tickle myself using the feather quill to the point where I can't breathe. Keep going until I pass out into a bathtub filled with water drowning to death. That damn quill started it all.
Stretch the curtain over the window. Then smash the lamp (it looks like the gas lamp) over it to cause fire. Impale myself with the pen into my neck, and charge into the burning curtain, and hopefully break through the window as well.
reads the book, gets a paper cut, doesn't realize the book is called "how to poison books"......dies from dysentery because I didn't take care of myself due to the paranoia