around on the floor. Alex was just similing.
I sat back up right next to him and started giggling and got really close. I looked at him and gave him a smile. And he smiled back and then he just kissed me which I returned full on.
Then I started to lie down and he went on top of me. He wont stop kissing me, just as how I wanted him to. And then he stopped right there and looked at me.
"Hey, is this alright??? Arent you..... arent you and Van........", he said confused
"hahahahahahhaa dont worry about it. Its alright", I raised my head a little for him to catch my lips
And he did. And he got rougher. He pinned my hands down with his, I couldnt move as kept kissing me all over. I felt his knee pressing between my legs. All I can do was moan in pleasure. My legs were jerking, hitting some boxes there. I think we can be heard from the bedroom.
"No really, I dont want to cause trouble and theyre my friends. I dont want to have an issue with Van", he said as he let go of me
"Its ok alright!", I said as I tried to be sexy trying to seduce him.
To which he went for, and he resumed.
"You protest, but you cant help it can you?", I thought fiendishly in my head.
And while we at it on the floor. I dont know who it was, but someone passed us by. I knew someone did, but I couldnt stop.
"Hey lets go to the bed eh, itll be more comfortable there", I pointed towards the sofa bed there on the living room.
He got up and followed me.
"hihihihihihi", I was so high still.
I took my top and bra off and smiled at him.
"Look, I... I dont know ok. Im really worried about Van", he protested
I smiled at him like a slut and grabbed his hear and pulled it towards my breast, "Just shut up already and suck my tits for fucks sake!", I thought.
And he did. His hand started touching me all over. Then I felt him caressing my thighs. Sadly, at that time, I just realized I couldnt do it due to 'reasons', what the fuck.
"Oh im sorry, this may sound like a lot of bullshit but I dont fuck on the first night I meet someone. This is ok since this is just light stuff. I hope its ok with you?", I told him praying he'd be ok with it.
"Its alright", and he just continued kissing me all over.
I was relieved, but it doesnt mean I cant have some of his. And so I started to reach for his pants and started to open it up. I slipped my hand into his underwear to feel his cock and I was just giggling when I pulled him out. He was so big, i remember my thumb and fingers couldnt meet as I held him.
"God damn youre huge! I dont know if I can take that in me hahahaha", I joked.
And I just couldnt help myself, I just started kissing it and licking it from the base to his tip.
"mmmmmmmmmmmm", I was trying to imagine it going inside me while partly being enraged that we couldnt do it that night.
Then I started sucking him real good.
"Hey, this is really getting sexual between us I... Im really just worried ok", he kept on babbling
I giggled and bit his cock on the side playfully as I used my tongue on it. Then I let go and hugged him and he embraced me back.
Then I pushed him away and started to jerk him off.
"hihihihihihihiihiiiiii", I just wanted to be playful and I just kept beating him off harder and harder then he grabbed my hand all of a sudden and he shot off cum all over my belly.
"aaaaahahahahahaaaaa", I smiled at him, "wow, I cant believe I made this guy cum like this", I thought to myself
Then he just laid down there. And I collapsed in his arms and we fell asleep.
When we woke up we hugged some more and kissed each other til Gi came out of the bedroom.
Alex immediately got up and started getting ready.
The rest of that day, we ended up going to the beach. I was just all over Alex, I was like almost constantly clinging to his arm in front of Van. Who really had no reaction at all.
Afterall, why should he, he has Gi. That would be ridiculous right?
Then Alex went back to San Diego.
I told Van about it, he said he was ok with it. He was just laughing and reassuring me its perfectly alright and he is mature and all that. And it all went by fine.
Weeks passed by. I got to talk to Gi and I just found out that that night, Van actually went out of the bedroom and he did see me and Alex. Gi told me that when Van went back to bed he just started crying. And he kept denying that he was crying that everything is fine. I couldnt confront Van about it though, seems he made Gi promise not to tell me. I was confused really, why he cried coz all that time he was the one pushing me to actually do these things and all of a sudden he would react like that? And why anyway, he has Gi doesnt he?
All that debate with Alex has made me think of the Alex in my life.
Alex, I just keep hearing about him from Van's lover. That he was somewhat older than me, slightly bit over my limit. First thing I thought about him ewww he sounds so boring like crap. Can we not go with him?
