Saturn Return wrote...
I have a pretty big rape fetish, but I keep that part of me hidden (for obvious reasons).
I've never been with anyone who would remotely be okay with rape play so I'll live vicariously through hentai/porn/etc.
Sometimes I feel like the biggest perv. :(
I'm lucky to have a boyfriend who happens to be an ex-hentai lover who stopped due to embarassment. So when he found out I watch hentai rather than mainstream porn, he wasn't disgusted and we can bring up tentacles, futanari, loli, rape, etc casually. I did talk to him about the rape thing. He says he'd feel too guilty if he even pretended to rape me.
However...he mentioned an episode of a TV program we watched together. In this episode, an escort ties a man to a chair naked, whips him and smacks his face, then tilts his head back and drips wine into his mouth. He said he'd like that.
I think I can live with that. ;D