Sushimi Writes ♥

It's sad for me to hear
I'm screaming silently and I'm pierced
Wondering all along what I must hear
I've found so many places which I belong
But here I am just like a dead cold stone
Everyone wishes to feel love
Some are aiming high like a dove
Don't they know love made me numb?
Needless to say I've had enough
So now am gonna' share then laugh
love was so good to me
Better than what anyone has done for me
But this is how love now goes to me
Love was good, love was great
Love was the best thing that God can create
Love was rare, love was once fair
Love was everywhere like an air
Love was unfathomable, love was controllable
Love was something I needed to hold
Love made me happy, love made me agree
Love once blinded me for some degree
Love embraced me, love made me pretty
Love made me carry all of me
But love confessed yesterday to me
Love became honest to me
And for the last time
Love became so nice to me
Love started to explain
I started to feel the migraine
Love said, "Calm down"
I said, "Your aims keep me down"
'Cause you're unfair
Your twin sister is the word despair
You make humans compare
And you leave all of a sudden 'cause you don't care
You are a food
A food for the weak and the good
Why do you like making all the people to conclude?
You never let the things fall as they should
You're convincing people
That a happy ending is possible
And you're still persisting to shoot them all
Funny how they can be deceived
Knowing ahead of them, they'll just grieve
Don't they have something else to believe?
I know I sound bitter
But through this people may comprehend love better
Like they'll see how their lives can be the biggest disaster
'Cause they thought that love must grow fonder
Love nodded and held me
Love couldn't look at me
Love whispered to me, "Maya, Can you still feel me?"
I cried when love asked me
I couldn't convince myself to agree
Love said he was sorry
I queried love, "Should I forgive thee?"
Love answered, "If you do, will you still say I'm tricky?"
Then I smiled with tears on my face
I can't believe love's admitting what love is in this case
Love said I'm the kind of a lady that love's like to chase
But I'm the type of a person who always wins the race
So then I understood
That love and I can never be good
Love told me, "I hate you Maya 'cause for you I'm just a food"
But love doesn't know
That without food I won't grow
And the reason why I hate love 'cause,
Love made me hurt wherever I go.

No one taught me how to write
My mother said I'm naturally bright
When I was a kid
I've already had my own insight
The pen and pad have always been my might
Whenever I'm frightened
I jot all the frights down
That's the only time I start to calm down
When days leave me a frown
My entertainment is not a clown
'Cause my writings which can be crowned
Keeps me sane by anyhow
I write what my mind speaks
I write until my heart bleeds
And in the end even if I still feel a stitch
I will never have my talent in writing
With someone be switched
'Cause writing keeps me awake
In writing I cannot be fake
In writing I can share what I can create
In writing everything I can make
If there's something I can live without
Aside from sushi, kimchi, and rice
It's me writing with all of me in and out.

How can I make a poem?
When my words are not to be shown
Do you know the feeling when your mind has flown?
How can I express verbs?
Which made me feel superb
When right now my words are totally absurd
How can I describe?
These adjectives I can't find
When I hardly leave those things behind
How can I say?
The words I've never wanted to go astray
When even affection I can't display
How can I flaunt what I feel?
When I'm scared of finding what is real
I'll just stick to what is unreal
How can I know if someone's in delusion?
When the circumstances play with the situation
Apparently, everything has expiration
How can I end if there's no start?
How can I play with my broken heart?
How can I breathe?
How can I begin?
How can I take back that kind of grin?
How can I stay?
When I want to walk away
How much I deserve each lovely day?
How much time do I have?
How many surprises must I grab?
How many more hearts should I stab?
How will I take the scenes?
Which only In my dreams they can be seen
I know hurting myself is a serious sin
How will I be able to handle?
This crazy but blissful battle
When all along I've always struggled
How will I end this poem?
When I haven't even expressed its bone
I know these words I won't be able to own

I don't know what to write
But my insides refuse to hide
I feel a certain fright
But I control it and make it bright
Where must I go?
It's a question I already know
And I want is to keep it in stow
'Cause I feel tired enough to sow
Should I Believe?
Should I believe in predestined?
When I even seldom believe in doctrine
I'm happy that I am clandestine
Though 'cause of this my head's boggling
A few minutes later I'm again working
In four hours I'll be sane and fake-smiling
Every day I am wonderin'
But in time I'll find out what really is happening

I finally understood
How things might go rude
But the tickles inside me
Seem getting glued
I became fragile
Breakable and bewildered
I sometimes want to play rewind
But my wishes were quite declined
All of a sudden the doubts subside
Hey, Do I sound expired?
When I mask myself and hide
It's like my common sense died
When that thing has been fired
I forgot to bring the shields I was required
What are they I won't say
'Cause It can put anyone to dismay
Real closer to a broken tray
Though life can be so gray
I won't let mine go astray
For that's how I want to stay
I hope you get everything I say

Too much is enough
I'm not anymore being tough
I feel like drinking drought
Whenever I imagine the doubt
My dream about falling to that well
It seems like it really is gonna' swell
My clumsiness made me fell
Come on, my heart is firing in hell
But right down in hell I melt
So last night I tried to knelt
I can't fathom what I felt
Feels like I'm on the edge
And my stupid mind is drenched
All I say are in French
When I think about it
I wanna' have some stretch
Gloomy and alone sitting on a bench
It's my sweet escape
I can say everything straight
I can do even whatever it takes
But I'm scared to get replaced
I always want to be chased
But from the very start
Everything has not to leave with trace.