This was the time when Van and me were lovers still while he still had someone else, actually I was a newcomer into the whole thing. And Alex was there for a quicky vacation from San Diego. Then when I came over he was kinda hard not to notice, he was 6 feet tall and he was really really much younger looking than what I thought. He seemed really athletic. Typical white guy, handsome face oh my god. I was attracted to him the first time I looked at him now that I think of it.
We all went out for a drink, we went to The Abbey in Hollywood. We got there early so we got a decent table right next to the heater.
"Oh my god!!! Is that cake??!!!!!", I noticed as soon as I sat down, right in front of me,"I have never seen cake served at a night club before! Is this for real?!" I said trying to get his attention.
"I guess it is", he said.
Van ordered some nachos and as usual a drink. Gi, his lover wasnt really happy about it, predicting he would be drinking a ton.
I ordered a slice of Oreo cheesecake and this expensive drink.
Van at the time seemed really mellow, he was so quiet. He had a hit before we went there, its how he usually trips out. I got a little worried that Alex might think he was being rude.
"Well this is really nice! Would you like some?", I asked Alex, he was right in front of me anyway.
"Mmmm yeah its good", he said as he tried some of it, "Gi try some he said to them
"Oh Im ok, we still have to finish the nachos", Gi said.
Then my drink came and of course the initial sip, "hrr", it wasnt what I expected, it was fruity but the alcohol was really strong," damn this is strong, I guess thats where all that money went eh", I laughed.
We then just chit chatted about random stuff.
"You should dance with these two, especially Yasui", Gi said.
"I really wanted to learn how to dance, but I cant", Alex said.
"You really should try it, its gonna be fun and these people here dont really dance like crazy, you'll be just fine believe me", I tried to persuade him as placed a hand on his arm
"I want to practice first before really getting into it, so atleast I know a move or two", he refused.
Van was just there sitting silently like a statue.
"I'll teach you a little. Come on!!!", I tried again
"Ok, there's this girl that's been telling me that she will teach me how to dance, back in San Diego, in exchange for some help with things. Next time ok, I promise", he said.
"Ok you dont have to dance, just come with me, you just watch youre gonna love it there", I pulled on his arm with both hands now.
"Alex, just go with the two of them", Gi said.
"What the fuck, am I inviting Van? You entertain him and leave me be with Alex!!!", I thought to myself and just ignored it.
Van got up though. And finally Alex went for it.
The place was packed, the path to the dance floor was so crowded. It was time for these row of male gogo dancers to perform and everyone was right there watching so we had to squeeze our way through.
Then when we got there I just had a relief, finally the dance floor.
I just tried to dance super simple to make him comfortable. I was facing him and Van I think was just there next to us doing his own thing. And I was doing basic 2 step industrial, anyone ANYONE can do it.
"Just do this Alex, come on see its easy, you can just do this for a while. I mean look at these people, they're just doing a variation of it but its the same thing", I got closer to him and said it.
"Hahahahahah I", he just laughed.
I gave up on making him dance, so I decided to go full on and really started to dance for real. After a while I got hot as usual, so I took my top off and I danced with just my bra on and went a little more sexy on the style. I never do that there at that place, but what the hell.
He just watched then Van kept on trying to get really close to me to grind, but I kept trying to move away from him. Coz I couldnt dance with him in my face.
Then eventually I got a little too tired. So we decided to go for our seats.
When they all sat down I decided to get up, my favorite gogo dancer was on. God this guy is soooooo hot. And not just his body, he moves really slick and he can really dance. He just makes me want to lick him all over just watching him. So I went there in front of him and gave him a tip, and as usual I got to feel him up a bit. If I wouldnt look like too much of a perv I wouldve tried that again and again but that would be shameful. I always wondered if actually licking him was ok. Oh god
Then I went back.
"Hey let's move elsewhere", Gi said.
"What? Where to?", I asked.
"Alex wanted to try something else"
"Alright, well where do you want to go to?" I asked him
"We can just look around", he said.
So we left the place and walked on the street.
"So what kind of place do you feel like going to?", I asked him
"I really liked clubs with hip hop music", he said, "I know of one somewhere further but we have to drive there and I dont think its cheap"
"Alright, we can go for it I dont mind. Ive always wanted to try something new anyway", me completely ignoring the other two.
