super scrub wrote...
So lately I have been busy with tons of work and I could not get all my school work done. So I decided I would not go to that class since I think it's worse to show up to class without getting my work done.
Anyways my friend in that class called me up and asked me where I was and I told him I was sick with a stomach ache from eating bad food. In the background I could hear people laughing and that's when I realized they put me on speaker phone.
I honestly don't blame my friend because the teacher probably forced him to do it but if the teacher asked, "who has this guy's phone number?" and he said "I do!" I'd be pissed.
Now I look like a douchebag and I have lost all the urge to ever go to class again because I hate the idea of people laughing at me behind my back. I know it's my fault because I could not finish all my work because I work a part time job to pay for school but to me this was like a big a big middle finger in the face. I hate school and they are all assholes.
so I'm trying to decide if I should just quit school altogether. when I used to work as a security guard I was did not have to talk to people, I had no responsibilities, And I was making about 15 bucks an hour doing nothing. Sure I had no creative fufillment but it was a price to pay for the other luxuries. Now I'm in debt trying to get some crappy degree where I will eventually make a lot more than I would ever make at a security job but I will always have to work hard for the rest of my life and more than likely always feel like garbage.
I wish in my family people didn't hate on non-college jobs. I wish they realized I am a failure and they should never have forced me to go to college. It sucks that i realized I could easily work 8 to 10 hours a day, go home and play xbox, and then repeat that for the rest of my life with out a complaint. But now I have don't even have that option because I have student loans to pay off and now I have to go to school every day and have people criticize my work and treat me like garbage.
So yeah, it was a bad morning. I wish I did not answer my phone.
Any advice or some sort of encouraging words?
Things'll get better.
In this day ad age, college isn't a option for some. I could have stayed at home, been a daily fakkuer etc, but no, I go to college. I hate Art right ow (loved it until I started college, we only WRITE!) but I put up with it and 4 weeks into Art we have an exam coming up in 3 weeks!
I just ahve to stick with it. I have some hard subjects which I need to do homework for, and I don't always do my homework but I have to go. I need the education, I want a good job and without college degrees and such you won't get a very good job without them.
Do you WANT to work in McDonalds? Do you WANT to be slave driven by super store owners? I don't and manybe you don't.
Don't quit cos' you hate your collage, just try hard and stick with it. You'll have good and bad days. I've had my bad days where I just wanna run away but I stick with my regime and go to collage.
It's hard for everyone but we all have to go through this shit. There will always be someone laughing behind your back and you'll laugh at someone behind their back, it's how everyone rolls. (or something like that)
Quit complaining, life isn't always peaches and cream, it's got some shit stirred in there too. Take it like a man and suck it up, just go to collage!
And anyway if you think your life'll be set with working without a collage degree, you're wrong. You'll have regrets because we all do.
This comes from a collage girl who has a lot of rage >:(
Then again, it's your choice.