L's Poetry

The warmth flows like melted sugar...
The taste a bitter-sweet.
The vulgarity has become a horrific sensation-
a abomination hiding under a sheet.

My hand trembles at thy sight.
My heart has long-lost the fight.
Your favour, I have lost.
A chance, I have tossed.

Open minds, open hearts?
Pandoras box has been revealed.
The results were off the charts.
Now it cannot be resealed.

Life is full of lessons, full of emotion.
Treasure what you have, keep in motion.
Keep calm, don't raise a commotion.
Love, Hate, are ill-resulting potion.

Intoxicating anticipation...
heart full of intoxication...
mind clouded with constipation,
life becomes blurred.

Hope, graciousness, excitement-
it all falls upon thy sight.
Truth glows within thy beauty.
But beauty is only skin-deep.

Be the wolf and all thy sheep.
Mortal men, strong and weak-
all have and would weep.
Savage beast you are,
they darkness is very steep.

How foul you are-
thy monster of hope,
its only after you have preyed-
that the souls can begin to cope.

Hatred brews upon they wake,
reality then begins to take.
Monster, MONSTER YOU ARE!
I would rather be hit by a car!

Love destroys all it can save,
powerless- all are but a knave.
Hindered, potentials have been-
upon the actions that are your kin.

Lest ye be bled,
sympathy for you I shall not shed.
Upon your side I shared my bed,
but now I shall never wed.

Embraced a farse-light I did partake-
and now I see it was a big mistake.
The pain I have cannot be healed,
the sorrow I struggle to keep sealed.

Hark my words, nymph of hope-
upon my throne of hate and triumph- I am pope.
My vacant and unborn heart lies in ruin,
now exists a ungodly bruin.

Trust and love is all I had to give,
now the roaring fire within-
is all that allows me to live.

Life is but a flame,
it flickers and dies.
No-one is to blame.
We are all but flies.

Death is not the end,
but a beginning to anouther.
Horror-current does it send,
but to each is anouther brother.

Find peace within thyself,
and you will find salvation.
Peace is found within contentment.
To be unforgiving is eternal damnation.

Hope is for those who are weak,
for us all, strength we all seek.
Afraid we all are-
to be burned to a char.

Hell may hath no fury like a woman scorned,
but it heed no wrath like a man unadorned.
Selfish is every mortal,
our sins, we accumulate- opening a portale.

Pandoras box, a omnious gate,
a risk we all begin to hate.
Some begin to love, others forsake-
all stakes in- that is what it takes.

Love is a sin, that is true.
Above all others, it opens bright avenue.
Love is blind and love is true,
but love is but a brief revenue.

Learn to love and love to learn,
we yearn to love and lover to learn.
Life has twists and life has turns,
men have wives and expell spems.

In this rant I do well grate,
my hateful state I will so portait.
Nothing compares to the pain I have-
for though you may disagree-
forever I shall contemplate.

An agony I shall live.
Words I try to you all I will give.
To express the life of me I had.
As a young and foolish lad.

No drug, no brief, no substitute-
can give a suitable constitute.
My anger, my love, my once-before-glory,
is now historic, distingling an gory...

If you find these words despressing,
I assure you I wish nothing to be upsetting.
I express myself with words of value,
which pass with line I live- I do.

I am not you, I dont expect you to understand.
I don't expect you to comprehend.
My life is but a continuous misfortune.
And yet I've only lived a meager portion.

Yet still I feel an immense pain,
upon this heart I feel a deep stain.
The one I loved has given me a deep gash,
an irritation beyond the harshest rash.

I may befound by some of you a annoyance- an inherrance.
But I find myself im some pennance.
Ive done great wrong, a great ill deed.
Within my heart is sewn a black seed.

The hate that broods is a ill-given cycle,
for some, it is but a meager trifle.
For one as loving as I once was,
I am now a lost cause.

I was of great ambition, of great cause-
now each day I feel the logging saws.
Death I cannot wait, I cannot hesitate.
But I cannot succomb to the proletariat.

I live now in full prospect.
Devoid of desire and full of introspect.
I hate myself, that is true,
but I have begun to take the new avenue.