"Thats kinda expensive. We can look around some more there's a place right there", Gi said.
"Well ok, I'll go with his idea", I said.
And we so we ended up going for it. We drove and drove and when we got there we couldnt find the place. So we decided to walk on the streets some more again until we stopped next to a restaurant to replan things.
"Why dont we just grab a bite to eat", Gi said.
"I wanna dance some more!", I protested.
"I'm sorry I thought it was still open. Well I'm alright with eating but where to though?", Alex said.
And they were thinking about it. And it was a bit cold and I was dressed for dancing. I backed myself into the wall and grabbed Alex to stand right in front of me.
"Its kinda cold alright, you keep me warm", I said
"Hahahhahaha", he laughed. He also took off his Hoodie Jacket and made me wear it, "Thats actually my favorite jacket. It really works for me".
"Hey I like it. It covers my head just the way I like it", I smiled at him.
At the time, I was really oblivious about Van and Gi.
Then for some reason we ended up going to Denny's.
"What would you like to order?", the waiter said.
"Oh Im not ordering anything", Gi said.
"Im still full actually", Alex said.
"Uhmmmm", fuckin Van.
"Why did we come here if none of you are ordering anything??????", I said, "we cant stay here without ordering anything!"
I ended up getting soda. And after a few more chit chat we decided to just drive around.
At the car it crossed my mind. Maybe this is an opportunity.
"Hey Alex, do you take weed?", I asked
"A long long time ago. But its been almost 10 years since I have. I dont anymore", he replied
"Why dont we just go home and we can have some. I have some!", I said with a big smile
"Yeah why dont we just go home", Gi said looking really exhausted
"Hmmm that is tempting but I dont know. But alright what do you say Gi?", he asked.
"Yeah ok lets go. Theres probably nothing open at this time anymore anyway", Gi said.
"Not really, the club I go to is just there a few blocks away!", I thought to myself, "but Id rather be doing something with alex so screw that"
Then we just drove home.
As soon we got home, Gi and Van's place, I went to unpack and prepare the weed. Van and Gi just went to the bedroom to my surprise, coz Van would never let that pass - to get high.
"Come on alex, try some", I invited him as cute as I can
"I really dont know. Its been so long and it's very tempting but I dont know"
I got up and started pulling on him, "come onnnn its just today. it'll be fun ok. come onnnnnnnn", I just wouldnt let him go
"Ok ok fine", he gave up and sat next to me on the floor and had a puff
"Seeeee", and I just puffed and puffed
"This is smooth", he said
"Yeah it really makes a difference if you use it like this", I replied as my head started to spin, "hey are you feeling it???"
"No not yet, I dont feel anything", he said.
"Really wow", I laughed, "are you really doing it right???!!!! ughhhh!!!!!", I thought.
"Well just puff some more ehhhhhhhh hahahahahah", I offered and he obliged.
I got really high and I was rolling around on the floor. Alex was just similing.
I sat back up right next to him and started giggling and got really close. I looked at him and gave him a smile. And he smiled back and then he just kissed me which I returned full on.
Then I started to lie down and he went on top of me. He wont stop kissing me, just as how I wanted him to. And then he stopped right there and looked at me.
"Hey, is this alright??? Arent you..... arent you and Van........", he said confused
"hahahahahahhaa dont worry about it. Its alright", I raised my head a little for him to catch my lips
And he did. And he got rougher. He pinned my hands down with his, I couldnt move as kept kissing me all over. I felt his knee pressing between my legs. All I can do was moan in pleasure. My legs were jerking, hitting some boxes there. I think we can be heard from the bedroom.
"No really, I dont want to cause trouble and theyre my friends. I dont want to have an issue with Van", he said as he let go of me
"Its ok alright!", I said as I tried to be sexy trying to seduce him.
To which he went for, and he resumed.
"You protest, but you cant help it can you?", I thought fiendishly in my head.
And while we at it on the floor. I dont know who it was, but someone passed us by. I knew someone did, but I couldnt stop.
"Hey lets go to the bed eh, itll be more comfortable there", I pointed towards the sofa bed there on the living room.
He got up and followed me.
"hihihihihihi", I was so high still.
I took my top and bra off and smiled at him.