How I wish I could get you out of your delusion
'Cause you're also blinded by the situation
I'm good at giving no hesitation
But babe please give me no frustration
I'm trying my best to cope up
But you say you want to give up
Don't push me to stop
'Cause never will I give up
You told me I treat you like a mop
Don't you know that you're my frap?
I wish upon a star
I wish you weren't so far
I wish I could hold you from afar
I miss you wormy
Your frown when you're fussy
Your hug when you're horny
Your eyes when you get tipsy
Can't it really be just you and me?

:(

A deceitful cleverness,the word says
But this guile seems to be a crest
Surely, no one understands what I manifest
But I'll keep it myself and let everyone guess
I'm smiling while typing
It's all because out of nothing
Can anyone possibly believe

Je manque vous ma belle boo!
I wanna' know how are you?
Quite a few months, I haven't seen you
Just this morning I wanted to kiss you
There are times I feel like being alone
And I wanna' talk to you over the phone
You're my haven, My escape
You are always in my dreamscape
With you I no longer need to meditate
'Cause with you I'll always be "The Great" :D
Though at certain times I can be a pain in the ass
You'd just laugh at me like it'll never last
As I look back at the things that have happened in the past
I wonder why our high school lives together played very fast
Whenever I wonder, I sore 'cause It's almost over
But then hello? I tell myself, "I have to be sober"
Thanks for everything! For bearing with my fishy things
Not all the people can comprehend my mood swings
But there you are
Extending your both arms to reach me even I'm far
Trying to hear my stories of love bizarre
I know for sure you miss me
I hate how we can't see each other badly
One day I'll get back to you
I will knock on your door and surprise you
I will irritate everyone and tell everything I've been through
But I promise not to bring bottles of Soju
Oh how I miss y'all
Especially when I dance and crawl
Wait for me to get back
And don't forget girls,I love y'all!

I can see you're hurt
And all I can do is nothing but to lurk
I tell you a thousand times
That I'm not getting involved to any dirt
But you're still paranoid 'bout my ability to flirt
I can't blame you if your instincts are absurd
It's just that, you never want me to be a free bird
Even though I can live the way I want to live
It doesn't mean it includes making you grieve
With you I've got loads of dreams to achieve
Can you tell me when are you gonna' believe?
Whenever you're hurt I'm always there
I won't let you stay in despair
Whatever it takes, I don't care
I want you to feel how much I care
Let me hold you tight
I even don't want you to have a mosquito bite
And I'll always be entitled to treat you right
Though my brain doesn't have gigabyte
I'll remember now and then
How you love me and give me might
I treat you like my baby
When I touch you, you feel it unearthly true
When you're feeling sensitive
I'm here to pamper you
Many times I shouted at you
I noticed It made you blue
I can still remember when I first slapped you
Since then I never did again
Thank you for loving me all over again
You know how our love can be so true
But sometimes it can also be dangerous like you
You're fragile, sensitive and beguiled
But you're the only one I desire
Even if your jealousy bugs me a lot
I'm still here holding on to you on the spot
No matter what happens, how far I can be
We will hold on to each other and it'll always be
I'll hold your both hands as we struggle
As we hold hand in hand we won't be puzzled
I love you, don't be so blue
'Cause two months more left, I can again hug you
I miss you!

Butterflies! Not in my stomach but in my eyes
How I try this feeling to be disguised
Everything has been fantastically nice
But I refuse to be happy before it reaches thrice
I see nothing wrong one time or two
Yet I will never end up being glued
'Cause clinging for so long
Is one of the things I don't belong
For me it's like occasionally wearing a thong
Life won't suffice that everything would be nice
That's what I learned in Spice
Every day comes in a surprise
But you'll never learn what it is comprised
So Better be ready, better be wise
Your heart and soul can be as cold as ice
The feeling doesn't seem so bad
It somehow close to the best things I've had
Many times I feel my hands are magic wands
From time to time I get the grand chance.

Every Morning I'm in a good mood
Smelling the scent of great foods
Smiling at people I never should
My eyes are shining like Hollywood
Sensible talkings, funny things
Each day I learn numerous things
I'll be missing this stand when I leave
As much as I'll miss the stupidity and the grief
My charisma became stronger
And this stand made me a lot wiser
My fluency for some it's such a bother
but honestly, this stand I'll be missing forever

Have you ever tried asking?
Why do you keep on blabbing?
Maybe 'cause your life isn't interesting
It's pathetic to see thee
How you create stories like you're in elementary
Can't you see you appear to be really funny?
Why are you so nosy?
Prying into others' lives freely
Come and take my queries hypothetically
What will you get from creating tales in your head?
Does that require a maximum amount of sweat?
But It seems you're enjoying
Talking, blabbing and mocking
I guess back stabbing is your thing
Well as for me this is nothing
Just wanted to make an article
'Cause I'm enjoying
In writing your case
There are lots of things to be traced
Somehow I know when you read this
For quite some time, you'd be amazed
'Cause no one deserves your fake smile
And people like you deserve to die
Whenever you gossip
You become dangerously high
You turn into being an unpaid spy
Watching at things and make them fire
Do you know how do I take your style?
I've been dealing with it most of the time
That's why you better practice how to blab this time
There are issues that you will never understand
And you just want to exaggerate them offhand
Taletellers like you are entitled to have fun
Live your life like you own the sun
You're making me more famous
And I never want to think you're jealous
But I can't help it 'cause I'm mischievous
One way or another I'll strike you
Whatever you'd do, I'll just say "Boo!"
'Cause your jealousy is my energy
Just tell me if you want a piece of me
And I'd give the attention you crave, sweetly.

