Thousand Eyes wrote...
I personally think there is no real reason that makes life worth living. It's really something that you create for yourself. That in itself to me feels pointless. I wish the reason for living was natural, not something created by you for you. In the end, it baffles me how everyone around me can continue to exist without deeply thinking about a topic like this and just go with the flow as if I'm the one unusual for even questioning existence. I can tell you that I AM feeling rather suicidal and that there is nothing left to do when all has been done already.
Does it matter if what you do is worthless or not? If its something you want to do then it doesn't matter, or to me that is the case. If life is worthless but I want to live then it doesn't matter as long as I can find enjoyment out of it no matter how small.
If the reason for living was natural, something given by something else. It would be easy. There's very little value in something easy, and looking at the people who choose to take value from... Controversial sources. Go as far as choosing foolish misconceptions/delusions of reality and refuse to question and expand out of the complexity of reality (the US governor who claims "science is the product of the devil" comes to mind). I understand that a lot of people want meaning, want a purpose, want a indefinite validation for there existence, I admit that I'm such a person. But this is not something given, if you want any sense of belonging, any type of feeling that someone wants you, that someone needs you, you'll need to seek/create (fond of the idea of having my own daughter someday and becoming a doting father) that someone. They will depend on you the same you will depend on them, but its hard and painful to do so, but it is worth the hardship if you find the right person/people. Even with the wrong person/people you can find bits of happiness, that can motivate you to find the real more, if not from them from others. (To an extent i'm trying to find that feeling of "belonging", a place, here on fakku, surrounding yourself with the right type of people will always help, knowing this is why I try even though a small bit of me wants to give up and probably always will seek the easiest solution when ever it becomes hard for me. Regardless of the difficulty, I've already had a taste of happiness and I want more. I enjoy being happy over sad so much more.)
People choose to ignore because its easy, when you don't think too much about it it becomes easier to keep moving forward, it's not a bad thing. But as I have shared above, I do think some people go to far in seeking the easy. Humans are frail and weak, mentally and physically, its not unreasonable that a person has limits and would seek the easy. But the burden of difficulty is not something only a single person needs to shoulder.
No one person flow is the same as another, this is something I believe. That no two people can truly be in perfect unison in every manner of being, but we can find those who are close, and amass ourselves in many of these close to us individuals, they may not understand everything but that they can understand anything, helps. We flow differently but its the differences that can bring in new and interesting in our lives, internet makes it tremendously easier in every way to me, one the best creations in the history of man.
Sorry if I'm preachy, I rewrote this over and over... -_-. I made a number of assumptions and guesses, some still in this, and I apologies if there off. There are a lot of people out there willing to listen, being someone to depend on and depending on you. Its hard to find them, and can also be hard to stay by them at times, but they can be a necessary support when you feel alone. I know fakku users are here, rather it be a positive or negative response, people here care enough to listen, think, and respond, they care enough to bother, which I see as a good thing. Even if I get a negative response I'm still being valued. I'm not invisible and unwanted, my opinion matters to someone (enough to support it or not accept it and try to change it). Everything to be gained in life has to be sought after, even if its only through seeking that next mornings first breath. All things gained by people are gained through continuing to seek, in general, life. That you came here and posted leads me to believe you seek something too, if I can I'm trying to give you any shred of it that it may be, but from what I understand at most I can make only assumptions of what it is that you seek. I can end up going on and on (on assumptions), and I've already spent over an hour (suppose to be studying XD) on this so I'll stop here. Hope this makes you feel, even a slight bit, better.