"Look, I... I dont know ok. Im really worried about Van", he protested
I smiled at him like a slut and grabbed his hear and pulled it towards my breast, "Just shut up already and suck my tits for fucks sake!", I thought.
And he did. His hand started touching me all over. Then I felt him caressing my thighs. Sadly, at that time, I just realized I couldnt do it due to 'reasons', what the fuck.
"Oh im sorry, this may sound like a lot of bullshit but I dont fuck on the first night I meet someone. This is ok since this is just light stuff. I hope its ok with you?", I told him praying he'd be ok with it.
"Its alright", and he just continued kissing me all over.
I was relieved, but it doesnt mean I cant have some of his. And so I started to reach for his pants and started to open it up. I slipped my hand into his underwear to feel his cock and I was just giggling when I pulled him out. He was so big, i remember my thumb and fingers couldnt meet as I held him.
"God damn youre huge! I dont know if I can take that in me hahahaha", I joked.
And I just couldnt help myself, I just started kissing it and licking it from the base to his tip.
"mmmmmmmmmmmm", I was trying to imagine it going inside me while partly being enraged that we couldnt do it that night.
Then I started sucking him real good.
"Hey, this is really getting sexual between us I... Im really just worried ok", he kept on babbling
I giggled and bit his cock on the side playfully as I used my tongue on it. Then I let go and hugged him and he embraced me back.
Then I pushed him away and started to jerk him off.
"hihihihihihihiihiiiiii", I just wanted to be playful and I just kept beating him off harder and harder then he grabbed my hand all of a sudden and he shot off cum all over my belly.
"aaaaahahahahahaaaaa", I smiled at him, "wow, I cant believe I made this guy cum like this", I thought to myself
Then he just laid down there. And I collapsed in his arms and we fell asleep.
When we woke up we hugged some more and kissed each other til Gi came out of the bedroom.
Alex immediately got up and started getting ready.
The rest of that day, we ended up going to the beach. I was just all over Alex, I was like almost constantly clinging to his arm in front of Van. Who really had no reaction at all.
Afterall, why should he, he has Gi. That would be ridiculous right?
Then Alex went back to San Diego.
I told Van about it, he said he was ok with it. He was just laughing and reassuring me its perfectly alright and he is mature and all that. And it all went by fine.
Weeks passed by. I got to talk to Gi and I just found out that that night, Van actually went out of the bedroom and he did see me and Alex. Gi told me that when Van went back to bed he just started crying. And he kept denying that he was crying that everything is fine. I couldnt confront Van about it though, seems he made Gi promise not to tell me. I was confused really, why he cried coz all that time he was the one pushing me to actually do these things and all of a sudden he would react like that? And why anyway, he has Gi doesnt he?
0
INTER
I'm kinda bummed out. Franco called asking me if we can just go out and watch a movie talking shit that he doesnt want to have sex for fun anymore and he wants to only do it with someone he loves. He's saying if he comes over he wont be able to say no.
I will admit I got really disappointed with that. But I somehow convinced him to just come over, coz its cheaper that way and I cant smoke weed outdoors coz of the vaporizer.
I should be glad that he might want more and not just sex but seriously, he is hot as hell alright but I barely hear from him. If he really wanted more he wouldve been more available. So screw that you know. Back it up with action not words.
I dont think Id like him as a boyfriend anyway. I actually did want something serious with him before, I tried to be there and all that but he wasnt meeting me halfway so screw that.
He wont be able to say no anyway once he's here.
If he wanted to be a friend after all this time, then why wont he act like a real one. If he wanted none why even bother coming over. You dont wanna be friends, you dont wanna fuck so what the hell then?
Its a very long day for me. People being so difficult and so full of just sheer bullshit. God!!!
I'm kinda bummed out. Franco called asking me if we can just go out and watch a movie talking shit that he doesnt want to have sex for fun anymore and he wants to only do it with someone he loves. He's saying if he comes over he wont be able to say no.
I will admit I got really disappointed with that. But I somehow convinced him to just come over, coz its cheaper that way and I cant smoke weed outdoors coz of the vaporizer.
I should be glad that he might want more and not just sex but seriously, he is hot as hell alright but I barely hear from him. If he really wanted more he wouldve been more available. So screw that you know. Back it up with action not words.