This morning I had a hot green tea
Hoping at work I won't be late
I've been thinking of having Sashimi
And later, I'll grab a piece of cake
As I walk by myself I pray
To think that the Gods have always been leading my way
I'm happy 'cause all of the things fall into place
And I'm like a fast car winning a race
I can overcome every single disgrace
And no one can rub it off my face
I know at times when I get displaced
Someone will always be there to take place
'Cause I'm loved and I'm being embraced
I've been exploring a wonderful and happy pace
This path that I've been taking can never be erased
And the euphoric feeling can never be replaced.

You've been knowing a lot
From the things that you never got
Isn't it the reason why you never halt?
Sometimes people are not what they seem
When they try to give you gleam
'Cause they know if they don't,
You'd never control your fear
For you know your weakness
And you cover it up with your fake calmness
Just as much as you flaunt
Your attention deficit fest
You grow up backwards
And you think fantasies are up the stars
You're like a cancer
Your mind works like a SARS
No one's against you
As a matter of fact, they care for you
'Cause they mean not to make you blue
So they'd just bear it
To make you look more like a glue
You always want to stick yourself to something
'Cause maybe you don't have anything to cling
What's wrong with someone?
This will never be meant for anyone
But surely, this is gonna' be fun!

I lie awake tonight
Pulling my own hair so I could sleep tight
My thoughts of you, I can't set aside
I'm hallucinating,dreaming,imagining
I miss everything
The scent of your hair with bliss
Your lips and how they kiss
Your nose which sniffs my neck
And from there it goes down
I'm gonna' be out of the track
My shoulders, they freeze
When you smell them and kiss
I can picture your chest
Which I badly miss
Your smooch that's so fine
Your body when you grind
Your fondle when it strikes
I want you to turn off the lights
When you're on the top
You're such a hottie
When you roll me to the top
I feel very naughty
I can see in your eyes
That you're crazily happy
Especially when you sleep with me
You're hugging me so tight
As you tuck me to sleep with a dim light
As you stare at me
I want to kiss you more 'til midnight
The next thing you'd do
Is to kiss my forehead too
And kiss me all over
Telling me you don't feel blue
The whisper in my ear
As you say "I love you"
Makes me want to go back
Only just to be with you.

Where are you?
Why can't I find you?
I'm standing inside
And playing 'Seek then Hide'
I want to move the wall
So when it moves, It's you I'll find
I'm busy enough but I still move my eye
You become the target just like the bull's eye
A few minutes more and you're out of my sight
I haven't seen you in a while
I never noticed, you bid goodbye.

Tall! When you see him, you'll crawl
His fair-skinned body
Can be chased even by a fawn
He'd make you very timid
And if you're not tough enough
He may see you as stupid
For he knows how to play with cupid
And his grasp around you is very elusive
If you dare to look in his eyes
Not ever you'd know what they comprise
'Cause those eyes are insidious
And with one shot, you'd be oblivious
For some he seems dangerous
'Cause vampires are notorious
Though some typical girls
When they see him, It makes their hair curly
So the other stereotype men see him as surly
They thought that this vampire is cold-hearted
Brusque, harsh and unwanted
For they know nothing about vampires
Aside from they melt in the sunlight
But behind him I can hide
There's no reason for you to be frightened
'Cause he talks a lot better than your nonsense
He can be a companion, A great friend
A vampire is not hard to understand
'Cause in his prehistoric times
He's bright and shining
The unexpected opposite
Of what you're thinking
He's being fed
By taking the life essence of humans
Yet he can also bring life to his friends
He can be fun and he can protect
Hence, he can be very funny like Shrek
Who throws jokes then crack
He shows up always at your back
With a vampire friend you can always depend
And please don't get me wrong
I'm NOT a 'Twilight' fan
I made this vampire stance
For you not to understand
I just want to make the vampire happy
When I glance.

Someone greeted me this morning
She said, "You look wonderful darling"
As I heard it, I gave the world a very big grin
'Cause today is another day
And no one would dare to block my way
The version of my happiness within me
Will continuously upgrade
If I am to compare my life with anybody
I will never trade
Because mine's more than great
And my giggles make me faint
It's not my fault if I'm lovin' my fate
I really don't care how you do rate
For I already know
That you can't fathom my faith
And only a few can only handle my state.

Today is such a happy day
Just like how you treated me yesterday
Even the sky is turning gray
My vibes is still more than okay
Why do I feel this way?
Because there are countless of people
Who love me every day
My parents who call me princess
And the others who tell me that I'm the best
The fact that some remind me that I'm strong
Whenever I'm being put to test
They make me kick away all the distress
Thanks to them who warn me
That I'm smart and fresh
And that I can beat anyone
And boot them out even when I'm in a dress.

