L's Poetry

I seems like every day I'm left to discover myself,
and I'm on my own.
Of my heart there is nothing left-
oh how your beauty has grown!

I feel a dream in me expire,
I only have myself to blame.
Forever I will feel deep shame-
with your feelings, I played a cruel game.

In my own hell, I now live!
In my hall, I now walk alone!
In my cell, I now am now throne!
Nothing more, have I to give!

My heart burns, it aches, it dies for you!
If only you knew!
I hate myself for that hour of you I did shew!
A ugly picture- my picture I did drew...

It seems like everything is gray,
space depraved of light- love...
I am no symbol of hope- pure dove...
I am a rabid dog gone astray.

It erodes, it corrodes-
now am I amongst the sideshowes...

I am aware of my fuck up face,
my life has no grace-
I am no longer...
I have no hunger..

You were completing me, succeeding me-
now I am ultimately finished.
You wanted me gone-
now I'm diminished!

I am no more-
I am a eyesore-
-blackened to the core...

Fuck me hard- so I may feel...
Shitfaced I lay alone...
No retribution can atone...
This life is can no longer be real...

It feels like hell incarnate, is that impossible?
I feel unstoppable...
-however improbable.

You quake my dreams,
tear my peace at the seams-
at death's hand my fate now deems...
My spin is pulled at the reams...

Nothing was what it seemed...

How soon will I fade away?
Only time will tell-
long ago without you I did fell..
How I continue to dread that day...

I am aware now,
how everythings gone to hell-
I am prepare now,
how everythings rung a bell...

I fucked up my life, that I know well-
that anyone can tell.
Since then, I havent done any well...
now I'm a harmless phantasmic grell...

Each day I find myself sigh again..
each morning is a longing pointless "began"...
I must assure you-
I never will get away...
in my heart you shall forever stay.

I cry out to the skies,
your name from the depths of hell!
from these cries,
I dig no better a well...

My words mean nothing, hold no meaning-
everything I do is utterly demeaning...
No amount of passtionate singing-
No amount of acousting ringing-
can dull my heart's stinging...

I blame it on myself-
for I am in dieing health,
without you, I am in hell-
without me, you are swell!

I must assure you,
I will never be scared again-
I am now on the wagan-
from once this turmoil once began...

I hold myself no higher-
no less than before-
I am prepared for hell,
for I have already begun to fell-
into the handmade cell.

Death now rings its glory bell.

Damnation is an eternal abyss-
of which pain I do dismiss.
Of your distraught upon my heart, therefor insist..
that love is the truest death's kiss.

Why save my soul if it shall be torutred?
Why bother when I'll just be vultured?
I find myself in a small ball-
pathetic and small...

You ask me why I'm so weak-
but with you I was at my peak.
Oh how I miss thy rosey cheek...
In vain, happiness I did seek...

When did I discover a curesd treasure?
A virtue of cursed measure?
I gave you my heart and you tor it to shreads,
now the gold has turn to various leads...

Nothings prospers, nothing phases,
numerous are my vacant gazes...

Empty blackness I see nee in full,
and see now how life can be so cruel...

Emptiness, darkness-
it dwells within me.
Deadened flare, infinite despair-
lost forever, a happiness that will never be.

Quiet doom,
death's rose starts to bloom.
I was to be your groom.
Now I'm just dust from a broom.

In the depths of my burrow,
I find myself in dark tomarrow.
In heaven I find myself not-
in deep tides I am now caught.

Sanctuary is far from grasp-
now around myself- in hell I begin to wrap.

Weightlessly and endlessly distatute,
I find myself imprisioned in the darkest institute.
I find now worries and now chimes-
of any further hurries or any primes.

I am but a golem, clay and solid.
Of a heart- I am devoid and ridden.
Into hell I am bidden.
Now my past I keep hidden.

I keep the truth far and clear,
but yoru voice- i hear ever-clear.
It rings a heavenly bell-
but my heart still drags me straight to hell...

In my lonesomeness I find myself alone...
deprived of you- my otherhalfclone....
I forsake thy wishes and claimed my fears...
now all I am is a corpse but tears.

Every day I beat with fear,
but never again will I think clear.
I hurt like a torturous ruin,
I am always being eaten by a titan bruin.

My pain begets no restrains.
My heart still gets no sustenaince...

You still drive me from the depths below,
but I know you wont forgive this pathetic fellow.

I live day by day-
but I pray for my life to go away...
Maybe luck- my way it will sway...

Towards you though, I regrettedly did betray...

in the depths of my despair-
of my life I no longer care.
tragedy hath struck me deep and hard-
now nothings left of my heart-
not a shard.

hope is dead and vanished
from your presence i have been banished.

a coil wraps around my chest-
never wading- never arest.

i am hollow now, devoid of fear-
for my damnation, my hell- is already here.

A wilted rose-
A defiled grave-
embodiments of now rests.

Even though I'm only shit,
I'm still here taking your hit.

Pathetically, but still-
I'm still standing.

The erosion that fill within me-
an agony I've never yet suffered.
A torture beyond all infliction-
is your spiteful digust.

One I was warm, holding your image-
now I can only find pummeling concentration.
Thoughts of you tear me apart,
because I've loved you from the start.

In my bed I lay restless...
While you lay dormant and content.
Vapours of dreams cloud my vision
cutting deep like surgical incision.

Each day I wish my life to go away-
but my hell is here to stay.
Absinthe would be a pleasant release-
I would drink without having to cease.

The wounds on my arms do me no good-
now reminding me of how low I've sunken.
I tested fate and now time's come-
for death to come and take me.

I've thought it through and I've thought it hard-
about how I've been such a retard.
With these words I am gone-
now you can move along.

Pulling the trigger I'll go away,
and light your beautiful new sunney day.

like dust in the wind i flutter-
of value i am even less.
i am vacant inside other than the pain-
that exists around a heart that is no more.

slowly i rot away-
day by day...
alone in my dismay.

blood cold and deathly still-
memories once warm now chill.

here i lie here i die-
these are my last words with one final sigh...

lol bye