I dont think Id like him as a boyfriend anyway. I actually did want something serious with him before, I tried to be there and all that but he wasnt meeting me halfway so screw that.
He wont be able to say no anyway once he's here.
If he wanted to be a friend after all this time, then why wont he act like a real one. If he wanted none why even bother coming over. You dont wanna be friends, you dont wanna fuck so what the hell then?
Its a very long day for me. People being so difficult and so full of just sheer bullshit. God!!!
0
BEN
A part of me was praying Franco would cancel last night. He did, and I was relieved. A part was thinking, I wanna stop sleeping with people that I dont really give a shit about and doesnt really do anything for me anyway, he's not even a friend so fuck him.
I decided at the last minute to go a club instead, my favorite ever, the bunker. I was in a hurry and I felt weak so I decided to go for simple. Just super short frilly black skirt, black tights, black dance shoes, black tight shirt, I forgot to wear a bra which I later regretted and for the first time I wore a gray hoodie there, I didnt wanna get sick again from the cold.
The drive felt long, I was thinking of the people in my life. I think I wanna give more of my time to those that are there for me. Why waste caring on those who are just there anyway when they need something, I can just be there for them when I need something from them too then.
I got there a bit late from my usual. The place wasnt packed it was still early. I couldnt find anyone I knew so I just went for the dance floor top side as usual.
The first thing I noticed was this guy in the center dancing amazingly. I tried to just pass him by and walk further next to the gogo platforms and I can't help it I ended up standing there just staring at him.
"The hell, is this guy better than me???", and I decided to dance near him, warm up stuff just simple.
After that I took a break and ended up staring at him again. I think he noticed me, and I think I was smiling. And he smiled back and I felt it, his movement went slicker. He was topless and you can just see his amazing body. Ive never really seen his style on the dance floor before. It's like gogo dancing but industrial, Its just so smooth. I felt like I can just watch him for the entire day.
I thought I cant just stand there like a statue staring, that is too embarassing, "Time to show this guy I can dance too", I thought.
I just went industrial at first, slow and steady. Then I went a little electro. Then I thought of facing him and he's still just dancing there and I felt a little weird. Pleasurable just dancing there next to him. I felt motivated to move I felt happy just moving. And then the DJ played something really fast and I just danced really fast, like Viruxard's style only much faster. When I stopped, my mouth felt like sand paper and my heart was beating so fast I thought I was gonna have a heart attack. So I went for the bar right next to the floor and grabbed some water.
Drinking, I ended up watching him again. I just cant get my eyes off him, the way he dances it is so seductive. The way he moves his body his arms his legs everything is just soooo right. So smooth and its intoxicating.
I cant wait for it and I just went back to the dance floor and danced with a cup on my hand. Then I saw him walk out, to take a rest. He went for the dance platform and I thought, "Well, now or never eh. Come if you want, ignore if you dont". And I followed him and sat on the bench right next to the platform and just looked at him once to make eye contact and then looked away.
And I cant believe it, he moved closer and leaned towards me saying, "You dance great".
I leaned forward, "really, you dance really great too!"
It was hard to hear each other so I decided to climb up and sit right next to him.
"Im Ben"
"Im Yakui"
"Is it just you here or you with someone?", he asked
"No its just me. You with anyone?"
"No its just me too", he said.
"I usually have a few friends here but I havent seen any of them", I said.
"My friends are not into this thing, I try to take em but they dont like it. You come here often?", he asked
"I used to come a lot, like every week but I havent been here for so long. Life happened I guess"
"I used to come too, but I've only just started coming again a few weeks ago", he said, " So Yakui, what do you do? Aside from being here"
"You mean what I do like work?"
"Yeah"
"I'm a ****** Manager for my company, so I'm basically just stuck in an office all day long. Kinda far off from this place eh", I said, "And you? what else do you do aside from dancing?"
"I do parkour", he said
"Parkour?", I said in just sheer amazement and surprise," Ive never met anyone who can do that. That is wow thats really interesting!", I said
"We practice as a group and sometimes we try different things, sometimes there are breakdancers who come over to our place to practice", he said.