My hand phone's alarm awoke me
As I turned left
I almost broke the laptop beside me
It showed me your picture on my wall
And as I dragged myself up from the bed
And crawl
I wish you could see my hair
Which looked like a troll
I threw my body out of the bed
And for a while, I stood inside the closet
My breakfast I prepared without sweat
While taking a warm bath
I couldn't get you off my head
In silence I prayed
And I thanked the Gods 'cause you stayed
I spelled your name in my mind
While I waited for the bus which I couldn't find
I put on my earphones and sang
They looked at me, I didn't mind
For I was feeling blissful and kind
As I walked down away from the bus
I felt a certain clingy fuss
I always know that It's you
Whom I can trust
I wished the days pass really fast
So I could feel again your sweet thrusts.
*sigh*

Soon-Yi, my dear cousin
You've always been my darlin'
I've never thought you've grown
With such an adorable perspective
That no one has ever shown
I know sometimes life is such a bore
But the best thing to do is to ignore
Difficulties you can never expect
In family, in friends, in love, in life
You must detect
For you I'm here to protect
But even there are times I cannot object
I want you to learn how not to fret
I want to share to you how beautiful life is
But in this case, life alone will take you
through this
Do not bother when sadness attacks
I know you can bear those craps
'Cause I know my bloodstream
Is almost exactly the same as yours
But be warned
That you have to be extra careful, of course
Enjoy your days, let go and explore
Not all the time everybody's there when you sore
You have to stand on your own
'Cause you're not a baby anymore
Never forget that God is always there to guide
Just like me who's always willing to listen
When you confide
Love yourself and be clever at all times
And when we see each other again
I will make you smile, big time!
I miss you.

So freakin' awake at midnight
I can feel a certain flight
This feeling seems not right
And will just lead to a fight
Bu fancy speaking
I see a huge blight
I did a few boggling
'Cause i don't practice mind reading
Though it sounds reassuring
Surely, I know they don't mean a thing
For I enjoy so much conversing
And my mouth is like a machine who's talking
I almost forget the essence of sleeping
I'm being honest only to one person
But that person always sends me questions
Now, my head's like Jimmy Neutron's
Who at times can demonstrate delusion
Can anyone state a good opinion?
Where I can bring up a straight solution
That will strengthen my intuition
Yet it sounds like this is just hallucination
Which deals with so much transparent illusion
Tell me this is just a sweet lie
And I just need someone,so I could confide
Please don't be such a blind
'Cause I like seeing a person
Who's swallowing a pride
What time is it?
I hope you don't mind
I need to doze off, right?
So go ahead and sleep tight.

I've never asked you to wait for me
If you can no longer wait
I understand carefully
I love you and It'll always be
But If you'd ask for your freedom
I can give it to you, shortly
As I wander life and enjoy to be exposed
I take a deep breath and try to be composed
This road that I chose
And the fact that the old me
Has now become a ghost
The person behind me needs to be diagnosed
He awaits, I know
But what must I show?
When all he sees
Is that I have my own show
It seems that he's fed up waiting
And all I can do is nothing
Now all that we do is 'self-supporting'
I've never asked you to wait since day one
And I've always wanted you to have fun
If you'd stop waiting for me
I can't be very choosy
But I'd always give you freedom
With no hesitation, really
For I know these changes
Would help us tremendously
And all will be resulted in a victorious fantasy
In this situation, It's very risky
But I will be thankful
If we can sail together subtly.

As I sat alone on the shore
I felt missing you more
Then my heart felt stabbed and gored
I watched the sunset
For me not to get upset
But as I looked at the sky
I pictured your smile
And suddenly
I stayed silent for a while
I didn't want to be beguiled
'Cause this heaviness
My heart bears
When we see again each other
Nothing compares
The waft of the waves and air
Embraced me in despair
I wish this sickness
I could repair
I bit my lower lip
And thought of your kiss
Very deep
If only you could kiss me
I could peacefully sleep
Your voice keeps haunting me
I want your arms around me
Your whisper to me which makes me weak
Your face when frowning like a freak
All of these popped on my head
So I stood, went home
Went straight to bed
I hugged your shirt
And smelled your scent
Your smell is like a heaven sent
Now, I'm even more nostalgic
Even the days pass by very quick
But as I count the days
The time gets even longer
Oh babe, I hate missing you
Like forever.

When I was a kid
I've always wanted to be freed
I've never called for help as i bleed
For I've known how to handle
When my problems are bundled
But now I miss my mom's fondle
I feel like I'm a kid again
A little girl who doesn't know
What is "Boyfriend"
A baby girl who's holding a pen
Who writes simple words
With a handwriting of swirls
And will cry freely
As she outbursts
Today, I'm still young but now a lady
And I no longer hide behind daddy
'Cause the world has changed shortly
And it now became the world of anxiety
Every now and then I learn
And day by day it gets absurd
But to hell i care on earth
Even the heaviest rain pours
I still wear my skirt
I will step on on everything
That you will call dirt
And will hear you not
Even if you'll call me a flirt
'Cause i know myself a lot better
And I'm intensively loved
By my partner
I'm grateful for every blessing
That the Gods have given to me
This is a story of fantasy
Where the princess was treated like a baby
And eventually has grown like an army
So bold and clever
A small girl who enjoys to wander
Who found a dark place
Where she could grow fonder
Alone but never scared of any kind of weather
So strong but can be light-hearted
As a feather
Now that my present rough road
Gets better
Little by little I'm getting even stronger.