I am anew, a different persona-
I now sing a differnt hermona.
I do not cry in depth of pain,
I cry now in hate and in strain.

To take... what is there to gain?
All I have now, is what I can make.
A new path to be lane.
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if any of the words I speak make no sense,
with no worry, I hope you pay no Pence.
I am lost and I am free.
I am blind but I can see.
Ask upon the Lord o' Sesame....

Little piglet, run-run-run...
for though your life had just begun!
Your futile venture hath just started,
your first steps you quickly darted...

Devoid of hunger, devoid of fast,
soon will be going aghast.
The truth will hold you in deep terror,
like a deathtaker who holds the lever.

In deep sorrows, you will find-
a dark and beautiful treauremind.
Upon thy jewels you will see,
a part of me you will be.

Cold and hard, deep and cast-
time goes on- I will everlast.
For though you may catch me upon thy pick,
in your grasp I shall never stick.

I will blossom a jewel from above,
like a heavenly blistening dove.
Despite that, I shall give-
a cruel life only I can live.

Your sins shall show a reflecting sorrow,
only I can reflect a promising marrow.
I hope you see that I can give,
a life of promise that only I can live.

I am eternal, I am great.
I am the forever incarnate.
I live forever, here and then.
I was there and from the begin.

Time eludes me and will forever do so,
even if in your grasp, you reach a deep low.
In your grasp, I would go-
but never-forever would you be giving me such a deep blow.

In my mind,
you will find-
a ugly behind.

I am not pure,
I am insecure-
I am no treausure.

You see me now who I really am,
but I have yet became- "Sam I am" ;)
I hold myself true, I am the ending dam.
If you seek the end, here I am.

The truth lies with me alone,
for in thy light, my colors really shown.
In thy reflection, I saw myself,
in my presence- you were they trueself.

Glory, pain, greed and wrath-
no sin compares to my path.
I am the sin that whence it began-
now it has rung once agan.

Death is a poor release,
like a poor apartment lease.
It has few benefits- for those acceptant.
But I am not one to be redempt.
My dreams have already been drempt.

Life is my hell, it is my torture-
there is nowhere else but to go further.
For those who seek to cheat out of their misery,
you fail to graspy the true chivalry.

Continue marching on through the grounds-
only then will you find what yet to be found.
Take it from me who has faught endless battle-
someone who has slaughtered many like lifeless cattle.

I am wounded by the scars I bare-
with these words, the pain I hope to share.
"Death be not proud" is true and not greateful,
You will not find what you seek in something so uninsightful.

Live thy life in full glory,
continue on with your story.
I am here to atone my sins,
but you need not be one of my kin.

Forgiveness is a power few can ahold,
I can teach you how to uphold.
I cannot personally gain salvation,
but you can achieve continuation.

Answers-
Replies given after questions.
They can be given in multiple forms.
Only the bearer knows the truest intentions.

You ask me why I do this,
I tell you that I'm in an abyss...
You ask me why I let you go...
I tell you it's because of my own sorrow.

The love I felt,
was all too real-
for any words to have been misspelt.
Still, I hid how I truely did feel.

I let you go,
and now youre gone.
Now you've done well, moving along.

They say you dont know what you have till you lost it...
I've lost you many atime.
Each bitter than the last bit...
Our verbal exchange was a ugly rhyme.

How I wish, easily to pass the time.

Each time I let you go,
I grasped you back harder.
Each time I held onto you,
your feelings became farther.

My love for you grew each time I lost you,
that's 'cuz I was nothing without you.
Even when I was bold and strong,
without you, I could not move along.

I seek not redemption, nor pity.
I seek nothing now but flimpy serendipity.

I want nothing now, but you alone.
I know though- you face shall not be shown.

This bitter wine I do detest,
but accepting it- I'll do my best.

Love so deep,
hope so thin..
You were a good keep,
I had a sure win.

I wanted to reset,
and win again.

As my partner, my friend,
we defeated armies.
Sitting together,
that was true harmony.

It was wrong of me to hit the button,
without asking if you were ready.
Now you've left,
the screen is still and steady.

I would ask if you want to play again,
but now games-over..
I've lost all I've taken.

Cool breeze.
Heavenly light.
Wind's embrace,
loving and tight.