"I try different styles, I shuffle sometimes"
"Oh shuffling, how much do you know", he asked
"Oh just a bit, Im still new at it, but Im mainly into electro. What kinda music do you like? Aside from industrial"
"I love trance, I love dancing to trance"
"Ive never tried dancing to it before but I like it from time to time", I said, "You know what I really want to try is, hiphop music. I wanna learn how to really freestyle"
"I never got into hiphop, my dancing style just never went insync with it", he said
"Oh ok hahaha, and Im trying breakdancing too", I said
"I see a lot of them but I rarely see a girl do parkour or breakdancing. I'd love to see it sometime. Where are you from?", he asked
"Im from *******(somewhere in asia). Ive been here for a few years now"
"Oh really. I know a lot of people from there", he said
"And you?", I asked
"Im from Georgia. Its nothing like this place, its very southern. I moved in about 2 years ago"
"Lemme guess, its for a girl huh?", I said smiling
"Yeah, but it didnt work out and so now Los Angeles has become my new home"
"Its great here anyway, theres always something for everyone regardless of culture or just what you want to do", I said in a cheering tone
"Yeah, youre right it is. So Yakui, what's up with you. How's life going?"
I leaned on his shoulders a little.
"Alright the last biggest thing about me is I broke up with my boyfriend this Jan. And right now, I am just trying to see what comes. Just not expect anything anymore and just take what comes my way I guess", I said trying hard to not sounds so gloomy.
"That's what I do too", he said
And I just rested me head on his shoulders. And we just sat there for a bit.
"Hey, how come you dance so well! Do you give dance classes?", I suddenly said with a childish smile
"Hahahahahahha. Alright", he jumped off and positioned both his hands forward, "try to imagine energy in your hands like a ball, then just try to move it around just feel it. and allow your body to just follow that energy and let it guide you", he instructed as he started swinging them to his side then pulling the rest of his body towards it then making waves with his chest and midsection.
"Alright ok", I jumped off and tried to do it too, "hey you're right. i can feel it", I smiled in amazement, "what do you know, I learned something today!!!"
And he just danced there in front of me showing it and I started copying every move he made. And before you know it I was almost doing the same thing he's doing
"There you go girl"
Then he got closer to me and we started dancing a bit more seductively. We were so close to each other I can almost feel him. He moved his thigh between my legs and started grinding. And I just raised my arms and shaked my body. My head just wasnt working naymore. The music, the dancing, him, I felt like I was high and it felt so good. My body just kept moving on its own, it just felt so sexual.
(to be continued)
A part of me was praying Franco would cancel last night. He did, and I was relieved. A part was thinking, I wanna stop sleeping with people that I dont really give a shit about and doesnt really do anything for me anyway, he's not even a friend so fuck him.
I decided at the last minute to go a club instead, my favorite ever, the bunker. I was in a hurry and I felt weak so I decided to go for simple. Just super short frilly black skirt, black tights, black dance shoes, black tight shirt, I forgot to wear a bra which I later regretted and for the first time I wore a gray hoodie there, I didnt wanna get sick again from the cold.
The drive felt long, I was thinking of the people in my life. I think I wanna give more of my time to those that are there for me. Why waste caring on those who are just there anyway when they need something, I can just be there for them when I need something from them too then.
I got there a bit late from my usual. The place wasnt packed it was still early. I couldnt find anyone I knew so I just went for the dance floor top side as usual.
The first thing I noticed was this guy in the center dancing amazingly. I tried to just pass him by and walk further next to the gogo platforms and I can't help it I ended up standing there just staring at him.
"The hell, is this guy better than me???", and I decided to dance near him, warm up stuff just simple.
After that I took a break and ended up staring at him again. I think he noticed me, and I think I was smiling. And he smiled back and I felt it, his movement went slicker. He was topless and you can just see his amazing body. Ive never really seen his style on the dance floor before. It's like gogo dancing but industrial, Its just so smooth. I felt like I can just watch him for the entire day.
I thought I cant just stand there like a statue staring, that is too embarassing, "Time to show this guy I can dance too", I thought.
I just went industrial at first, slow and steady. Then I went a little electro. Then I thought of facing him and he's still just dancing there and I felt a little weird. Pleasurable just dancing there next to him. I felt motivated to move I felt happy just moving. And then the DJ played something really fast and I just danced really fast, like Viruxard's style only much faster. When I stopped, my mouth felt like sand paper and my heart was beating so fast I thought I was gonna have a heart attack. So I went for the bar right next to the floor and grabbed some water.