Every night I feel like writing
My head spins and brimming
I feel the intensity of your lovin'
Even if you're far away from me
Even if you fight with me terribly
In the end, you'd still end up
With your sorry
Your glories I appreciate
Your admiration which inflates
The affection you dictate
And the love you can create
Are the ones which build my crate
Where I can place my cries
Lies and sighs
Tears and goodbyes
Your love for me
Never dies
Your massive and gentle arms
Will always keep me away from harm
And the kisses that you give
Are the kisses forever I'll receive
'Cause for you I'm your life
Your knight and your wife
Our dreams we reach together
Without any predictive fright
'Cause your love grows fonder
And your patience gets longer
That's why with you
I no longer wonder
You want no other than me
And your wish is to make me happy
Your pride is to have your own family
With me
I'm impressed by your faithfulness
'Cause it gives me so much happiness
I know my absence is your weakness
Your embrace is made just for me
Like you said, your body and soul
Belongs to me
I feel thankful whenever we pray
'Cause the gods always lead our way
And whenever your love is put into dismay
I need not worry 'cause it will never go astray.

I can hardly calm now
'Cause babe is sick now
I want to sleep beside him
But how?
I picture how he looks like
When his throat sores tonight
I wish I could regain his might
I want to cuddle him
And take away all the feeling
I wish I could be with him
Nevertheless though I feel stressed
I'm affected when I think of his hoarseness
I long for his sleepy voice
Especially the loss of his voice
But whenever I miss it
It only boils down to
"I don't have any choice"
I wish I could feed him
'Cause I know
His difficulty in swallowing
I wish I could just stand by
Next to him
Just like his tonsil
Which goes to the extent
Of touching his other tonsil
I want to hold my babe
And if only the pain I could grate
I know I'd be feeling better
And not so awake
So please get well my babe
You know not taking your meds
Is what I hate
Don't tire yourself too much
'Cause I'm not there
To give you a body massage
And don't forget
To resist eating chocolate fudge
I miss your touch
When you're not feeling well
Being not there with you right now
Is like hell

Today I feel nothing
I'm tired of the everyday fighting
The feeling is mutual
But the misunderstanding is unusual
Way back then I used to fret
What kind of a creature like you can I get?
Whatever it is that you can be when we fight
continuously
For me you're like an annoying bugging bee
Now that I've grown a bit
I know that I can handle if we painfully split
For love can't always be pampered
'Cause it sometimes drains patience
And the ability to understand will be left hungered
I feel sorry today 'cause I'm actually giving up
I know you'll take this as if you're being dumped
Sorry if I sound so stupid
And I even sound like I wasn't hit by cupid
I loathe it when we debate
Because every point is like an empty plate
I know this one is what you hate
I'm just trying to be very straight

I awoke this morning
Going to the motions where you used to SMS me
I looked at my handphone's screen
But all I saw was 'FIN'
No message at all so I wanted to call
'Cause the pain is like a hole
Come here, help me to get out and crawl
Can you give me something to hold onto?
'Cause at this very moment
I feel so freakin' blue.

I want to grow more. to learn more and to be more
Mature enough to face every life's struggle.
I try to keep myself sane
'Cause I never want to put
Or to be put on a blame
How come we became like this?
And now we're almost out of the frame
You can be my everything
That's why i can easily be nothing
But wait, what we have had were great
And that we have loved each other
With faith
Now i feel like am an empty plate
Which awaits for the juicy steak
Like a hungry guest who wants her cheesecake
And a pissed chef who's tired to bake
I feel lost just like a person looking for a loo
And waits badly for the very long queue
I stopped for awhile and smiled at the sky
I wished that last night's nightmare-like feeling died
I'd bury my tears with a bad finger to fight my fears
And I know that the time is near
When I can shout out my cheer
I won't wait for the half-cooked steak to be served with me
'Cause I want it well-done and be made tenderly
When it is ready to be with me.

I see myself overly excited
And there's no need for me to hide it
The smile on my face
And the feeling of being chased
Everything I imagine is all full of grace
You look at me from a distance
And as you come to me,
I try to control myself
And give you a certain glance
When you come closer to me
I smell your fragrance
Then suddenly you kiss me
And I feel emotionally enhanced
We make the most out of everything
Every Night
'Cause we try to battle against the fright
We are over the top of happiness
When we are together
And that the most difficult things
Make us even stronger
It's almost the same
As when we ride the roller coaster
Where we both hold hands
As we shout out loud together
Now I'm alone and blue
'Cause as long as I'm away from you
I'm stoic and i keep on missing you
The sadness tripled
When you put on your specs
And keep telling me your eyes get misty
'Cause we are being put to test
My heart wanted to jump out
When you awaited for me
Sitting while holding a bouquet of flowers
In the hotel lobby
I felt so sad but very happy
I hate the feeling
When I'd be departed from thee
I long for the times
When you kiss me before I go to sleep
As much as I miss
When I awake you sweetly
From your morning sleep
I see myself overly gloomy
And only by staying here with me
Will tame me
As we walk separate ways hurtfully
Our eyes and hearts bleed violently
Now that we're faraway again
From each other
I absolutely know that we can overcome this
Over and over.

