I have no idea if I am an atheist, or some other else. But I am a Christian, yet I don't believe in God, mostly because of this:
Lelouch24 wrote...
[color=#2e1a6b]2. It would be inconvenient for me to not be a Christian. Like I said, I'm surrounded by Christianity, and I wouldn't hear the end of it if I stopped being a Christian.
It would be inconvenient for me to stop receiving presents during Christmas.
But joking aside, I used to be your above average Christian. Loony enough to believe anything, but not enough loony to just spend my entire life hoping for a miracle, wasting money to buy religious items.
At this point, I was a High School Student. And I guess this is where I started to lose faith in God. Everything just went downhill when I entered High School. And even though I prayed everyday, gave the church 20 pesos per mass, nothing happened. They say that for God to help you, you must help yourself. And I was, like, "what? Doesn't that mean you're just working hard? God is NOT helping you". But this motto has been beaten into every christian mind that I know of, that I took it for the norm and didn't question it further. So I worked hard and prayed harder, but everything just fell harder.
That is until I reached College that my eyes started to really open. Now at this point, I started to question Christianity. I started to skip masses. And I only went to mass because my parents loved it.
Then one day, while surfing the web, I found a video title named
George Carlin - Religion is Bullshit. I was curious, not only because i've heard that this Carlin dude was funny, but I heard he also spouted sense. Philosophically Funny, you could call it. I opened it, and I laughed so hard, because questions that I had about Christianity, but never bothered to question further, the dude answered it while making people laugh. Which, BTW, is a great idea to make the idea stick to their heads, make a joke that is memorable. And this guy did it.
After watching him, I seriously began to question Christianity, read books. blogs, and sites that question not only religion, but sometimes even politics and life itself. For once in my life, I expended my knowledge, one that wasn't bound by Christian thinking. But rather one that was thirsty for truth and knowledge. At the end of it all, I found loopholes almost everywhere. Christianity was full of loopholes that counteract not only the bible itself, but also today's modern Christians.
Today, I don't like to argue with other religious people, mostly Christians, especially with extremists, because I knew that no matter what I say, they're not gonna believe in it. They've already been sucked into Christianity. I guess I was just lucky before I myself got sucked into it.
I keep my thoughts to myself because, well, what Lelouch has already explained. I am born in a community where 95% of the people are Christians. And until the day that religion is finally considered obsolete and unneeded, I will keep on this "farce", as others might call it. A christian that doesn't believe in God.