Drinking, I ended up watching him again. I just cant get my eyes off him, the way he dances it is so seductive. The way he moves his body his arms his legs everything is just soooo right. So smooth and its intoxicating.
I cant wait for it and I just went back to the dance floor and danced with a cup on my hand. Then I saw him walk out, to take a rest. He went for the dance platform and I thought, "Well, now or never eh. Come if you want, ignore if you dont". And I followed him and sat on the bench right next to the platform and just looked at him once to make eye contact and then looked away.
And I cant believe it, he moved closer and leaned towards me saying, "You dance great".
I leaned forward, "really, you dance really great too!"
It was hard to hear each other so I decided to climb up and sit right next to him.
"Im Ben"
"Im Yakui"
"Is it just you here or you with someone?", he asked
"No its just me. You with anyone?"
"No its just me too", he said.
"I usually have a few friends here but I havent seen any of them", I said.
"My friends are not into this thing, I try to take em but they dont like it. You come here often?", he asked
"I used to come a lot, like every week but I havent been here for so long. Life happened I guess"
"I used to come too, but I've only just started coming again a few weeks ago", he said, " So Yakui, what do you do? Aside from being here"
"You mean what I do like work?"
"Yeah"
"I'm a ****** Manager for my company, so I'm basically just stuck in an office all day long. Kinda far off from this place eh", I said, "And you? what else do you do aside from dancing?"
"I do parkour", he said
"Parkour?", I said in just sheer amazement and surprise," Ive never met anyone who can do that. That is wow thats really interesting!", I said
"We practice as a group and sometimes we try different things, sometimes there are breakdancers who come over to our place to practice", he said.
"I try different styles, I shuffle sometimes"
"Oh shuffling, how much do you know", he asked
"Oh just a bit, Im still new at it, but Im mainly into electro. What kinda music do you like? Aside from industrial"
"I love trance, I love dancing to trance"
"Ive never tried dancing to it before but I like it from time to time", I said, "You know what I really want to try is, hiphop music. I wanna learn how to really freestyle"
"I never got into hiphop, my dancing style just never went insync with it", he said
"Oh ok hahaha, and Im trying breakdancing too", I said
"I see a lot of them but I rarely see a girl do parkour or breakdancing. I'd love to see it sometime. Where are you from?", he asked
"Im from *******(somewhere in asia). Ive been here for a few years now"
"Oh really. I know a lot of people from there", he said
"And you?", I asked
"Im from Georgia. Its nothing like this place, its very southern. I moved in about 2 years ago"
"Lemme guess, its for a girl huh?", I said smiling
"Yeah, but it didnt work out and so now Los Angeles has become my new home"
"Its great here anyway, theres always something for everyone regardless of culture or just what you want to do", I said in a cheering tone
"Yeah, youre right it is. So Yakui, what's up with you. How's life going?"
I leaned on his shoulders a little.
"Alright the last biggest thing about me is I broke up with my boyfriend this Jan. And right now, I am just trying to see what comes. Just not expect anything anymore and just take what comes my way I guess", I said trying hard to not sounds so gloomy.
"That's what I do too", he said
And I just rested me head on his shoulders. And we just sat there for a bit.
"Hey, how come you dance so well! Do you give dance classes?", I suddenly said with a childish smile
"Hahahahahahha. Alright", he jumped off and positioned both his hands forward, "try to imagine energy in your hands like a ball, then just try to move it around just feel it. and allow your body to just follow that energy and let it guide you", he instructed as he started swinging them to his side then pulling the rest of his body towards it then making waves with his chest and midsection.
"Alright ok", I jumped off and tried to do it too, "hey you're right. i can feel it", I smiled in amazement, "what do you know, I learned something today!!!"
And he just danced there in front of me showing it and I started copying every move he made. And before you know it I was almost doing the same thing he's doing
"There you go girl"
Then he got closer to me and we started dancing a bit more seductively. We were so close to each other I can almost feel him. He moved his thigh between my legs and started grinding. And I just raised my arms and shaked my body. My head just wasnt working naymore. The music, the dancing, him, I felt like I was high and it felt so good. My body just kept moving on its own, it just felt so sexual.
(to be continued)