Each day I cry
But all I can do is sigh
I'm counting the days
That have passed by
You've been in my mind every time
And the feeling is one of a kind
I know you're waiting for me,right?
As I stare at my ring
I outburst a certain degree of a feeling
I feel fantastic when you promised me a wedding ring
Every day you tell me you're blue without me
And I also feel that sadness within me
Can you imagine all we've been through?
They don't have any clue
How our love can be so strong and true
Wherever I may be
Or how sad I can be
You always fill my heart with glee
I miss you so
And I love you so
No matter what happens
We'll never let go
I can't wait to hold you
To go back to you
It's like each day
I must be with you

Dear Mommy
I know you're half happy and half sad
But Dad and Yuna will be there
For you to be glad
Dear Mommy
You'll be missing and thinking of me
But never forget
That I'd be thinking of you
Off-repeatedly
Dear Mommy
Don't fret when somebody messes up with me
Because you know that no one would dare
To fight with me
Dear Mommy
Sorry if I'm too strong and careless
I just want everything for us to be "The greatest"
Dear Mommy
Please minimize your cries
'Cause everything is worth the tries
And our family will never end up
With "Goodbyes"
Dear Mommy
Who's gonna' cook for me?
When I get there, Don't worry
I'll make them cook for me.:D
Dear Mommy
Thank you for your patience
You're the only one who bears
With my "Non-sense"
Dear Mommy
I can't measure how much I love you
Everything I have
And will be having
I owe it to you
Dear Mommy
Thanks for giving your everything
And I want you to know
That my love for you
Is unfading

Dear Daddy
How's everything with thee?
I know somehow you're happy
Dear Daddy
Can you still remember the last time
We spoke sweetly?
Was it then when I was seven?
And I looked funny?
I hate it when we annoy each other terribly
But I know that we love each other imperishably
Dear Daddy
I'm sorry if I'm always imperious
And that you sometimes thought
I'm oblivious
Dear Daddy
Do you know that my eyes get teary?
Whenever I fathom my love for you dearly
Dear Daddy
I may not be the best daughter
But I'm the only one who can give you
The best laughter
Dear Daddy
I'm proud 'cause I have you
Sometimes immature
Yet unbelievably true
Dear daddy
Don't cry when I leave
'Cause Mommy's always there
When you grieve
Dear Daddy
I'll be missing you
Whether you think it's untrue
Don't worry and don't be blue
'Cause wherever I may be
I love you!

While making a poem like this
My mouth is filled
With chunky peanut butter chips
Beside me is a slice of Blue cheese
And in the fridge
I treasure my ice cream cake
And a slice of blueberry cheesecake
My day would be incomplete
If I don't have food to eat
Like as much as I need
A complete and heavy food
For breakfast to eat
Eating has been my favorite
And I crave for Angus beef
My day would be great
When I afford to have steak
And yes, I spend money
For this kind of break
I eat anything that can be eaten
Even for you it tastes like a pen
Just like my fave gumbo
Slimy,tastes good and weirdo!
What about my pasta and pesto?
Well I eat them all solo!
And how about chocolates
Like Kinder Bueno?
And Truffles oh no!
Dark chocolates, can't let them go!
Pistachio ice cream and nuts
All of them just add more fats
Dragon roll and Uncle Sam's roll
They make me act like a troll
Please give me the best sushi among them all!
Tuna and salmon they make me crawl
I growl like a starving tiger
When I see oysters and potato balls
Grilled squids and Blue crabs
I feel like I'm trapped
Fish head and belly
Are all I want to see
As much as I miss to eat
Pig brain,ox brain and tasty meat
Veggies and even the leaks
I chew them nicely
Just like one-day-old chicks
I eat all the parts there in a balot
Except its shells and it feel so good
Do you know how much I love exotic food?
Frog legs, rabbit's, snake adobo
And ant eggs are my type of food
I always cook fish eggs
And I seldom like chicken legs
Do you know that I mix broccoli with eggs?
When it comes to fruits
I'm also not finicky with those kind of food
How happy I am when I eat dragon fruit
Filipino dishes 'Dinuguan at Puto'
How come 'Kare-Kare' is not included?
And as well as 'Asado' and 'Tokwa't Tenga ng
Baboy'?
I want Crab Paste and some salty eggs with
tomatoes
What about my fave 'Thai Curry' and Korea's
'Bulgogi'?
Nothing beats 'Galbi' and 'Samgyeopsal' plus 'Makchang gui'
'Galbijjim','Sannakji','Sukhoe'
I feel like I want to eat
'Kasha', 'Cognac Shrimp' and 'Coq au Vin'
They make me see myself as a bum
Mcdonald's fries
Is one of my vices
I deep them on an ice cream
With Apple Sprite
And lots of ice
If humans can be eaten
I'm sure I'll have one of them
Thank goodness humans aren't edible
'Cause if they are
I'mma grab and eat you all!