Light falls and shadows crawl,
while the wind begins to howl.
Pain and sorrow fill the air,
leaving all with life in a depth of despair.

Heaven's hope,
hell's despair.
A perfect, destructive pair.

In the depths of despare,
I do declare-
the darkness has begun to creep.

In this hell-
you would do well-
to never begin to weep.

Hold onto the light-
with all your might-
and continue on with the fight.

Dark and quiet temptation,
secret and taboo sensation,
forbidden and forsaken...
this is the choice I have taken.

In my solitude, I found then-
the inner strength beyond men.
Unholy and full of lies,
its brings horror to the wise.

Faith shiver at the touch,
of which is needed- not much.
I grasp and cling for this silk mane-
intoxicating and fullfilling this newfound bane..

I lost myself in this newfound treasure.
Now I am a being without any measure.
I evolved- or perhaps became undone-
by this terrific joy shared with none.

Forsaken I have made myself,
anouther fault is placed upon the shelf.
Regret is something I cannot feel,
for the pain I felt was all too real.

With this sin, I bewed-
and with you I shall take my bed.

My love, my sweet-
my little treat..
Our love was pure,
I was entranced by youre alure.

My hopes, my dreams,
were laid with you.
I gave it all,
to you- though n through.

I dreampt you and hope for more,
my feelings for you were from the core.

My drug, my elixir-
you were the alchemical mixer.

My nymphetamine..
My persephone...
I am sorry I was so mean...

My woes of losing you know no end.
My cries to the wind- I poorly send...
The seasons have changed,
and I have become derranged.
My strength has now been ranged.

I bested myself and lost the war-
into peices now, my heart is tore.
You were the door, I was the key..
now we will never be.
This bird shall never be free.

Life has no value without love,
it's like a caged dove.
Without sharing it's beauty- it's a grave.
The depression repeats like an oceanic wave.

You say it's over,
I can't die yet.
You were my truest lover.
On you, I put all I could on this bet.

The pain within me erodes,
coinciding with you- my brothed.
One day, too late,
now I'm in this state.

I am but soil for others to flourish-
caring for others in passive nourish.
I share my feelings not with you alone-
but the truth nonetheless I have shown.

My creed I have held with due speed-
with such I continue to impede.
The pain within continues to feed.
It continues to grow- the darkening seed.

I hope for nothing, pray for not-
for you were all I got.
I was a fool to throw you away,
now I live day by day.

Hasten my binds to this life I do so emotionlessly,
with no care I share with myself no empathy.
I find myself in a dark spiteful pit-
full of sins and full of shit.

I cry for repair-
but will get no care.

With these prose, my sorrow I shall share.

My pain, eternally I shall bare.

As my soul turns to coal-
I find death a distant reflection.
My love for you a consistant infection-
all manner of illusion but a immature deflection.

I seek resilence of this pain I feel,
but retribution I cannot steal.
I prayed for forigveness, all in vain,
my love for you- upon my sleeve is a stain.

I worshiped you, a bitter retribution-
since then I've developed a solid constitution.
I am but a golem that thrives at night,
whose true identity scares all at sight.

I am he who dwells within,
I am he whose strengh is thin.
For though you may hate me so,
my faith in your salvation, exists although.

My anger feeds my hate,
my agony is beyond any rate.
I feel a torment beyond all that is known,
I showed you myself- of me me all to you is beknown.

You are my infinite affliction,
you are my definite definition.
Without you I am incomplete,
now I am but a an empty seat.

Powerful but powerless I am a throne,
sins I am full, but cannot atone.
Of bloody showers my life is full,
of redmenption, my life is null.

Horrendous my life is of,
for I am but a wingless dove.
Spare me of this life I live,
for of me all to you I did give.

You were my light and my eternal salvation,
now I live in eternal damnation.
I live now in darkness and solitude,
of dark thoughts and feelings, I am now institude.

I wear thy mark upon they sleeve,
never shall my heart take leave.
My hurt bears now anger for you,
but eternal sorrow you will never knew.

I cast myself into eternal oblivion,
ths mysts of which portray a dark abomination.
Of fears and scares we did share,
now a life I feared- I live ascare.

