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The mists eluded the view outside; nothing could be seen beyond the transparent door to the veranda. Iteyui stared towards it, trying to find something within her hazy sight. Moving her blanket and rising up from her bed, she took a glance at her clock hanging up the wall. She slowly got off her bed, stood on the wooden floor, and wore her slippers.

After several minutes, Iteyui came down the stair, seemingly freshened up, and took a seat. Her mother stood beside her, “You’ve woken up late again! Heat the leftovers on table and go eat breakfast while I went out for a bit!” said her mother. Iteyui just ate them without an actual thought. She just ate, not heating the food, nor thinking about them; she just put the food on her mouth, munching them down. Her mother snapped, “Don’t just eat them! I said heat them up before eating, they are cold by now! Jeez, think before you do something!” she said.

So, what was she thinking about? Surely one thinks about something, us humans think all the time, we didn’t just do nothing when we say that we’re doing nothing, nor do we not think when it seems as though we’re not thinking and are lifeless. We think, we always do, even if we say we’re not thinking; we’re doing it anyway. And Iteyui, was thinking of doing something today, for tomorrow.

Iteyui didn’t respond to her mother; She kept on eating until she was done, “Thank you for the food,” she uttered shortly after. Her mother shrugged and took leave, probably paying visit to a neighboring home.
Iteyui took a look at the calendar, “Tomorrow… “, she whispered.

Later, a boy exited the gates of a manor. He went all way through the cold environment as snow fell by on his coat, which seemingly made out of cashmere wool. He wore his mittens and scarf too. He went to a park after walking for some time, two friends awaited for his arrival, and they proceed to walk down the streets after meeting up. As they did so, the boys' eyes looked back and forth, he starts feeling uneasy, “What’s wrong? We’re closing in on the Games store, you know.”

“Nothing at all,” he said. They entered the store in few minutes, all the while as he felt being watched by the dark figure prowling outside the shop, placing its ear on the store's window in order to eavesdrop, “So, what’s your plan for Christmas? I got myself a girlfriend, so you know what I’m doing!” said one of his friends, “I’m just going to wznder around the park this time… “, he said, looking down for a moment.

Iteyui heard what she wanted to hear, even though she couldn’t hear the whole conversation clearly. But from stalking her love, she learned about his plans for Christmas Eve tomorrow; She needs to go towards the park by next day, to find him.

Iteyui isn't someone who exactly understand the meaning of love, nor had she ever felt being showered by it. But she knew; deep down, that she wanted to be with him, at least for a minute. Talk to him and have him... all to herself. The feeling of desperately wanting to be with him and wanting to be showered by his love burned within her fragile heart. She wanted it all, from his attention, to all of his free times, to… all his love.

Iteyui then ran off, just when the boy looked towards her.

***



The Christmas Eve was almost at hand; Iteyui could be found preparing herself on her room, dressing up, applying makeups and expensive perfumes. “I see that you have a date today, who’s the lucky guy?” her mother said, leaning on the wall behind her on her room, grinning.

“M-Mom?! What are you doing here?!” Iteyui asked, startled. “Just watching you as you're about to go out on a special date?” she responded, giving a grin again.

Iteyui pushed her mother out soon after. And after preparing herself, she finally makes the decision of going out to the park.

Once she enters the park, Iteyui promised herself to not back away and watch the boy from afar. But when she spotted the boy walking around, she quickly jumped behind the bush, watching him from afar…

So, what was she waiting for? What held her back? What went so horribly wrong that she hid herself there? The answer was: she herself. She simply shied away, although she knew that it wouldn’t go well this way.

So Iteyui called upon the last strands of her courage. She rose up from crouching. Although faint, the sound of the bush’s leaves moving and bustling reached the boy’s ears.

The boy looked over to the bush instinctively, and saw a dark figure standing behind the bushes under the shade of tree which is covered with snow, covering the figure with it’s shadow. What descended out from the darkness was none other than Iteyui, blushing.

Iteyui looked down as she approached him; he didn’t spoke, but gave a stare, “Could it be…?” he spoke in awe.

Iteyui gulped, “H-H-Hi *****!!”

“Hi… Iteyui… “

“Was it you who's watching me yesterday from outside the CD store?”