How many times have you felt scared
When you see grades which are unfair
Haven't you realized
You exert so much care?
Let me share to each of you
Because you don't have any clue
Or know what I'm really going through
For I get grades oftentimes untrue
In school, I domineer and fool
I cackle and make everything cool
Reviewing has never amused me
But I pass every subject surprisingly
I only toil for drollery
Because books are never meant for me
This is not a mockery
So just read and bear with me
I may not be studious like you
But obviously
I'm happier than you
For I get grades which are marvelous
No, am not saying you have to be jealous
I'm not the best in class
Yet no one beats me in French class
The only thing that keeps me going
Is the fact That I'm good at things
Which are not related to studying
What's wrong with me is am not industrious
But thanks to my luck
If all the professors are generous enough
But can grades really prove you're tough?
Well that pondering indeed makes me laugh!
Because grades are just numbers
And it'll not scrape you out of hunger
Is that what will you say to your first daughter?
That she will success if she gets the highest
number?
Just show them what you got
And don't bother them all
From there success is probable
It's indeed great to collect certificates
And build a good etiquette
But it's also important to learn not to fret
I like it more when a student is confident
Rather than a great and a good student
For a great student can't always be eloquent
Just like a good student who can't be fluent
I'm always being praised
But not always 'cause of grades
It's 'cause I do every single thing
With permanent trace
I may be a spartan
Because I can rub it off your face
And defend my stance
Let's see if you'd get any chance
Sometimes I wonder
Why some people get amazed
When all I do is to make face
Don't get me wrong
For this perspective I belong
Because i know you're not that strong
You may see it as negative
But can't you see it's my prerogative?
I don't intend to deride thee
But this poem really works for me
It's not that I don't appreciate
Those people who get high grades
It's just that
It's not what i crave.

It is the word I hardly utter
And many times it is such a bother
I can't give it away any further
Because I just give it to someone
Whose aims are better
If it happens you receive my apology
Then please do stop arguing with me
For it's a miracle if I say "Sorry"
And I'd just do it
If you mean so much to me
So "Sorry" is what I bid to you
And I want you to know
That I really love you.

Whenever I am in a bliss
It's like an everyday feast
But when I reminisce
I look like a mouse
Craving for cheese
I glance at it
And I feel like destroying it
Why do I still look at it?
Even if I turn out to be a hypocrite
There's no point in looking back
Because for him it is a garbage sack
Why do I like to annoy myself?
When I intensively know
It won't help
Now I sound more stupid
Oh please leave me alone, Cupid.

Many years have passed
And it looks like a blast
Realizing I've been through a lot so fast
Each time I feel high
I can't help but to smile
And turn the pages of my life
When it was still like a bile
I've always been lucky all my life
Because I seek the answers I find
And get the things I like
I must not be confident
That I won't be such a blind
For having to start anew
Is never a fair fight
It bothers me not
However would it be like
It's just that It doesn't give me fright
I wonder where it takes me
But I feel a certain degree of glee
It's like another changes are fast approaching me
I wish the good spirits would guide me
I know I don't do well steadfastly
But I also know I can play randomly
There are several kinds of mockery
But I know I won't let them in
And 'cause it just has to be
With luck I will venture blissfully
And I hope this sojourn will take care of me

How many people have told
That your kindness they behold
To them you're indeed very gentle
But they'd never fathom
How good you can handle
Chaos and distrust you were bombarded
How could you still be soft-hearted?
All my life I've been knowing
Only two small persons who still keep going
One is myself and you who always help
You're one of those who love my stories
But i love it more when you assume me glories
At certain times you can't take my follies
And you can't even understand my Britney's
I fully comprehend how much I mean to you
Because you always tell me to be always true
I can't even define the depth of love you have
for me
Because you're always there reaching for me
Whatever it takes, you listen to me
As much as I adore to listen to thee
I'm grateful that I have a small person with me
Who brought a huge happiness within me
You're not just a granny or who they call
'Auntie'
But you're also such a great friend to me.

In times of labyrinth between us
There are always questions to be asked
There are no ways to forsee
What fate would show thee
Yet when you grasp your arms around me
It's like you want to take every little piece of me
Your cold hands turn warm when you kiss
Which in every day reminds me
I'm in a bliss
I want to grab you
And take you wherever I go
Because you'd never have to be dragged
And be forced to
Your dainty eyes keep telling
You want to be with me
As well as when you affirm
"I love you" oft-repeatedly
Let's hold hands
As they sweat when we travel
Beyond happiness
Beyond sadness
Beyond what we feel and see
We wander life together
'Til nothing and no one
Would break us apart
God hears us 'cause He knows
We both possess big hearts
So let's fly real high
Until the end of time
Let's not fill our hearts with dismay
For we will never go astray
We would live our lives and dreams together
Because we will be entwined forever.
Someday it'll make sense
Why do I feel uncertain about what life has to
offer me?
Isn't it I love surprises dearly?
Eventhough I'm already happy,
Should you still be with me?
What if life takes me to somewhere you'll unlike?
Would you still stay with me?
When I over again start fights,
Would you fight back with me?
When tears roll down to my cheeks,
Would you still cuddle me?
When I become more chatty,
Would you still listen to my stories?
When I outburst my childish temper,
Would you still tame me like you always do?
When I feel gloomy,
Would you still cheer me up?
When they mess up with me,
Would you still fight for me?
When we get tired of fighting,
Would you give up?
Or would you still chase me like a cop?
When I leave you,
Will you wait for me?
When we reach our dreams,
Are we still be together?
When the right time comes,
Would you still ask me to marry you?
When we get married,
Would you stay with me through thick and thin?
When we have our third kid,
Would you wish to have more?
When we get older together,
Would you still take care of me?
When my hair turns gray,
Would you tell me you'd like it curly?
When my face gets wrinkled,
Would you still tell me I'm beautiful?
When all else fades,
Would you still love me 'til the end?
Because love can never be fixed