Deeply scarred am I adorned,
with thy mocking crown I am thorned.
I care not for anything now,
for I am but a meeping sow.

You hate me for what I did,
but out of fear- my biddings I did myself bid.
I worry those amongst me, I scare many alone-
with my feelings I keenly hone.

Your feelings for me long since gone,
I blame you not, for I did great wrong.
I am shattered, a diamond beneath infinite dust,
I am now but a heap of rust.

Waiting for time's gust.

Damnation awaits me, I can see-
just like your afternoon tea.
I sit, I wait- until you awake.
I wake, stirr- your heart I'll never again take.

You may have my love forever-more,
but of you I shall never have the core.
Forever shall I be sore.
Never shall I be more.
The stories now, are of lore.
Surely now, I am but a bore.
My future, a nevermore.
My heart, forever tore.
My heart, forever wore.
Gone, my heart's courageous roar.
Of you, images bleed from each pore.
Sight of me is of gore.
Forever, I year for more.
Within me, you are still the core.
I shall forever be sore.
I am the abandoned whore.

Why wait?
For heaven's gate?
When hell offers infinte hate?
When presented in such a state?

Why wonder what will happen?
When love will never rappen?
The heart is of every core-
living without it is only a chore.

Angst and meager are reaccur,
the devils strength is the only reassure.
Never again will there be an amour.
Never again would one be sure.

A tormented soul will live by sythe-
amongst the net I now dive.
Only here do I now thrive.
Of you only I am now deprive.

Attone, ammend, condenscend..
none of these are pleasant-sent.
Quickly given, faster went.
Harder gone, deeper dent.

A harsher wound, a deeper sound,
weaker does my heart give a round...
Rivalry and irrate began an irrate-
now I am full of hate.

I am but a golem, hard and cold.
Thoughless and devoid of sound.
You may care less, but hear me out-
despite the vactant, speechless shout-

I love you till the end of days,
of which are infinite ways.
Of your beauty there are erradic rays-
in the grave, my heart now stays.

Hate me sure, annoyance I may be-
you will always call me an immature baby...
I gave you everthing and then some more-
and I mistreated you like some two-bit whore.

I fucked myself over time and time again,
now the end has just began.

I lost all that matters to me most,
now my heart is without a host.

I wish for you full and complete,
but next to me you will never again seat.

My pain throws and tosses with great danger,
like a violent clown inside a manger.

I will live forever in deep great sorrow,
with a dark affliction will beget tomarrow.

You were my light,
you were my star.
Of you, full was my sight.
Oh how your beauty shown so bright!

I did you wrong,
and wrote a painful song-
And yet you move along.
Stabbed my heart is by a thy prong.

Though I can never claim you as mine,
onward and forever do you shine.
I lost you in the wrongest of ways.
I'll always miss your bright and heavenly rays.

Amongst the darkness you did stand,
desired amongst all man.
I held you within my hand-
now without you- I am only sand.

Consumed by pain and emptiness,
I continue to gaze into the abyss.
I pray for your light to look my way,
but never will it come that impossible day.

When it comes to it, I was poor-
devoid of you within my core.
I had it all and threw it all away,
Forever now, the darkness shall stay.

I will never again feel your enriching ray.

my heart is full of sorrow-
it spills into tomarrow.
In my heart vacancy fills-
I am now completely hallow.

Your light for me had shown so bright.
My grasp on you was once so tight.
My wrongs to you, I had no right.

I am lost now, amist the space-
time now no longer cares to race.
In my mouth, those were left a bitter taste.
Time went by then in frantic haste.

I fucked up and did great wrong,
the army I fight now- the omnious deep throng.
This enemy in my presence, it justly does belong.

I feel lost and incomplete-
on our happiness I did selfishly cheat.
We were happy and ruled the world-
now the still-dreams have been swirled.

Into the depths of despair I have been hurled.

I chanced it all on your strength,
of which to you I did neglect.
Awefully, painfully, each day I retrospect.
Death looks into me with continuous, godly inspect.

My life now is only a joke,
this fate of mine I did provoke.
Upon your name now I bein to choke..
tears of bloody sorrow thus bein to invoke...