Shaun_Donohue wrote...
I have gone through fazes, I'd be fine with it, then hate myself for even having dirty thoughts about the girl I loved as love is "supposed" to be pure. I think a lot of that comes from hang ups we get through social norms. But eventually I came to mostly understand myself, and understand that I was a good person, and that as long as you don't cross any bad lines your fine being you.
I was in the same situation. I felt shame because I viewed porn as dirty and love towards girls "pure". Well, I can tell you those girls are far from pure and so is sexual love. That's how girls keep boys around that think of them as "pure" while they have dirty hard sex with the "bad boys". Let me tell you, no matter how pure and angelic she looks, she's just as sexually dirty and primitive as men. I would tell my former self to snap out of the romantic illusion and just view girls as primitive and dirty as men. Maybe that would save me from the shame and idealism that ended up being all fake and in my head!