Love can make our hearts gay,
But it's still up to us how we portray
If only I had chance to take,
I wouldn't be stepping on the brake
I easily get addicted when I feel loved,
But there are more sort of feelings that should
be placed above
A real love doesn't get tired,
Yet I proved it's only for the ones who are ought
to be admired
For a real love honestly gets tired,
But a true love unearthly never gets tired
A love without giving gifts is a love without
time,
For time is the greatest gift that you hardly
hand over anytime
A love without humor is a love with so much gore
Because making your loved ones laugh,
Makes a relationship happy and tough
A love without empathy is a sad love story,
Because the only thing that you'd remember is
'apology'
A big love came from a small love,
But once small fights become big,
Both of you will end up out of the rink
I wrote this not only 'cause i'm a realist,
But I also came to know that there are really
love that'll never be fixed
Don't ask where'd I find it

If you only knew how I feel right now
If you only knew how much I want of you
Maybe you would understand
If you only knew how much I love you
If you only knew how much I wish I could see you
Maybe you would trust me
Despite all the wrongs I’ve done to you
And all the times I’ve made you worry
If you only knew how stupid I feel
If you only knew how much I think of you
Maybe you would feel much better
You might not understand us
Or what I’m going through
Please forgive me for my silence
Because I really don’t know what to do
I want to make you happy
And take away all your pain
But this I am unable to do
And all efforts are in vain
I know your fed up with all my apologies
I just never wanted to hurt you
Or make you think I was unfair
I truly wish I could take it back
and have us start anew
Please believe me when I say this
If you only knew…If you only knew

When you gaze into my eyes,
I always see the truth within you
When you smile at me,
I know what you are happy with me
When you laugh with me,
I feel amazed inside of me
When your lips touch mine,
It makes me weak and tamed
When you wrap yourself around me,
I forget my worries and it takes the jealousy away
When you don't feel well,
I wish I could be your medicine
When you feel suspicious,
I make you feel that you are the only one
When you dance like crazy
I shiver secretly
When you fight with me,
I know you want to make things right
When you lie to me
I see it easily
When you hold my hand,
I feel adored
When you spend time with me,
I want to have all the time in the world
When you share your feelings with me,
I want to be everything you need
When you get mad,
I stay quiet and get scared
When you are blue,
I want to spend the night with you
When you feel jealous,
I laugh because you act
and appear to be ridiculous
When you say hurtful things,
I cry myself to sleep
When you say sorry,
You utter it sincerely
When you get so cheesy,
You make me feel that I am the only one
When you pay attention to everything I say,
I become bossy
When you sing a song
Your voice keeps haunting me
When you are thinking of me,
I want you to know that I am thinking of you too.
When you are asleep,
I want to kiss you slowly
When all else fades,
I will still be here sticking with you only

One wintry season in an August when I met her...
She seemed sweet and kind-hearted the first time
I saw her...
Her small eyes awakened my soul...
She had been making me whole...
She's so white like a snow which freezes my
heart...
Which proliferate my feelings for her...
With an unearthly mind she has,takes me to a
fantasy...
She is sweet and weird...
I create funny gestures then she laughs...
Her laugh means so much to me...
Craziest moments summer,winter,spring and fall we
shared together...
And the feelings for the best kiss will be kept
forever...
Distance was never a hindrance between us...
Until I thought we vowed too much...
Now I miss her childish jealousy...
And her unpredictable mood which makes me
happy...
She has been embarking on with her life and I do
the same embarkation...
It is somewhat like a graduation...
Not the subjects we bade goodbye but the "weird
feeling" we used to feel inside...
The loss of communication grew rapidly ...
But the memoirs will be remembered continuously
We shared our deepest thoughts and how glad I am
that we docked to the part where we were bound to
know each other...
She is a great weird girl with a great weird
thoughts when I came to know her...
And know I am crazy writing all about her...
I thought of her yesterday until today...
What is she going to be someday?...
I miss her...

I'm tired of your tightness,
but it leads me to rightness
If the way I handle myself makes you feel in pain,
I'm sorry to say but my life is not plain
I won't wait for you to understand things my way,
Because I think you'll just be forever insane
Nevertheless you still bear with my folly,
and that is how I see your love as fallacy
With you sometimes I hardly feel the sweetness within me,
It is because you seldom deceive me
Am in a bliss while I say this to you,
That I've proved how much i mean to you
You're always there even if I don't need you,
Yet, you're also not there when I need you the most
You have been with me since day one,
Do you think these problems are fun?
If you notice me not being affected,
Then you should know that i ought to be predicted
I spend my days wisely,
That's why I don't become sad expeditiously
Don't think that I give up easily,
For I've handled misfortunes in my life happily.

I had best to know that for you it was offhand,
But for me, It is still something i don't understand
Was it happiness that I felt when you touched my hand?
Or was it just because we were baffled and we
both don't understand?
I do still feel the weird feeling,
And I always want you to keep on believing
We should've nipped in the bud 'cause we know It
is easier if we are apart,
However, all were happened sweetly
Just like a delicious sweet tart.
Seeing you off and on makes me wonder on and on,
Yet, the fact that you've finally moved on made
me say "Just go on"
We can live our lives smoothly,
Even if we see each other rarely
I wish I could be sincere when I say these calmly,
'Cause it hurts a bit if I would utter them sweetly
For good it is to have this frame of mind,
But for a time, there's this answer I still need to find.