Iteyui couldn’t lie when it was him, “Y-Yes…. “

“Then, why didn’t you come and say hello?” he said.

“What?! But wouldn’t yo--”

***** interrupted, “You dummy. You thought I’d ignore you and leave you alone, didn’t you?”

“Well… yeah… after what happened that day… “

“Typical Iteyui”, ***** closed his eyes, sighing.

“So, you’ve been watching me all along. Always stalking me?”

“That’s right… “

“What’s with you? Creep!”

“W-What…?! “

“I don’t hate you anymore, so stop cowering away, dummy. You can talk to me if you want to, who’d be angry at someone for so long, 'cuz of something trivial?”, ***** said, putting his hands on her cheek, looking directly to her eyes.

Iteyui’s face was clearly flustered, “B-B-But I…”, she started to cry. Realizing her mistake of not talking it out with him earlier.

“You can’t get on the festive mood with that face, those tears, or in that gloomy and creepy state, Iteyui. Though, I must apologize for being immature in those days, yelling at you for that one trivial mistake you made. I should have made it up to you… though whenever I visited, your mom always said you weren't home, and I couldn’t really find you anywhere,” ***** said, then continued, “Anyway, smile!”

In the past days of middle school, Iteyui used to be gloomy too. She’s always alone, never talking to anyone and do everything on her own. She's used to be bullied all the time. It was that one day when ***** took pity on how she always got bullied due to being a †˜different’ person on class and protected Iteyui from the bullies. But that has led Iteyui to finding ***** as the only subject of her social interaction; which led her to try and converse with him, later forming the bond of friendship after lot of efforts spent trying to talk to him.

But Iteyui bothered ***** too much, to the point rumors spread around the school and he could feel everyone snickering behind while speaking to Iteyui. He felt his pride crumbling.

But the ***** of today thinks differently, “Fuck the world, who cares about how others thinks? Do what you want and talk to the girl you love freely, without thinking about anything else, and walk forward on your path. It doesn’t matter what lowlife scums like those bullies, and people laughing at your back thinks.”

Iteyui gave a wide and happy smile as her tears start flowing down. From tears of sadness they turned into the tears of joy. She has finally reached salvation from affliction.

Iteyui looked away, “I-I was wondering if you… “

“Huh? What? Speak more clearly please.”

“W-Will you be my… “

***** realized at this point what Iteyui was hesitating to say “Was this something she wanted to say for a long time?” ***** wondered as he had that thought roam his mind.

He would not turn back from this, “Yes, I’ll be your boyfriend.”

Iteyui’s face was flushed red as of now, completely visible to *****’s eyes, Iteyui looked down again, unable to meet her eyes with *****’s.

“R-Really?!”

“Yes. Or do you want me to be the Prince on shining armor now? Hahaha! That aside, I’ve loved you for quite some time now, you just haven’t realized. I’ve regretted a lot after yelling at you that day you know? Saying †˜get away from me’ was a really cruel thing to do, now that I think about it.”

“I-I didn’t knew… I’m so happy now… I could die happily now… “

“Don’t talk about dying now…”

“But I…”


“Hmm?”

“I was just… I was just thinking… about what I have been doing all along. By always hiding from you. I’ve just realized that it was a big waste of time. I could have better spent those times by actually being with you and talking to you, rather than just watching from afar. I’m starting to… regret what I did…”

“Don’t do that. You were able to learn more about me that way right, it’d have been different if you spoke directly, you wouldn’t see another side of me, now would you? Look on the bright side. What’s done is done. What you can do now is move on and make your future better, yes?”

Iteyui embraced *****, tightly and suddenly. ***** was taken by surprise; it was the first time they did something like this.

“H-Hey! I was just about to do that! You stole my idea.”

“Hehehe… “ Iteyui giggled, after which, gave a warm smile. ***** felt Iteyui’s warmth, as they still hugged each other, with Iteyui’s hands wrapped around *****’s neck.

Their steamy breathe could be seen in the cold air, the moment seemed just right for the two, as they slowly closed their eyes, their nose, eyes, ears, and lips, closed in.

They kissed, after their lips finally met and touched each other, the moment was truly sublime, at least for that couple that took birth on the Christmas Eve.

After their lips departed, ***** asked, smiling, “So, where would you like to go now?”